A/N: Please be kind with your reviews. This Fan Fiction is going to have a lot of events talked about that actually took place in my life (like the sexual assaults **multiple times** that my character has been through from her step-dad), so please do not tell me I do not know what I am talking about because I have wrote stories before where I have been told that.

Trigger Warning: Self-Harm and Later Chapters Eating Disorder (Both of which I suffer from)

Sophia boarded the plane from Texas and never wanted to look back. Her whole life has been one giant mess. 'With this move I hope I can escape it all' she thought. She sat back in her seat hoping to be able to close her eyes to be able to get some sort of rest. She had always had great anxiety when it came to flying and usually had a full mental breakdown as the planes took off.

She closed her eyes and told herself to breathe as the plane began to go down the runway strip to take off. Sophia prayed to herself that she wouldn't have a breakdown in front of all these people and be embarrassed and scarred more than she already was. She felt the anxiety creeping up on her. She didn't want to panic. Not here, not right now. She got up once they were allowed. She got up from her seat to walk to the restroom on the plane. She needed to collect herself. She was ready to lose it.

When she got back to the restroom on the plane she shut the door behind her. She wish so badly she could cut to relieve it all. 'FUCK THIS' she wanted so badly to just get there already. She was stuck on this plane not able to use her coping skills whether she likes it or not. She collected herself from crying before she got out. Sophia walked back to her seat and stared out the window. 'We have to almost be there' she thought 'the flight wasn't supposed to be that long.' Just after she thought about this the flight attendant came on the intercom, "We will start to go down in altitude and be landing in 20 minutes". Sophia had never been so relieved. She was ready to escape and get away from all these people.

When the plane finally landed and she was able to get off she practically ran through the terminal. She couldn't stand being around so many people and them being so close to her. When she got outside she through her hand up to catch a cab. She headed into Manhattan where she would be permanently residing from now on. When she got there she got her keys to apartment after paying everything. She had no clue how things were going to go living on her own but she was excited for it. She knew she could have free range to do whatever she pleased and no one would stop her. As she got to her floor she seen her neighbor leaving. She looked down not wanting to make eye contact. Sophia just wanted to get through the door as quickly as possible. She put her stuff down and grabbed her smokes. She made her way back out the door but peered around to make sure no one was in sight. She had no interest in talking to anyone any time soon. She made her way down the stairs to the outside. Sophia seen a bench nearby and took a seat. She pulled out her cellphone and put it on the music for the current mood she was in. She pulled out her pack and a lit one up. She took a long drag and felt relief and was able to finally breathe.

She seen her neighbor walk past with her dog that she took for a walk. The woman walked up to her and introduced herself. "Hi, Im Olivia and this is my dog Zoe, I seen you walking in, your my new neighbor right?" Sophia was irritated. "Yeah I am, nice to meet you. I have to go bye." Sophia got up from the bench but felt her body sway from being so dizzy. She grabbed onto the brick wall, this was the normal for her. Olivia walked up to her. "Hey are you ok?" Sophia gathered herself enough to speak up and try to get rid of her. "Yeah I'm fine, please leave me the hell alone." She leaned away from the wall and tried to make her way back inside. She wanted to get away from this damn woman who can't seem to mind her own. When she got back inside she had no plans of leaving her apartment again. She was thankful she had enough money saved up in her account that she wouldn't have to look for work for at least a month. She locked her door and went over to the couch in her newly furnished apartment. She just wanted to hibernate and disappear. Out of sight out of mind. Just as she was about to close her eye's she looked down and seen it was her step-father. She immediately froze not able to move a single muscle. Everything that had happened to her flooded her mind. She chucked herself cellphone when she was finally able to move. It flew faster and harder at the wall than she thought she could. Her own strength surprised her considering the state she was in. 'Shit' she thought, 'Now I'm without a cellphone and I'm pretty sure the bitch Olivia who can't mind her own just heard that.' Before she could make a move to get the cellphone and see if it was fixable because apparently she couldn't think before she acted out there was a knock on her door. "GO AWAY" she yelled. "SORRY I MADE TO MUCH NOISE DISTURBING YOUR PEACE!" Olivia decided to walk away. She didn't want to push her into talking and making friends with her. Deep down inside though she knew something was off, something wasn't right.

Sophia reached over to the coffee table and grabbed her sleeping pills. She just wanted this day to be over with. She popped them and then drank some water to swig them down. She grabbed her blanket and went into the bedroom. "Please let me have no nightmares tonight?!" she begged saying out loud. She curled up in the bed with the blankets over top of her and hibernated in them. Not even a few hours later she woke up screaming so loud that Olivia heard it through the wall. It scared the shit out of Olivia hearing such a loud blood curdling scream. She jumped out of bed thinking someone was being murdered.

Sophia was too scare to move. She prayed no one would come to her door thinking she was being slaughtered. She got out of bed shaking and terrified. The nightmare felt so real. She made her way to the restroom and locked to the door behind her. She was crying harder than she ever had. She grabbed her shaver and busted it apart. She needed a sense of relief. Sophia dragged the razor repeatedly across her arm trying to make the images stop replaying in her head over and over. She was in such a haze she couldn't hear the knocks on her door. Olivia became worried and wasn't sure what to do. She couldn't just bust in and she was sure if Sophia was being murdered there would be more evidence and her door would be cracked but it was locked. There would be more signs of a breaking and entering. In all the years of being a cop she knew what to look for. Her heart was worried and breaking for her. It was late and she knew she had to be up early to get to the precinct. She didn't want to let it go but she didn't know what other choice she had.

Meanwhile Sophia grabbed a rag and held it over her arm. She sat her head back against the cabinet. She just wanted so badly to be able to sleep but at the rate she was going she knew it would be a cold day in hell before that would ever happen.