Hehe~ this is the first fanfiction I have posted on this website, and I'm ecstatic! :D This fanfic is Distained, from the manga Haru Wo Daite Ita. WARNING, explicit acts and language will be added, so shield your eyes and get the hell out before it's too late! XD Please review or PM about any suggestions, criticisms, or if you just wanna talk :3 I've noticed that this manga hasn't had any truly long fanfics, so feast your eyes on the one that will beat all the rest :D Hope the quality is enjoyable though ^^; Anyways, ENJOY!

Distained

What Should Have Never Been

The room felt as if it was circling endlessly, as the tight grip around his now pale neck forced his senses to become numb. With his mouth slightly ajar, John lightly held onto his thought-to-be friend, whose very hands were stealing the life from his body. "Aki…hi…to…" the barely conscious man muttered softly, as he stared deeply into the emotionless eyes that rested before him, haunting his very being, for he was unable to even think about glancing away. "W-Why…?"

"'Why?' Do I have to answer that John? Do I?" the murderous man shouted back, no longer able to hide away the anger that was concealed within him. "I should be asking you that question! Why bother going to a foreign country just to see a man who couldn't care less about you? Why barge into someone's life just because all you wanted was to show them your love when they believe that emotion if just a piece of unwanted shit!" Akihito yelled back frantically to the almost dead man below him, shedding tears that landed softly on his cheeks; burning the mans skin like acid as they reminded him of rain drops that had been discarded from the dark sky above them.

Until all struggle had ceased from the foreigner, the empty man left the scene within the dark of the night, no longer able to cease the tears he had tried so hard to wipe away. "You idiot…if you didn't come back I would have been through with you…" The raven-haired man spoke in an inaudible tone, walking down the boulevard of 10th street, as he wondered where this action would eventually lead him.

"And…CUT! Great job Iwaki-san, you too Izanagi-kun; this scene is a wrap!" Director Higurashi exclaimed, as Izanagi ruggedly picked himself up from the cemented ground, swaying his blonde hair from left to right as Iwaki was handed a bottle of water from his attractive manager, taking a sip of it as she stared at him with concerned, unamused eyes.

"Alright everyone, that's it for today, and I'll see you all on Monday!" He fare welled to each person on the set, heading towards the speechless man who was preparing for his departure. "Iwaki-san, wait!" Turning back, the handsome actor shone a smile to the producer, stopping entirely as he gave him his full attention.

"What is it, Director?"

"Iwaki-san, why did you come to work today? You should have stayed home and rested, after what ju-" the older man was cut off as the gray eyed man lifted his slender fingers as a queue to end the unneeded sentence, wishing not to hear another word that was compared to blasphemy.

"Director, if an actor like myself mixes personal life with work, it would become disastrous. In such times of grief and despair, I still need to return to my awaited job with a smile on my face until all is completed. What kind of a man would I be if I spent days away, or slowed down production with unneeded emotions? Thank you for worrying, but all is fine. I will see you on Monday, and have a safe trip home." The gentleman explained with a hint of professionalism, placing his façade on perfectly as he left the building towards his car as Shimizu followed behind him, about to crack with disbelief and pain.

"Hey, it's Iwaki-san; do you think we should invite him out for a drink? Everyone on set is co-OUCH!" Hoshu yelled, rubbing his arm as he stared back at his companion.

"Are you crazy? After what happened to him, why the hell would he come out for a drink with anyone? Use your head, he's obviously torn inside." Ryouto warned, exhaling a sharp breath as the person next to him simply nodded, still unable to believe just what reality could provide.

"Yeah, I guess you're right..." he emitted a deep sigh, his face grave with disappointment. "But what I really want to know is how Iwaki-san was able to get here. I mean, he's supposed to be grieving, right? After all, Katou is gone now..." Hoshu asked back, engaging in the conversation as a bit of sadness swept over the two men.

"I think he is, but remember that he's a professional; he could force a façade on as fast as we can blink." The sullen man peered to the vanishing actor, who was now a great distance away from the two. "You know his number one rule: Never associate personal life with work. I just never thought he would really mean it though; I have to give him credit for using it when the time was right." This wasn't right, he was driving himself too deep, this situation couldn't be set aside in just a matter of days!

"You know, I really hated yesterday…"

"I get what you mean, especially those damn paparazzi! Iwaki-san has to deal with one of the hardest things in his life, and those idiots decide to pour salt over his wound? It was ridiculous..." Ryouto spat out, scowling at the treacherous memory that eclipsed his mind.

Allowing a bit of silence to over whelm the workers, Hoshu finally spoke in a soft, barely audible voice "How long do you think he'll last?"

This questions answer seemed quite valid. After all, if Katou truly meant as much to Iwaki-san as they thought, the older actor would eventually drown from this situation. If the boiling water that surrounded his now fragile body didn't get him, the waves to come surely would.

"I don't know…"

Sorry if this first chapter is a bit short, but i REALLY wanted it to end with that "I don't know..." line XD I'm thinking about updating this fanfic about twice a week, since only once doesn't really seem to suffice -.- I'll probably be posting up new chapters (if i find out how, cause is being a real bitch to me right now...) every Wednesday and Friday. Is that a good idea? :)

Anyways, REVIEW TO FIND OUT WHAT HAPPENED TO KATOU! :D