A/N; This is my first Twilight fanfic, so uhhh, whoo! ^^
This is based on one of my favorite should have been pairings… Leah and Jacob. Blackwater, basically. Kind of, anyway… 8D
And alsoooo… This is from Sam's point of view. ^^
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Cannot Forget
She is happy. So, so happy.
And I'm not a part of that happiness.
She is in love. So, so in love.
And I… am not part of that love.
She has not voiced words aloud securing her love for sure—but there are evident signs. The gentle, brief touches, the glances lingering just an extra second, the subtle smiles caught and flashed back…
She is in love. So, so in love.
And I am not part of that love.
I never meant to hurt her—but I suppose good intentions are just never enough.
I wanted to love her—but I suppose wanting something is just not enough.
She looks so happy with him. Jacob. And, if she is happy, I must resign myself to being happy. For her.
She is strong. She can deal with the pain. She already did. With Jacob.
But have I?
Emily is everything I ever wanted—and more. But back then, before I saw Emily… She was everything I ever wanted.
They fit each other. She and Jacob… they move together as one, as if they belong together—and maybe they rightfully do.
But I cannot forget that she was once mine.
Jacob is a good man. He will not hurt her like I did. He will stay true to her, in contrast to my own betrayal of her.
She is willing to love him. She is willing to give her heart to him.
It is unbearable.
He is willing to love her, too. He is willing to give his heart to her.
I was, too. But that just wasn't the way it played out to be. Now, instead of my arms, she is in Jacob's. Instead of holding hands with me, she is grasping tightly on to Jacob.
Her thoughts on Jacob are pure, and ever since they began… the ones about me halted. She sees only Jacob in a romantic light now; I have sunken in to the past, in to the dark, and in to the quiet.
He is perfect for her in every single way, and vice versa.
They belong together—but I will not forget.
I cannot forget.