They say goodbyes are forever
"I'll fight for you, Germany!" I watched as he ran, I watched as he tried to prove to me how strong he had gotten. "Italia! NO!" I watched as he started to fall. Everything seemed to be in slow motion. Everything seemed to be so unreal, that's right, none of this was reality. All of this was a nightmare that I needed to wake up from. Stepping forward instinctively, my arms held out, I caught him and sank to my knees. "Italia!" There was a wound in his chest and so much blood. The crimson liquid poured out of him relentlessly, no stopping it no matter how he was treated. I watched as the life began to drain from his gaze and I felt my heart pound in my chest. Nothing else that was going around us mattered, the pouring rain was the only sound as I shook the male that was covering my arms with blood. "Italia! You can't leave me! Don't you dare do this to me! ITALIA!" I felt my body trembling as I stared at him, the rain disguising the tears that poured down my dirt covered cheeks. When there was no response from his body that was increasingly getting colder, I buried my face against his body. "Wake up, you pasta loving idiot! Open your eyes, Feliciano! You can't die like this! I never got to tell you. ..I never got to say that I love you!" A felt a sudden cold touch brush against my cheek and I instantly shot up, taking the hand that was barely moving as I stared into my dying love's eyes. "Ne, Germany. ..I love you too." His voice was soft and barely audible over the pounding rain but without any hesitation holding my body back I pressed my warm lips against his freezing cold ones. The small grip that I felt in my hand loosened and as I pulled back, his eyelids fell over his lifeless eyes. Every wall I had built up to keep him away, every door and every lock to hold him back fell apart as I pulled him to me, It felt as if the world was coming to an end around me. "ITALIA!"
Shooting up, the sound of my heart slamming in my chest was the only sound I could heard until the deafening crack of thunder that shook my home. Slipping my fingers through my hair, I moved and let my feet hit the floor before I stood up, glancing at the calender I had set up above a desk. "So thats the reason I had that nightmare again. It's really been a year, hasn't it?" My body felt heavy as I moved to the nearest sink, instantly splashing ice cold water on my sweat stained face. As my head fell back against the pillow, I couldn't help remembering more about him. The only person who was ever able to break me down. The only person I was ever able to love. I felt myself drifting off and before I realized what was happening, I was standing in front of Italy once again; as if he had been by my side the entire time. This memory was another nightmare though, another thing that made me want to forget everything. "What are you talking about, Doitsu!" I felt the air fill my lungs before I blew all of it out, a hand brushing through my hair. "I can't do this any longer, Italia." The words were cold as they passed through my lips and I felt my heart begin to sink. This was the only way to protect him. This was all that I was able to do for the nation that was so dear to me. If he stayed by my side he would only get dragged into more and more trouble. I wasn't going to lose him. "Doitsu, please don't say that! I'll do anything! Don't leave me!" The sorrow filled expression on his face was enough to send me to my knees but I stood my ground, my tight fists trembling. "I'm sorry, Feliciano. This is goodbye." As I watched the silent tears pouring down his cheeks, I turned my body and strode away, keeping my mind as steady as possible to stop myself from falling apart right then and say that goodbyes are forever. I never knew that it my case, that would be true.