YOU AND ME - Chapter 1
"Pick me, choose me, love me." I said in desperation as a last attempt to win back Derek. Derek my boss. Derek the man I love. Derek the man with a wife. "She's my wife." That's all I hear. And I know, that the moment she walked through those doors on a rainy night that she had won my, no her Derek back. So without hearing the rest of his speech I walk out of the door holding on to the last of my dignity and pride. With tears building up in my eyes I run to the nearest on-call room, lock the door and let everything out. The pain of hearing him choose her over me, the anger of him keeping his wife a secret, the humiliation I feel for even offering him a second chance. All of it, if felt like hours before I finally got my shit together, but when I did, I knew I had to go. To get a fresh start, to leave everything else behind and hopefully never return to it. To move on. I needed to. I wanted to. There was nothing really left here for me anyway, Christina, George and Izzie where on Derek's side, and Alex had his own things to deal with, and so did my Mum and Dad (Richard, actually my stepdad), even my fellow dirty mistress left becauses he couldn't bear to see them together anymore. So with my mind made up I made my way to my Fathers office to ask him if I could get transferred to another hospital, hopefully on the east coast, where it's sunny and warm and far away from Seattle. "Are you sure about this Meredith?" My mother, who was already with my Dad in his office asked me. "I need and want this Mum." That's all I had to say and I knew she would understand, and she did. So did my Dad, he was reluctant at first saying that he could just fire Derek, but I knew I couldn't let that happen. He was one of the best neuro surgeons in the world, losing him would be fatal to the hospital. So with everything sorted out with them my Mum rang her only brother who was on the west coast to see if I could transfer to his hospital and luckily he agreed without hesitation. After telling them I would see them for a going away dinner tonight, I went to go find Alex. My only friend after all this shit has gone down with Derek and Addison. Telling him would be one of the hardest things to do, we where suppose to be in this together and I was leaving him behind. I caught him at the nurse desk, where all the interns, Derek, Burke, Bailey and Addison were. "Alex can I talk to you?" I quietly muttered to him. "Sure Mer. What did you need?" He asked me while we walked away from all the onlookers. "I'm leaving." I said without looking him in the eyes. "Okay, I'll see you back at home." He replied. "No I mean I'm leaving for good, going somewhere else. I've already talked with my parents and sorted out the transfer details. And I know we were suppose to be in this together, but I can't do it anymore. I'm sorry." I couldn't look at him. I feared I would only see disappointment and anger. "Hey Mere, Mere look at me. It's okay. I know things are hard and I get why you want to leave as well. Seeing Danny and Izzie together hurt me as well. So I'm -," "Oh, I'm so sorry. I've been worrying about myself so much that I haven't noticed your problems and I keep telling you mine and not asking about you. I'm sorry." I said in embarrassment that I've only been worrying about myself and my problems. "No Meredith it's fine we both have our own problems. It's fine. But what I was going to say is that I'm coming with you." He said with a grin on his face. "I can't ask you to do that Alex." I looked at him astonished. "Your right you can't. I already told you. I have really nothing here anyway, a fresh starts sounds good." I had happy tears in my eyes. "Are you sure?" All he did was nod and if it was possible his grin got even bigger. "Okay, lets go tell my Dad." I said as I grabbed his arm and started walking towards his office.