A/N: Hey guys! This is a deleted scene from my story, Falling Back and I got the idea for this from listening to the song, My Skin by Natalie Merchant! Enjoy!

Natasha sat in the main lounge of the Avengers tower, deep in thought. She should have been in bed with Clint seeing as it was nearly midnight, but she just couldn't settle.

"Mama? What's wrong?" Lili asked, sitting next to the assassin.

"Shouldn't you be in bed, Lilith?" She asked coldly.

"She's worried about you, Nat. As am I." A voice said.

Clint.

"Well, i'm fine."

Clint sighed, knowing full well his girlfriend wasn't "fine"

"Lili, how about you go up stairs and climb into mama and papa's bed? Mommy and daddy need to talk." Clint told her.

Lili nodded and almost ran to the elevator, no questions asked.

"Why do you love me?" She asked.

Clint sighed.

"Nat..."

"I have a right to know, Clint. I have red in my ledger that I have been dying to wipe out for the past five years. I'm a murderer." She cut him off, letting a tear slip down her pale cheeks.

"Nat, babe. You didn't know what you were doing, the Red Room had you brainwashed." He explained, "everything's going to be alright."

"Don't. All the promises people make me...they're supposed to make it easier, right? I don't need that. I've been treated so wrong for so long. All people have ever done is lie to me, so why do you love me?"

"I love you, because you're beautiful, caring but fierce and resilient. You don't let anyone boss you around any more. Want to know a secret?" The archer asked, looking into the red heads emerald green eyes.

"What?" She asked, looking back down.

"Deciding to go against Fury's orders and not killing you was the best decision I have ever made."

Natasha smiled at that.

"Do you honestly think everything will be okay?"

Clint shrugged.

"To an extent I do. You may still feel guilty about what you did under the Red Room's influence for many years to come, but I feel like everything will be okay. Everyone here loves and cares about you, Tasha, even Stark. And words can not describe how much I love you and Lili."

The assassin looked back up at him and kissed him passionately on the lips.

"Here I got something for you." He said, handing his girlfriend a black, velvet, square box.

Natasha opened it to find a pendant. It was in the shape of a key, sterling silver, with the top of it a diamond encrusted heart. (A/N: Picture is on my profile)

"Clint, it's beautiful. How did you even afford it?"

"Tony gave me his credit card and told me, and I quote, 'Robin Hood! Your girlfriend's depressed, here's my credit card and don't come back until you get her something nice.' so, I took his advice to heart and now, you have the key to my heart." He answered, putting the necklace around her neck.

"Thank you, Clint. I needed that. I needed this." She said, sincerity in her voice as she drifted off to sleep, her head in Clint's lap.

"I love you, Clint."

Clint smiled and kissed the top of her head, before picking her up and bringing her back up to their floor, placing her beside Lili.

"I love you too, Tasha."

Natasha only thought of one thing as Clint pulled her closer to him.

My skin, will forever be scarred. With physical scars, as well as psychological ones. But,I will not lose. I will keep fighting, until the very end. The Red Room is my past, and I won't let it over come my life.

A/N: Let me know what y'all think! There is a link to the song and the necklace on my profile if y'all are interested! Please review :)