A/N: Hello everyone, I'm Paige.. and welcome to my first fanfiction posted here on this account. As the title may suggest, I am a major Judy Garland fan. This song, "The Man That Got Away" is perfection.. Even if you don't like Miss Garland's music, if you haven't heard it look it up on YouTube. It's an Emotional Roller Coaster. No Joke. It's from my all-time favorite movie, the 1954 version of "A Star is Born" starring Miss Garland herself (and if I may add, it also stars James Mason.. who has the BEST voice I have ever heard on a man. Ever.) But in any case, this Songfic takes place way before the series ever started. Actually right after the boy Sunako confessed to called her "Ugly" I don't really know much about their relationship beforehand, and since I haven't seen the whole anime, I just kind of made up that information to suit this fanfic. It's Sunako-Centric, and since she's the best person to write a Songfic about her "Man That Got Away" It had to be done!
So here you go! I hope you'll enjoy!
Lyrics are in Italics.
'Thoughts in Bold Italics'
The Man That Got Away:
A Sunako-Centered Songfic:
By XxSomeoneAtLastxX
Disclaimer: I do not own The Wallflower or the song "The Man That Got Away" they both belong to their copyrighted owners.
It was dark.
Sunako knew that much. But she didn't want the light. Not now anyway, maybe not ever again. She felt cold, colder than usual. But none of this mattered to her, she was "Ugly" just the way she liked it. Ugly and alone.
And all because of HIM.
The night is bitter
The stars have lost their glitter;
The winds grow colder
And suddenly you're older
And all because of the man that got away.
She met him through a friend. She liked him a bit at first. He seemed a little headstrong, but then again, all the boys in her class were.
But.. when it was just the two of them-you know, when her friend had to go home early, he smiled at her. He was always smiling...
'Lies. All of it.'
But it wasn't like he was flirting with her. Oh no, she let her mind wander-too much. She should have known he was just being friendly. Because he liked Sunako's friend. She completely understood that now.
Though, the way he said her name. Oblivious to what was going on inside her heart. It felt as if her heart had been stabbed, at first in Ecstasy-now in despair.
No more his eager call
The writing's on the wall
The dreams you dreamed have all
Gone astray.
Yet it all went by so fast, their late-night hangouts at the Cafe.. just talking. That's all they did! They talked! And she was foolish enough to get her hopes up.
She could hardly remember anything good that happened between them now. Only one word, one simple word echoed and resonated in her head-and even deeper into her heart...
'Ugly'
The man that won you
Has gone off and undone you
That great beginning
Has seen the final inning
Don't know what happened. It's all a crazy game!
She wouldn't ever fall in love again. Ever. She didn't think she could interact with people any longer. No-she wouldn't do that! 'Maybe I am overreacting.. or going insane! But either way...'
She refused to see anyone. To compare herself to them. She wouldn't be able to compare herself if there wasn't a second party involved.
If Sunako wasn't insane now, she would be if she had to watch those wretchedly perfect "Creatures of Light." She refused to tolerate perfection. 'And I never will again! Never!'
No more that all-time thrill
For you've been through the mill
And never a new love will
Be the same.
But did she need him? Why couldn't she just move on, and forget him? 'Because, I can't bring myself to hate him.. though my mind tells me I despise him. After all, he made me realize how foolish I am. And how I should just be alone my whole life.. because that must be my purpose for living. I thank him, though that sounds sadistically twisted.'
Good riddance, good-bye!
Ev'ry trick of his you're on to
But, fools will be fools
And where's he gone to?
So throughout her life, Sunako shut herself in her own twisted haven-darkness.
She watched horror films, pretending that the victims were people she hated. At first, she imagined that the person getting stabbed by a psycho killer was him. But she would terrify herself with those evil thoughts, her own evil thoughts. Because the only thing that horrified her, that disgusted her, was herself. And somehow, she imagined a world where everything was perfect, she was perfect. But she couldn't take the thundering pain when she realized those dreams would never come true.
The road gets rougher
It's lonelier and tougher
With hope you burn up
Tomorrow he may turn up
There's just no letup the live-long night and day!
'Creatures of light live in this house now... It's been such a long time, but I mustn't let them see me in darkness. They would be frightened-and they would frighten me.'
However, Sunako opened up to them more and more each day.. Yuki, Takanaga, Ranmaru, Noi-and even Kyouhei!
'Especially Kyouhei... But I'll have to keep ignoring the heartbeats that keep coming alive inside me once more. It hasn't happened again since..'
No! Sunako wouldn't let herself go through that ordeal again.. After all she's been through.. And with this new determination... she would survive through this situation too. After all...
Sunako would not let Kyouhei be another man that got away.
Ever since this world began
There is nothing sadder than
A one-man woman looking for
The man that got away...
The man that got away.
A/N 2:Sorry if I confused you readers by putting the present situation with Sunako and Kyouhei at the end! It was just too good an idea to pass up!
So Au Revoir Everyone! 'Till we meet again!
~Paige (XxSomeoneAtLastxX)