I do not own this if I did the show would have more shirtless McSteamy and McDreamy.

This story is totally A/U the characters are based off the show but it only follows the timeline till Mark Sloan shows up the first time.

Numbness:

Ch. 1 Defeat

He was numb there was no longer any feeling left in his body he didn't know how long he had stood in the rain staring down at her grave site. There was no head stone yet that would be later right now it was just a blank spot holding her now. He looked down the line of markers in the ground the rain continued to pour it hadn't stopped since that night, the night that his world just stopped turning. Finally he turned and left to find a drink to find a way to turn off the memories and the pain.

Joe's bar (one year later)

They were staring at him again he had stumbled into the bar an hour ago soaking wet and half-drunk he hadn't shaved in days his normal scruff now turning in to a full beard. He had asked for a bottle of scotch and proceeded to get completely black out drunk again.

"Someone should go talk to him or at least take the bottle away" Meredith said looking around the table where she sat with the others.

"He doesn't want help at least not from us he blames us for this" Addison stated she was seated between Alex and Meredith peering around Alex she eyed the former bad boy plastic surgeon Mark Sloan slumped on the counter of the bar it had been a year since he had quit his job at the hospital now the only time they saw him was at Joes. When they had tried to talk to him he had blown up at them spewing his temper at them before storming out the door. The only person he even acknowledge from there group was Derek who took him home most nights to sleep it off. That's why they had met tonight they were trying to plan an intervention to save him from himself. When Derek entered the bar that night his eyes immediately scanned the area for Mark to find him slumped on a bar stool in the corner a half empty bottle of scotch beside him. As he approached the table were his wife and friends were he hoped he had done the right thing. Meredith and Addison eyed him hopefully as he slid into the booth.

"She is coming tomorrow should land about 9:30 in the morning" he answered the questions in their eyes.

"Were doing the right thing aren't we, I mean you don't think he could hate us any more than he does now" Meredith questioned the others as she stared at the former head of plastic surgeon and president of the dirty mistress club.

"I have no idea Mere but it's the only thing I think will help, I will see you at home I'm going to drag Mark out of here" Derek said as he got up and pressed a kiss to Meredith's cheek and waved to the others. They watched as Derek managed to peel Mark off the stool and away from the alcohol as they stumbled through the door Alex turned to the other two and questioned.

"When did it all go wrong? When did our family break so bad? I mean Sloan's a drunk, Izzie is dead, and Christina's divorced and bitter, while George and Callie are separated for like the fourth time in two years what the hell happened to us?" the two women sitting at the table had no answers for him as they sat there and finished their drinks they pondered that last few years.

"Come on Mere, Alex and I will give you a ride home" Addison finally spook up hopefully tomorrow things will start to look up.

Not sure if I should continue, have more written though what do you the readers think?