Chapter 1: losses

Garrus couldn't believe it he gripped the railing that viewed the ships coming in and out of the docking bay and he stared beyond that into the open galaxy. He couldn't believe that I was gone and not even telling me that he had falling in love with her his body shooked with sorrow and his grip went tighter on the railing his heart aching. Wrex and Tali were a little ways behind Garrus giving him space to grieve for their fallen friend Wrex stood there arms crossed his face angry he wanted to kill the bastards that attacked the Normandy and me with it. Tali on the other hand was shaking with sobbs raking her body her best friend had died going down with the ship and the two of them knew what Garrus was going through.

Tali went up to Garrus still crying and laid a shaking hand on his shoulder and Garrus turned his head in that direction and Tali saw that he had been quietly sobbing his sorrow as well as his frustration. "Garrus she will always be remembered." Tali said Garrus hanged his head and sighed deeply before replying "It's not the same Tali and you know it. I miss Melody she did everything right and yet she..." he couldn't finish his heart couldn't take it.

Wrex stood there still in his own comtemplations Why did Shepard go down with the ship? I don't understand she's a strong woman and I know that first hand, but she wouldn't go down without a fight. She has got to be alive someone must've saved her. He also went to stand on the other side of Garrus and placed a hand on his shoulder. "Don't worry buddy if she is anything like I know her to be she's out there alive." he said giving Garrus a curt nod of encouragement.

Garrus only nodded and his mood seemed to lighten up, but Wrex knew he was still hurt on the inside and the three walked away from the docking bay and into the citadel Tali saw Liara hugging Kelina to her and Tali knew that Kelina was hurting the most out of everyone here. Kelina pulled away from Liara and looked around to see everyone there standing around she wasn't military and never will be she always looked up to me, but would never step into my place. "You guys thank you for being here for me and for Mel I don't think she would've saved the galaxy without you." Kelina said new found tears coming to her eyes.

Kaidan went to Kelina then and draped an arm around shoulder and held her close to him and she embraced him sobbing Wrex stood there for a moment and said "Shepard will be remembered as a great friend to us all, but she wouldn't want us to mope around over her death we have to move on and do what best for us."

Garrus turned to Wrex "for once Wrex is right we have to do that we can keep Shepard in our thoughts and hearts and still do the things we need to do I don't like the fact that she's gone, but she would kick our asses if we stood around here crying over her." Garrus replied his voice cracking when he said it Liara and Tali looked at Garrus with shock. Garrus was the one closest to me, but they knew that Wrex and Garrus was right they knew the score better then them the cost of losing a life as well as Kaidan. They all came to the conclusion to go their seperate ways, but would remain in touch if something happened to them Garrus was just about to leave when Kelina grabbed his arm.

"Garrus...She liked you and was going to speak to you after tracking down the Geth I don't know what, but she was going to talk to you " Kelina said letting her hand fall from his arm. Garrus looked down to the ground his mind in turmoil and it was like that before he replied. "Thanks Kel I'll remember that always" and he had went his own path maybe find work at c-sec again.

Wrex had went back into the docking bay and found someone to take him back to Tuchanka he needed to get back home and set some things straight he knew now how to run things and get to where clan Urdnot needed to be and if it pissed off the other Krogan so be it. He knew it could be done, but it had to be done right and he would make sure it did a part of him didn't want to leave the others, but he needed to go for his people he only knew that the Reapers would be back one day and he would have to prepare for it the best he knew how and putting the different clans come together.

Tali stood there a moment she knew a Shuttle would take her safely back to the Flotilla, but she wanted stay alittle bit longer for Kelina sake, however Kelina looked to her and without saying a word told to go back home and that she would call if she needed anything Tali nodded her and gave Kelina one last hug and walked out to the docking bay. Liara hugged her best friend and told her to call if anything she needed help and Kelina hugged her as well knowing full she would do just that and soon Liara had left too.

Kaidan sat down on a bench and laid his face into his hands he wasn't crying,but Kelina knew deep inside he wanted to do so. Kelina went over and sat down next to him on the bench and placed a hand on his shoulder and he looked up "Kel I've got to admit looking into your face reminds me alot of your sister and I'm the most guilty person on here I should've stayed on the Normandy to help Shepard if I did she would be here with all of us she wouldn't have to burden all the responsibility on herself I..." he was interrupted by Kelina.

"It wouldn't have mattered anyways Kaidan she's my sister and she knew the stakes it was her ship and she wanted to make sure her crew made it out alive that was her responsibilty you and everyone aboard was her to take care of as well as I. Did you think she wanted me to tag along to defeat Saren? No she didn't did I give her a choice? No I didn't. There's going to alot of things we all don't like and sure we'll have our regrets, but can we turn back time? No we can't it is what it is and that's all there is to it." Kelina said tears streaming down her cheeks when she said those words.

"Now you're starting to sound alot like Shepard" Kaidan started "But I get your point I do, but I can't help, but think that I could've been able to do something to help." he finished standing up Kelina looked up at him.

"What you planning on doing?" she asked fidling with her fingers on her lap.

"I've got to report the incident to the Alliance report that Commander Shepard had died as well as the other crew members that didn't make it." Kaidan said his back straight.

"Okay take care Kaidan and don't lose yourself in sorrow." Kelina said leaning back into the bench and watched Kaidan walking away she couldn't help, but look at his ass and she smirk deep inside she liked Kaidan and now she still does, but his bond with her sister was stronger, but not in the way of lovers just really good friends. Kelina was now alone to be in her own thoughts and she wondered if her cousin Travis had heard the news of my death.

A/n: Hey guys doing a totally different view of the mass effect story I had been working on. Hope you like enjoy :D