Ranger's POV

I'm leaving. I have to go. It's not safe for her to be around me. I kept my daughter, Julie, a secret and she was still kidnapped. My life does not lend itself to relationships of any kind. This woman means so much to me… I'd die if anything happened to her. It will be better for the both of us if I'm out of the picture. I just can't give her what she wants.

Never really said too much

Afraid it wouldn't be enough

Just try to keep my spirits up

When there's no point in grieving

Doesn't matter anyway

Words could never make me stay

Words will never take my place

When you know I'm leaving

I'm not going to stay away forever. I just need to put some distance between us. I need to let her move on. Part of me is hoping she'll fight for us and give me some hope that later on down the road, when I'm better off, that I might be able to come back to her. I'll leave her with memories and the promise that she'll always be watched over.

Try to leave a light on when I'm gone

Something I rely on to get home

One I can feel at night

A naked light, a fire to keep me warm

Try to leave a light on when I'm gone

Even in the daylight, shine on

And when it's late at night you can look inside

You won't feel so alone

I'm taking on a mission that, like all the others, is absurdly dangerous and means that my life is the only poker chip on the table. I know she hates it when I'm "in the wind," but I need to get away and my work is the perfect excuse. We got to have one wonderful night a couple of years ago and I've been hooked ever since. I had to send her back to him. I had to do something to remind myself that I couldn't have her. Several times we've lived together for short periods of time and I've gotten too close again. Keeping my distance frustrates her to no end, but she doesn't understand why I do it.

You know we've been down that road

What seems a thousand times before

My back to a closing door and my eyes to the seasons

That roll out underneath my heels

And you don't know how bad it feels

To leave the only one that I have ever believed in

I walk into her apartment. She's asleep and doesn't hear me. She senses me as I enter her bedroom and stirs. Somehow she always knows when I'm near. I love that about her. I brush a stray hair out of her face and she opens her eyes. She has a moment of panic as she comes awake fully, but smiles when she sees it's me. I kiss her on her forehead and she knows I'm leaving. She frowns, but doesn't talk. I think she might be fighting tears.

"Babe."

"You're going away, aren't you?"

"Yea. The guys will be available. Don't hesitate to call them if you need anything."

"Anything?" she asks with a half smile.

"What is it you want?" I ask, hoping she'll say me.

Instead she looks down, away from me.

I take her in my arms and inhale her scent. It will have to get me through this mission….perhaps the rest of my life.

Try to leave a light on when I'm gone

Something I rely on to get home

One I can feel at night

A naked light, a fire to keep me warm

Try to leave a light on when I'm gone

Even in the daylight, shine on

And when it's late at night you can look inside

You won't feel so alone, ooh, yeah

I hear a car in her lot and move to the window to look out. It's him. He must be coming back from a stake out or bust. She knows it's him when she sees my face and she gets a look of panic. I walk over to the bed and kiss her. It's slow and I try to silently tell her what she means to me. I hope she will understand that I do this because I care. I want her to be happy.

Sometimes it feels like we've run out of luck

When the signal keeps on breaking up

When the wires cross in my brain

You'll start my heart again

When I come along, yeah

I'm gone before he gets off the elevator. I get into the car that's taking me to the airport. I look up at her window and see her there, watching me. She smiles and I know that it was for me. As the car pulls out of the parking spot I see her turn and a light come on. That light is not for me, but the sight of her is what will carry me through. That is what will make me come back. Guess I'm a glutton for punishment. I want her, but can't have her. I walk away, but I'll never stay away.

Try to leave a light on when I'm gone

Something I rely on to get home

One I can feel at night

A naked light, a fire to keep me warm

Try to leave a light on when I'm gone

Even in the daylight, shine on

And when it's late at night you can look inside

You won't feel so alone

Try to leave a light on when I'm gone

Even in the daylight, shine on

And when it's late at night you can look inside

You won't feel so alone

Light On- David Cook