Author: I don't know why I wrote this (I can't even write Zack!). After watching LO I was just thinking how awful Zack must have felt after Nibelheim incident. So he's now under Hojo's wings with Cloud. And very tired. Even he can't be optimist all the time and so sometimes his mind wanders to that time when everything happened. ... ... ... Eh I said I don't write shounen ai, but I think there is hint of S/Z here. And lots of grammar errors.

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Lied Truths

If it weren't for that last order, everything would be better now. But we went to Nibelheim, to place where these nightmares started.

Burning fire ate village and its people like the flames of hell. Of course, after your sword's steel had cut them. I never thought you could be so merciless. How can a human contain such sadness and anger that he does things like you did? That was just too horrible. This is just too horrible what happened to us.

The anxiousness that started to reflect through your eyes and features when we first came to village disturbed me. You never were the type of person who showed his feelings so openly or let them rule you like that. It seemed like you just… changed suddenly. If I had been able to read ahead… If I knew that anxiousness was going to turn into sadness and then madness… What could have happened? I would have done my everything to stop you from going to that nest of evil. Although the real nest is still maybe in Midgar. Heh.

I don't understand what you were thinking. You weren't a human? That's just ridiculous! You kept calling that… that… thing! your mother. I thought you were wiser than that. Who there was a fool? Who? When did Hojo start to tell truths? His books were all full of that same crap that he himself spoke to you. Just because it didn't come straight from his mouth was enough reason to believe it all? What the hell happened to you!

So here we are now. I trusted you, you betrayed me, and life started to suck. I try to be sane here for all I can for the sake of me and above all, for the sake of Spike. You, I don't want to think about you anymore. You are gone. When we succeed to escape from here, we will continue our life, somehow. Even if this burden, memory will always going to be with us.

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