Father, what have I done to deserve this?
Did I not fight hard enough?
Have I not followed your orders?
Why father do you:
Ignore me
Not talk to me
Acknowledge me?
Why am I not good enough for you?
You ignore me when I try to talk to you, I only get grunts and humphs,
If I'm lucky…
You don't even train with me, and when you do, you beat me within inches of my life.
And when I finally fall in exhaustion;
You kick me out and call me an idiot and bastard…
I'm so tired of:
Wondering what I did wrong
Fighting for your love
And waking up every morning thinking something will be different,
Only to go to bed….
Disappointed.
Do you do all these things because you know I'll never be good enough?
Everyday I fight the demons and the depression,
But the weights they put on me get heavier with every shun and rebuke.
So, I'm finally giving up.
The weights were too much.
They crushed me and they let the dark thoughts in.
Demons are shouting at me to do terrible things to myself.
Are they right?
Maybe they are.
Should I give in?
No
Yes
No
YES…
I needed a hero, and you could only be that hero.
I waited, and waited.
But you never came.
Now, it's too late.
I hear mother coming,
I better hurry.
I bring the knife down hard across my wrist.
The demons
They were right!
The blood leaving my body takes away all the pain and promises never to return.
When I start to leave this world I finally hear my mother's screams.
She screams for me and for you.
I'm slipping,
I'm almost there
I beckon the light to take me away from here faster.
With my last breaths
I feel you at my door.
You yell what's wrong
And then you gasp and hit the floor beside Mom and I.
I'm so sorry that I couldn't take it.
I guess I really am weak.
Hope you find my letter
I hope you might finally understand me.
I hope you know that I love you
even if you didn't love me.
A/N: So what do you guys think? Do you guys think there should be a sequel/ side story? Review and let me know what you guys think.