That night as I sang, his eyes looked at me holding an emotion he never had before.
As my voice echoed through that audience, I could only hear my heart thumping inside.
Those words that escaped my mouth, I knew rang true, holding a deeper meaning that only my heart and mind could understand.
And, when his lips pressed against mine I knew ...
I knew that that in making him promise to never love me, I had broken my own request.
He was different.
He was someone I never would have expected to be holding my hand and showering me with his affection.
Beneath all his rage and cocky attitude, there was a boy deep down inside who knew how to love.
Looking into his eyes, I see past all the illusions of him, and I see the true him.
He is everything, and so much more. All these moments with him are all just something to remember.
That night when he handed me that sweater – the pinkness of it almost blended in with my blushed face.
When he dances with me underneath the moonlight, it's only me and him, and all those stars.
And for each one I make a wish.
He wasn't supposed to be on the list.
But because of him, I was able to fulfill my dreams.
When he planted my feet in two different places, I was not on the state border line, I was on cloud nine.
This butterfly tattoo on my shoulder seems to have moved into my stomach; fluttering each time he looks at me.
Nothing could ever cover up this smile on my face.
Nothing that is, except the darkness of my destiny.
I knew time was ticking away for me, and that's why I never wanted to hold onto anything.
But when I grabbed onto him, I couldn't let go.
I cry each night knowing he can't see the truth behind my eyes.
I cry each night knowing I lie to him through my smiles.
He doesn't know. He only sees me – he sees my happiness, but he doesn't see the pain inside.
God has his reasons.
He did not bring this boy into my life to burden me with more tears and heartbreak.
Bringing Landon into my life is giving me a chance to live, before the end.
And I know that through all this darkness, there is light.
Through all this sorrow, there is love.
For every end there is a new beginning.
Through all of this...there is only hope.