AN: Well it's been a while since I've posted anything up. First Who fic though! Here's just a little something that I wrote around 2 am.
Spoilers for Silence in the Library/Forest of the Dead.
Thanks for reading you pretty people!
It's not that I think my life story is tragic but it certainly isn't normal. I'm older than my parents; I kill my husband, meet him in the wrong order and then grew up before I was born. I don't regret anything really, I just wish there was another way. I know what happens next. It's always been this way hasn't it? There was no alternative. After this we will never meet again. I promise I won't blame you. I know you might not know me, I know I will die. I always said you would be the death of me and the day you don't know who I am will be the day I die. I know it's true. It's always been that way. I'm a complicated space-time event whose death is fixed. I'm sure you've tried everything. Please let me go. It's my time. I have lived knowing you and loving you my dear Doctor. Nothing can be better than that. One day we will meet again., this time in the right order. Maybe in some parallel universe we do and we are happy. In this universe I was happy whenever I was with you. We ran together.
Just remember, you are always and completely forgiven.
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River
It's so lonely here sweetie. CAL offered to make me a virtual Doctor but it wouldn't be you. I wish there was a way to get me out of here. I want nothing more than to be in the TARDIS with you. I have my team here but they don't understand. I visited all of the places we've been with CAL's help. The breeze of Asgard wasn't there and the Falls didn't glisteb. I know you wanted me to live here forever happily, but how can you expect me to live without you? Please love, come save me, I need you to save me.
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River
You came to visit. I'm surprised the Vashta Nerada didn't attack but I guess they understood. You promised you were trying. You even said you loved me. That's something I don't get to hear all that often. I love when you say it. I know it's something so special. You promised to come back and visit again soon and hopefully you would have a solution. I smiled at you. After you left I cried. Miss Evangalista found me and brought me back to the ward. It's been years my love. I just want to escape.
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River
Your face changed. I miss your old one. The one I married, the one I fell in love with. You said something about Zygons. I couldn't help but think you were beginning to slip away. Did I matter anymore? Did you still love me?
River
I gave up on writing you letters for a while. You didn't come back until your penultimate regeneration. Only one more chance left for the Doctor. What will you do? It's been decades from what I can tell. You never got me out of here. I'm only saved; a string of data, Time Lord/Human data in a computer.
River
I tried everything. I've done extensive research but I can't seem to escape. Come back Doctor.
River
Where are you Doctor? You promised.
River
All of time and space and you never came back for me.
River
Your 11th face came back. You said you regenerated, your final incarnation. Why change back to the face I love? I don't mean anything anymore. But you said the universe would have to go on without you. You were dying at last. So you sat where I sat so many centuries ago and wired yourself in. You said you were so sorry for leaving me here and then you uploaded yourself. You came back to me. Truly came back. We could now live forever in our safe haven. We can run again.
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River