A Black Butler FanFiction

Warnings: OC, Sexual Themes and situations, Dark Themes, Language, Boy X Boy, Rape, and Abuse

Disclaimer: Do not own anything but what I have made up

Broken Hearts & Dark Memories

Chapter 1

'Damn it'

It hurt to move and breathe. I couldn't feel my right leg and my head was throbbing painfully. I could taste the bitter and metallic flavor of my blood. There was a deep gash on my forehead that blanketed my face with blood. I ran as much as I could be I had almost reached my limit.

'I have to get away, I can't let them get me, I can't let her sacrifice go in vain' I thought to myself as I looked about my surroundings. I looked to my right and saw a road a short distance from me. I painfully stand and use a tree to balance myself.

'Gotta keep moving'

I limped weakly toward the road. At the same time I heard the sound of horse hooves.

'Is that them. Have they found me?'

I started to quicken my pace. The closer I got to the street, the louder sound of hooves became. I moved faster despite my wounds. My vision started going in and out from the heavy blood loss. Finally I made it to the road. But at the same time the sound of hooves were right beside me. I turned to my right and saw a horse drawn carriage coming right at me. But I don't know what happened next, because the blood loss became too much and everything went black. The last thing I remember was the sound of horse hooves closing in.

I didn't know where I was. But I was on something soft and warm.

'Am I dead?'

I tried to move but my body felt too weak. I felt a sharp pain in my head as I tried to move.

'Well that proves I'm not dead'

"What do you propose we do with her Sebastian", a voice asked.

'Huh? Who's that? It sounds like a little boy, and who the hell is Sebastian?'

"I'm not sure young master, but I don't really think it's wise to move her in her condition, I think it will better to either send her to the hospital or keep her here", The person I assume to be Sebastian said.

"Well we don't have time to take care of her, so we should send her to the hospital", the boy said bordly.

'That little shit, talking as if I was an inconvenient'

That's when my body decided to work. "NO!" I shouted as I opened my eyes and sat up in bed.

Both the occupants looked at me shocked at my sudden movement.

"I will not go to a hospital, I refuse", I shouted looking at them defiantly.

One was a young boy, looking around the age of 13. He had blue eyes but his right eye was covered by an eye patch and his hair was a bluish gray color. The other who I assume to be Sebastian was a grown man with parceling skin. He looked to be somewhere in his twenties and had raven black hair with bangs going across his face with piercing crimson red eyes that looked as though they could look into your very soul.

Both of them finally got over their shock and looked at me. "So your finally awake", the boy said.

"Who are you and how long have I been here", I asked as I look round and see that I'm in a very nicely furnished room. The walls were a light peach color. There was a dresser and the bed I was sleeping on was quite big with silk blankets and lots of fluffy pillows and beside the bed was a chair, for whatever purpose I don't know.

"You have been sleeping for two whole weeks since we found you and dressed your wounds, and by we, I mean my butler Sebastian, and as for whom I am, I am Ciel Phantomhive", said the boy rather smugly. I look at him for a second, and then I look at the butler. Once I laid my eyes on him I felt a sharp pain in the back of my neck.

'So, he's one of them, I wonder who his contract is' I think to myself.

I look back the boy Ciel, 'did he make the contract, and if so what could of possibly happened to make the boy contract with him'

"So what is your name?" Ciel asked.

"...oh yeah, my name is Black Crevan", I say coming out of my thoughts.

"Well that's a nice name", Ciel said, though I could tell he couldn't care less about my name.

"... So..., I've been here for two weeks? I can't believe I slept for so long, I'm totally off schedule, I need to leave", I say mostly to myself. I pull the blanket off my body and look down at my cloths.

"These aren't my cloths", I say as I look at the pajamas I was now wearing. I was a knee length gown, made of a fine material and was a light purple color.

"Yes, your previous cloths were covered in blood and torn, so we threw them out and dressed you in something clean", Sebastian said plainly.

My eyes widened, "You what?! You dressed me?" I asked shocked.

"Well yes, we couldn't leave you in those cloths and I had to remove them anyway to wrap your wounds, which were quite a few", Sebastian said.

"Well whatever, thanks for looking after me but I must be leaving", I said swinging my legs over the bed and standing on the floor. But my legs soon turn to mush and I fell to the floor with a thud.

"Oww", I said lifting my upper body up. I couldn't feel my legs. "What the hell, what's wrong with my legs?" I asked.

"You been asleep for a while and your legs haven't been used for while", Sebastian explained.

"God damn it", I cursed and started hitting my legs; "Hurry up legs and work already".

I heard muffled laughter from behind me and turned to see Ciel trying to hold in his laughter.

"What the hell is so funny half pint? I swear when my legs work again I'll break your legs then throw you in a river", I threatened.

Ciel stopped laughing and glared at me. "Who are you calling half pint?"

"You, I'm calling you a half pint, and there is nothing you can do about it cause even if I can't use my legs I can still whop your sorry ass around the room", I said and childishly stuck out my tongue.

Ciel looked at me angrily and looked to shot a comeback but Sebastian held out his hand to silence him and smiled at me.

'Fake ass creeper smile' I thought.

"I'm sorry for my young masters behavior, he is just a little grumpy about missing his morning desert", Sebastian said then walked over to me, "let me help you up."

He bent down and picked me up and gently placed me back on the bed.

"...thanks, but I really have to leave, when will my legs start working", I asked.

"Since it wasn't that long, you would just need to try walking around a bit and your legs will eventually become functional", Sebastian said.

I nodded my head in understanding and looked at Sebastian, "Were could I walk around without being disturbed?" I asked.

"You could take a small stroll in the garden, and may I ask, where is it that you're in such a rush to get to, and what in the world were you doing to receive such intense wounds, like the one on your forehead?", Sebastian asked.

I narrowed my eyes at him, "It's none of your damn business, just leave it alone, I'm thankful to you for dressing my wounds and watching over me all this time, but whatever is going on with me is my problem, and it's not a place, it's a person who I am looking for", I explained.

"Then who is it that you are searching for?" Ciel asked, I guess not liking being left out of the conversation.

"My uncle, I've never really visited him before, but I've meet him and we had become really close, all I know is that he is located here and that was where I was trying to go when you found me, but unfortunate events happened that kept me from reaching my destination", I told them.

"Well do you know your uncle's name, maybe we can help you find him", Ciel suggested.

'Maybe he isn't as bad as he seems, but I hardly doubt that'

"Well here he is known as the Undertaker", I said.

And once the name left my mouth both of them looked at me with a look of shock. They stared wide eyed at me with their mouths hanging open.

"What? What I say?" I ask looking back and forth between them.

"It's just...we didn't think Undertaker had any family", Ciel said carefully.

"Well he does and I'm his niece, I have to go to him", I say.

"But why, and does your parents know that you are on your way to visit your uncle, and I don't think they will be happy to learn of your condition at the moment and when we found you", Sebastian said.

"Don't worry about my parents, I just want to see my uncle", I said quickly.

They look at each other then back at me. I stared at them daring them to ask any more questions. They stayed quiet for a while as they studied me.

Finally Ciel spoke up, "Fine, you can get yourself recovered and we will gladly take you to your uncle when you are able to move on your own".

I sighed in relief. "I want to start now, could Sebastian take me to the garden?" I asked.

Ciel nodded, "Sebastian, please escort our guest to the garden and make sure she doesn't hurt herself."

"Yes my lord", Sebastian said and picked me back up and carried me out of the room.

I held on to Sebastian by wrapping my arms around his neck. I could smell a familiar scent on his neck. The scent of a demon. I looked up at him and saw that he was staring at me.

"What the hell are you looking at", I snapped.

'Shit, my reflexes are really getting me today'

"That is no way for a young lady to speak", Sebastian said.

"I don't care how a young lady speaks, I have the right to say whatever the hell I want to say", I say.

"You need more discipline if you assume that you have the right to speak any way you want in me and my young masters presence", Sebastian says.

"Oh look, a demon who cares about a 'young lady' speaking properly in front of a little spoiled rich boy who acts like he deserves something", I say sarcastically.

At that Sebastian stops in his tracks. "Oh, yeah I know what you are and for the moment I'll overlook it as I have no quarrel with you at this moment and cause you are helping me out", I say and Sebastian continued walking.

"Out of curiosity, how did you know that I was a demon?" Sebastian asked.

"That's for me to know and for you to never know", I say as we finally make it to the garden.

Sebastian puts me down on the ground and as soon as my feet touch the ground I fall to the ground. I sigh and crawled over to the side of the building and used the wall to lift myself up. It took a while for me to steady myself but as soon as I do I force myself to start walking.

I feel many times, but no matter how many times that happened I got back up. Sebastian stayed by me the whole time and I made sure he didn't help me back up.

I forced myself to walk for hours. By the time I could walk without the wall the sun was going down. By the time I could walk without swaying the moon was high in the air.

"Finally", I said tired out of my mind as I collapsed on the ground breathing heavily.

Sebastian stood at a distance watching me as I just laid there in the grass. I sat up when I got my breathe back and walked over to Sebastian. "Ok, I'm ready to sleep and in the morning you will take me to my uncle and I can be rid of you and that little brat", I said and started to walk away. But then I was suddenly yanked back with great force. My instincts kicked in and I spun around and punched my attacker right in the face sending him flying.

But it turned out that my attacker was Sebastian. He flew a couple feet away from me and had barely landed on his feet. There was already a bruise starting to form on his cheek.

"So I was right, you aren't a normal human", Sebastian said standing up.

"Well I am human, but I'm anything but normal", I said watching him carefully in case he made a move.

'I was told I was a freak long enough to know I wasn't normal' I couldn't help but think bitterly.

Sebastian brushed off his suit and walked calmly towards me. I tensed, ready to fight. "Calm down, I'm not going to fight you, but you have me quite interested", Sebastian said.

I looked at him confused as he walked past me and toward the door. I soon followed behind him just waiting to get this all over with.

That night, as I lay in the bed. I thought about my situation.

'I hope the time I was out didn't give them a chance to locate me, I need to get to my uncle and live out the rest of my life as normal as possible, I can't let them take me back' I thought as I closed my eyes and fell into a terrible sleep.

Nightmare

I was running through the woods like before, only this time they caught me. "NOOO! LET ME GO!" I screamed as I was dragged back to my personal hell. I was pulled on the ground through the trees. My pleas were ignored and all I could do was scream and shout, because I refused to cry. The place I was dragged to was an abandoned prison that The Order's Training House 5 had been holding up in for over 54 years.

I was thrown into the council room, surrounded by the Head Master and the other teachers.

"What do you have to say for yourself Ms. Crevan?" Miss Rachel asked. She was a quite pretty lady in her early thirties with perfect tanned skin and glossy red curly hair that stopped at her shoulders. She is the weapons teacher here.

"How dare you go against The Order and break its most sacred rule", Roared Mr. Grover. He was a pretty big guy with toned muscles. He had an army buzz cut and always dressed to fight. He used to be in the army and was known as a heartless monster on the battlefield. He is obviously our combat instructor.

I could also feel a piercing stare burring into my skull. I look in the stares direction and saw Mr. Carlisle. My heart stopped like always and my body tensed. He just stared at me with an icy glare. Mr. Carlisle was our history teacher and was really popular with the girls. He was the youngest teacher here at the age 23 but held the wisdom of a 100 year old man. But he used it and his looks for his own means. Every time he came around or if I see him a chill goes down my spine, and not in a good way. He wavy black hair that stopped just above his shoulders and piercing blue eyes. He had good build and had a face fit for a model.

"You have defied the Order by making the unholy deal", The Grand Master said. He was a man way in his years with short grey hair and he always wears some big bi-focals'.

"How could you go against our teachings, even when you know firsthand of their evil as you saw your entire family massacred right in front of your face", Mr. Grover yelled as he slammed his fist into the desk.

"But even after all that you still coven with the devils beast", Grand Master says looking at me with a fire in his eye.

"No, you don't understand, they are not what we always assumed they were, at least not all, there are some who are kind and friendly", I shouted, desperate to convince them. Convince them that we were wrong and that there was nothing wrong. But they didn't listen, they had their opinion and they were sticking to it.

"This child has obviously lost her mind, there is no way those monsters can be good in any way", Miss Rachel said.

"I agree, but the crime still stands, so we sentence you, Blake Crevan, to death", Grand Master says and I was yanked out of the room.

"NOOOOOOO", I screamed at the door shut. The last I saw was Mr. Carlisle looking at me with his icy eyes and watched as a smirk formed on his face.

I shot up in the bed breathing heavily and frantically looking around the room as I feel my body, making sure I was all here. After I caught my breath I lay back down and looked up at the ceiling.

'Guess I'm not going to sleep for the rest of the night, cause I refuse to have another nightmare like that'

So the rest of the night I stared up at the ceiling and forced myself to stay awake.

The next day I was up and ready to leave this place and just get to my uncle. They were kind enough to give me some cloths. Just a simple black t-shirt and some slightly baggy pants that hung a bit off my waist. They were going to put me in a dress but I was like "Put me in a dress and you'll lose your knee caps". I was totally serious and so they went out and got me some plain cloths.

After I was dressed I went out to the garden to wait but when I got outside, to my surprise, the garden was on fire!

"What the world is going on?" I asked to the air in shock.

"Oh we better put the fire out or Mr. Sebastian will have our heads yes he will", an odd voice said.

I turned to my left and saw three people frantically trying to put the fire out. One was dressed as a gardener, a maid, and a cook.

"Those idiots are at it again", an annoyed voice said from behind me. I turned around and saw Ciel and Sebastian standing behind me watching the chaos.

"Who are those people, and why do the cook have a flamethrower on his back", I ask panicked.

"Those idiots our my servants, and if they weren't useful pawns I would of gotten rid of them long ago", Ciel said blandly.

I looked at him shocked. "Pawns? Like in chess? "I ask.

"Yes, but that doesn't matter at the moment", Ciel said watching the three servants seemed to make the fire worse, "Sebastian, stop those idiots before they burn down my mansion."

'I hate him' I decided as I looked at ciel

"Yes young master", Sebastian said as he went to stop the fires from spreading.

'I hate him too' I thought as I watched Sebastian put out the flames.

'I can't wait to get to uncle, so I can leave the presence of these two demons'

After Sebastian put out all the flames he went to get the carriage as the servants walked away sadly. I watched them go and could do nothing but feel sorry for them. 'Why do they stay if their boss sees them as nothing but means to an end?'

As Sebastian pulled up the carriage me and Ciel made our way to the carriage. But just as we were about to get in, I felt a hot feeling in the back of my neck. 'I know this feeling' I think as I look around frantically.

"What the hell are you doing, don't you want to get to your uncle or not", Ciel yelled from the carriage already inside with Sebastian's help.

'Oh when I get the chance, I'm going to break your knee caps, bust your shoulder blades, and shatter your ribs'

As I thought that I heard a sound. 'What?'

"Meow"

I look down at my feet and see a cat covered in wounds with sleek black hair. It looked like a normal cat, until you got to the eyes. The eyes are what caught my attention. One eye was a crimson red and the other a sky blue. The eyes were different colors, just like mine, only one was an emerald green and the other a pitch black. I could also see a little red highlights in the cats fur, though it is hard to tell with all the blood and dirt. But even still, I knew who it was.

"Misaki", I say softly, "Is that you?"

"Mew", the cat said weakly.

'What happened to you? How did you get like this?' I asked telepathically.

'It is a long story, and I'm way too tired to tell it right now' she says back.

"Oh you poor kitty, you must be hurt, do you need help", A voice said.

I turn around and see Sebastian looking at us with a strange look, well more like looking at Misaki with a strange look.

I gentle pick her up and look at Sebastian who never took his eyes off Misaki.

"This cat belongs to me, she was with me when I set out to find my uncle and we had the misfortune of getting separated in the process", I explained.

"Oh well that is very unfortunate", Sebastian said.

But I wasn't sure whether he meant that she was owned by me or that she was hurt.

"Yeah, but now that she seems to have found me, I can rest easy without worrying that she might be lost or dead anymore", I say as I ease my way around Sebastian who kept his eyes on Misaki even as I lifted myself into the carriage. Sebastian slowly closed the door still looking at Misaki. When the carriage started to move I breathed a sigh a relief.

"That was freaky" I said out loud, "What the hell is wrong with him?"

"He is a notorious cat lover, whenever he sees those disgusting creatures he loses his focus and fawns over then with unneeded passion", Ciel explained while looking at Misaki angrily.

"Who the hell are you calling disgusting creature, what did cats do to you?" I asked angrily.

"For one I'm allergic to cats and second I am not very fond of them", Ciel says.

"Well soon we will be gone and you won't need to worry about us", I say and look out the window.

'So he is an unbarring ass and the butler is a cat rapist...Great'

'Don't worry Blake, we will be ok, but I'm not so sure about the butler...I think he might actually rape me if he caught me alone' Misaki said and started to shiver in fear of that thought.

'Don't worry, I'll protect you from that cat rapist, now just rest until we reach our destination, we are going to stay with Uncle Undertaker', I say.

That is when Misaki perked up.

'Undertaker, yay!' Misaki cheered and began to purr happily.

I smiled down at her and couldn't help but think of the time we met.

Flashback

I was in the courtyard training. The crescent moon hung high in the sky. I had been training for hours by myself since no one wanted to train with me. And that was perfectly fine with me.

'I don't need anyone; I'll survive on my own'

I looked up at the moon and sighed.

'Not like anyone will even consider being anywhere near me, I'll always be alone, and I just have to get used to it'

No one would train with in the beginning, but they certainly won't after I took down Mr. Grover. It was my turn to spare with him and instead of being defeated like everyone else or just plain out backing out, I stood my ground and fought. In the end I pinned him to the ground. No one moved. No one breathed. No one said anything. I looked around and saw that everyone looking at me with shock and horror. I moved away from Mr. Grover who seemed to be in shock and stayed on the ground. But as I moved forward the others moved back.

After that day people avoided more than usual. So I was more than alone, I was completely isolated from others and no one would even look at me.

I sometimes wish that I had been killed that day. I had always wondered why I wasn't killed that day, but there wasn't anything I could do about it now. I walked over and sat down in front of the fence, but not on it because it was an electrical fence.

"I wish I were dead", I said out loud to no one.

"But if you die, you will miss out on so much", A voice said from behind me.

I turned around and saw a girl standing there.

She looked to be 16 with light brown skin black hair that went down her back with red streaks going through it. But the thing I really noticed was her eyes. One was crimson red and the other sky blue.

'Her eyes are different, just like mine' I thought as I looked at her.

And I couldn't help but notice she was very pretty.

"Who are you?" I asked coldly.

"My name is Misaki, what's yours?" The girl asked.

"...Blake", I say then turn away from her.

I wasn't going to try and make friends with a stranger. That would just be plain stupid. I thought she would leave after I had started to ignore her, but instead she sat right down, close to the fence and stared at me.

"So why do you wanna die, that is a very sad wish, I don't think I could ever wish I were dead, I mean, there are too many awesome things to explore and see in the world, don't you wanna see them?", Misaki just yammered on and on. Though the question on whether or not I wanted to see the world. I did want to see the world once. I had planned to go on an adventure when I was older and see all kinds of things. But that was back when I was young and foolish, I wasn't going on any adventure, I wasn't going to see the world. Any dreams I once had, were now gone, and the only thing I wanted was to see was all the evil in the world burn.

Misaki stayed for a while just talking and talking. I never joined in the conversation. After a while she left, and I thought that was that. But she showed up the next day and the next. Just sitting with me on the other side of the fence and talk to me about seemingly nothing of importance like the weather. And soon, I found myself looking forward to her visits. Soon after that I started talking back. And soon after that we became friends and we told each other everything. I found out who and what she was, and she learned of my past and secrets. Shortly after that we both made a decision that would change both our lives, more then we knew.

End of Flashback

"We're here" a voice said breaking me out of my thoughts. I looked over and saw Ciel staring at me. Sebastian came over and opened the door and let us out. As I stepped out of the carriage I saw we were standing outside a strange little building with a sign that said 'UNDERTAKER'. I smiled 'oh uncle, how I miss you'

I walked up to the building and entered excitedly.

"Uncle?" I called out looking around for him.

Then I turned and saw one of the coffins open slightly. "Oh hello my dear, it has been quite a while since I have seen you" Uncle said stepping out of the coffin. I smiled then turned and looked at the door where Ciel and Sebastian were standing. They didn't seem to be all too happy to be here, they almost look scared. I turned back to my Uncle and walked towards him.

"Hello Uncle, you seem to be doing well" I say.

"Hehehe, why yes my dear, I am doing wonderfully, now what do I owe this surprise visit?" Uncle asked.

I held out Misaki for him to see. "Misaki is hurt and we need your help" I said.

"Hmmm" Uncle said leaning in closer to Misaki. "Well my dear I will do all I can for you, for you are my favorite niece after all."

I smiled happily then the smile vanished as a thought crosses my mind. But before I could think more on it Uncle lifted Misaki out of my hands and carried her away behind a curtain. I turned back to the other two who seemed to have relaxed.

"You guys know you can leave now, you have helped me and now I no longer require your assistance" I say.

They look at me, well Ciel glared at me and stuck his nose up like the spoiled brat I know he is and turns around.

"Let us be on our way Sebastian" Ciel said.

But Sebastian didn't move he was staring at where Uncle had left with Misaki.

'Cat Rapist'

"Sebastian, I said let's go" Ciel said in a more commanding voice which seemed to knock Sebastian out of his thoughts cause he shook his head and turned to open the door for the little brat and they both left.

I looked around after they left. I didn't have anything to do so I walked around the creepy room and looked at the coffins. Some had bodies inside. I stopped at one coffin and looked inside. Inside was what looked to be a boy somewhere around his early teens, 12 maybe?

"Wow, I wonder how he died?" I asked.

Just then the corpse opened its eyes and looked up at me. Then it sat up and smiled at me.

"Why, hello thar!" The corpse said.

Then I did the only thing I could think to do in this situation.

I screamed.