Hi guys I wanted to give you a little Background into the story. Logan, Carlos Kendall and James have lived in LA for the past 4 years now be coming one of the biggest boy bands ever. But as everthing in their worlds keep changing will feelings and friendships do the same?

Jagan slash! I've actually never written a fanfiction before this kinda just came yo me and isn't planned so please let me know if it's god awful or you can just throw tomatoes at the screen haha, but please tell me what you think and if you want me to keep going.

Chapter 1

Logans POV:

"I said give it back Carlos, I need that!" I heard James protest through the Oh too thin walls that connected Kendall and mine and James and Carlos's room. You see once every 4 months we Change rooms. That way we all get a new change up no one gets jealous and Nobody kills their roommate, Or so we thought unfortunately every time it's Carlos and James share a room World War 3 goes down by hour 4 let alone month. Kendall and I tried to talk to them about Maybe skipping their time,but being James and Carlos the hot heads that they are they simply screamed got offended and stormed off to the pool claiming they were fine. This time was no different, We had only changed rooms that morning and just like clockwork they were at it again. "Well time to go to be Switzerland" I think to myself getting up off my bed putting my book down on my nightstand and dropping to the floor. It's probably something so stupid like Carlos James's lucky comb For bazillith time. Since we were all 18 now we applied for a new apartment with Griffon and are waiting fot his decision so hopefully that will give us a little more room in the near future.

Reaching forward slowly I opened the door revealing a predictable sight with a twist. Carlos was up on the bed rapidly leaning from direction to the direction trying to sike James out, helmet securely fastened to his head. James flustered stood at the side hand out still standing almost at eye level with the significantly shorter Latino boy. But the object in hand wasn't a black shiny comb as Logan had suspected but a golden square foil with the words Mega Trojan written across the top. " what was James doing with that he had only barely gotten Lucy to go out with him after months of persecution and suddenly a month later they were having sex?" "Camile and I dated 8 Months last time and we never had sex." "And what was with the mega was James that big?" None of us had seen him naked since he was 14 he came out as Bi and I all felt it was best to just not change without underwear infront of eachother. Logan thought train was quickly Interupted by the blood curdling scream James out as lept into the air tackling and pinning the much smaller Latino beneath his tall muscular frame. Running over the I shove James off of Carlos "Knock it off man" I said glaring At his Lack of self control. " No! James protested "I'm sick and tired of him being on everyone's ass who's in a relationships because he can't get over Kate!" "It's like he secretly wants everyone to be as miserable as he is!". That was a low blow and one Carlos just couldn't take he dropped his head and ran out of the room. You see believe it or not Carlos was the first of all of us to have their first kiss, get a girlfriend, lose their virginity and most importantly fall in love. Her name was Kate. Katelynn Marie Tupper That is the name of first girl to ever break Carlos's heart.

None of us ever talked about Kate it was as off limbts as Kendall's dad, Carlos had been love with Kate since he was in the 2nd grade when he sat next to her. She was Lefty do they would always bump elbows they didn't seem to care though they'd just laugh and say sorry. Carlos kept his love a secret For many years until the 7th grade, He asked her to the school dance and she accepted. That night Carlos asked her to be his girlfriend and kissed her in the middle of the dance floor. For the next 2 and a half years the pair were nearly inseparable that was until 2 weeks before the auditions. We were all Hanging out at Carlos house Kate showed up at the door crying and Asked Carlos if they could talk outside. The pair went out the door and talked for about 15 minutes. He never told us what she said but we all knew as Carlos walked inside tears streaming down his tan cheeks and mumbled the Words you guys should go as he walked up the stairs and into his bedroom. We all tried to follow but he locked the door and sobbing sounds coming from within we figured he just needed to be alone. As the next week dragged on it was clear that Carlos was devastated a ghostly figure of once was a bubbly 15 year old boy and nothing but time was gonna help. We all hoped that the move would do some good though but it Only seemed Make things worse he'd fake a smile all day then ball as soon as he got home. This went in for 6 months before he started to appear to move on but more accurately he was internalizing his pain. He still does it that why we think he always so happy and energetic he's over compensating for his pain. We wouldn't know so much except he

talks in sleeps beggs her for another chance screaming he can't take one more day of his pain. He then wakes up and cries we all just pretend to sleep for his sake. Sometimes I don't think he'll ever be Okay again.

Carlos's POV:

How dare he say such a thing! Of course I don't want them to be miserable like me! Nobody the world should have to feel the way I do, Four goddamn Years I've spent in this hell hole. The love of my life is with another guy it kills me. Unable to move on do to my all consuming love for her that still tares at ever weaking heart daily and the overwhelming fear that if I get close to another girl she'll certainly rip my heart out just as Kate did all those years ago and I can't handle that I would Undeniably leave this world at 19 years of age. So no James you're wrong I don't. But I'm not supposed to have these thoughts I'm Carlos i'm the hyper stupid one with nothing more below the surface.

James's POV:

Yeah I know it was stupid and uncalled for and never would have ever thought I say but he just makes me so Mad sometimes the way he picks. I mean I had just gotten back from the store it was my first time buying condoms so I don't even know if they're the right size. I already so nervous and in comes Carlos. "Big plans for tonight buddy?" "Better not cum too quick cuz no way Lucy is a virgin". As much as I hated him for sayin it he was right Lucy wasn't and I was. I shouldn't be I'm 18 years old and been with a lot of girls but never long enough to sleep with them and then there was the whole year I thought I was strictly gay. When you're the only one of your friends who's a virgin you get a lot of shit to say the least. But none of that stuff mattered I should have never said that. I just hope he can forgive me.

Logan's POV:

It's been a few minutes since Carlos ran out and I still don't know what to say. My thoughts consume me but it's not about what to do with Carlos. I wish Kendall was here he's so much better with people than me. He was out on a date with Jo I always envied their relationship they were so happy so much happier than Camile and I ever were. We tried so hard to make us work we just couldn't something wasn't there the sex wasn't there dispite what I Conveyed to the boys. She said she wanted to wait till she knew I wouldn't leave but I did so we didn't. Maybe that's why I'm so upset about James having sex. Yes that's it nothing more. It's mere jealousy I can't be blamed for that just like I can't blame that beautiful Brown haired Hazel eyed boy for what he said to Carlos. Simply because that because that beautiful creature of a man has never Had to feel the heart wrenching pain of loving somebody who you know sees you as just a friend.

Heyy guys that's chapter 1 I really hoped you liked it thanks so much for reading my story. Please tell me if you want chapter 2!