(A.N:/ So this was actually just supposed to be a oneshot so some of you may have already read this in my niff prompts (chapter 24-Jeff cuts himself for the first time) Well, the old chapter 24, I just deleted it off 'cause it's now a multi-chapter fic. Now, as for my other two multi-chapters (my badboy!jeff fic and my sebofsky/niff fic) I'm still working on them and I'm sorry I haven't updated All Things Go in a little while. I'm working on it. Anyway, I got a lot of positive feedback on this and people wanting me to continue it so I figured might as well. I apologize for the lame title. I couldn't think of anything good...So, enjoy.)
Jeff did his best to suppress a yawn as he made his way to his dorm room. He had been up since five in the morning to study for math and had just gotten back from Hockey, which was right before dance. Throw all that in with his regular classes, Warbler rehearsal, and his bassoon lesson, and Jeff was completely beat. All he wanted to do was climb into his bed and never have to move for the rest of his life. He lazily pushed his key in the hole and turned the knob only to find the shock of his life. Nick, his best friend and the guy he had spent the last two years secretly fawning over, naked and in the middle of fucking some girl Jeff automatically decided was a cheap, disgusting whore who probably had herpes or some other disease.
Nick didn't even seem to notice Jeff, it was the girl who did. She sneered at Jeff a moment. "Ew! Get your faggy friend out of here Nicky!" She yelled as Nick snapped his head up to see Jeff who had one hand covering his eyes while the other was desperately searching for the doorknob.
"Jeff-" Was all Nick was able to get out before Jeff zoomed out of the room. Jeff ran down the hallway with no destination in his mind, he just ran. Jeff didn't know what hurt the most, the fact that she called him a fag, that she called Nick Nicky, his nickname for Nick, or that he had just walked in on the guy he was in love with having sex with someone that was most defiantly not him. He knew he couldn't hold it against Nick though, yeah, it wasn't really his place to tell that whore that Jeff was gay, especially since Jeff just came out to Nick and only Nick, last month, but he wasn't the one who called him that word. And it wasn't like they were dating, Nick was allowed to date, or sleep with, anyone he wanted. None of these factors mattered to Jeff though. He was all too focused on running as far away from the dorm as possible.
A few minutes later Jeff couldn't run any longer, he was far too worn out from the days activities. So he went into the closest room to sit down. It was the ladies restroom, which Jeff was grateful for. Being an all boys school Jeff knew there wouldn't be anyone in it. The only reason Dalton had a girls restroom was for visiting mothers or teachers, so most of the time it was empty. Jeff, needing to sit down desperately, made his way into a stall and closed the door behind him out of habit. He sat there for what seemed to be an eternity thinking over everything that just happened a few minutes ago. He took a deep breath. "Alright Jeff," He said out loud. Jeff had a habit of talking to himself when he was stressed out. "So you now know Nick's sexuality…and it's alright. Sure, you love him and just wasted the last two years of your life trying to get him to look at you but…at least now you can move on, right? Right…But with that….that fucking whore? Seriously now? She wasn't even attractive…alright, maybe not to you because you're gay but…wait, no, what are you doing Jeff? She was a fucking hideous slut! Ugh. Fuck…It's alright Jeff, just calm down. Just…calm….down…" By this point Jeff was hugging himself tightly while rocking back and forth slightly. Harsh sobs tried their best to escape the blond's mouth but he wouldn't let them pass. "Shit." Jeff whispered, beginning to feel completely heartbroken.
Jeff stayed like this for some time until he felt comfortable to move again. When he did he hissed in pain. His arm scrapped against an open safety pin on his backpack. Jeff looked down at the small cut and watched as a little bubble of blood formed. Normally he would patch it up with a band-aid but this time it was different. It felt different. It hurt like hell but Jeff didn't mind, in fact, it seemed to almost calm him down, just a little. Jeff, without even thinking, removed the safety pin from his bag and stared at it. He put the point up to his skin and rested it there, not digging in the skin, not yet. It felt cool to the touch and shimmered in the light a little. It wouldn't be too deep. It'd be just like scratching myself. And it doesn't have to be all the time or anything. Just this once…Yeah, like a one time kind of thing. And it'll help me get rid of the pain, right? Just this once. All it takes is a few tiny little cuts and I wont do it again. I'll be fine. It's not like I'd be hurting anyone else…and lots of people do it…right? Yeah… Jeff was knocked out of his thoughts when he suddenly felt liquid dripping down his arm. He looked down confused and was slightly shocked when he saw the tiniest line of blood on his arm. He hadn't even realized he cut himself. And it felt good. Maybe not good, but better. It made him feel better. So he did it again. And again. And again. After about five or so cuts he put the safety pin back on his bag and went over to the sink to clean up. Once he was finished and the small cuts were finished bleeding Jeff checked his phone for the time. It had been over an hour since he left and he had two text messages. One from Trent asking if he wanted to do a duet together next week and one from Nick that sent about a minute ago.
"Hey sorry about that…If you wanted to come back up, you can. Mindy and I are about to leave to go to her place. We're leaving right now." Jeff said as he read the text out loud. Jeff stayed in the bathroom another five minutes to make sure he didn't have to run into either of them. Of course when Nick said they were about to leave he was wrong.
Jeff opened the door and almost ran into Mindy. Nick was in the bathroom taking a shower. The girl sneered up at Jeff. "Ew! Gross! Watch where you're going fag boy!"
Jeff decided to take the high road and not say anything back. He went over to his bed and sat his bag down. Mindy smirked. "I blew Nicky on your bed." She said, as if she was bragging. Jeff, again, decided to ignore her. He silently begged her to shut up as she continued speaking. "I feel bad for poor Nicky. He has to constantly worry about you trying to rape him an-"
"Excuse me?" Jeff practically yelled, cutting Mindy off. He couldn't believe what he was hearing.
"Wow, you're so rude! Don't cut someone off when they're speaking! Do you fags not know manors?"
"And do you whores not know how to keep your legs shut? Seriously I can see your vagina from over here and trust me no man, gay or straight, wants to see that wrinkly, loose ass cave." Jeff instantly retorted back, feeling a little proud of himself after he saw her face.
"At least I'm not an abomination! According to the Bible what you are is wrong and disgusting."
"Sweetie, you're outfit is wrong and disgusting." Jeff said, with a huge fake smile. He usually hated saying flamboyant things like that but he couldn't help it that time.
"Ah! Don't talk to me! You're rude and disgusting and sinning! And I don't want to go to Hell or be a fag because you're too close to me!" She spat out.
"Are you a complete idiot! Being gay isn't contagious and going to Hell defiantly isn't. And besides, I'd much rather go to Hell than have to be stuck up in Heaven with you and all the other bigoted fucking asshole twats! So go fuck yourself you stupid fucking cun-"
"Jeff!" Jeff was cut off by an outraged Nick. Clearly he hadn't heard anything that Mindy said and only caught the last part of the conversation. "What the fuck! Don't speak to her like that!"
"Nick I-"
"No! Dude that isn't cool! Since when did you become a total asshole? Dude, you don't treat a lady like that."
"Oh believe me, she isn't a lady." Jeff mumbled to himself. Of course, with the luck Jeff was having today Nick heard him.
"Jeff! Stop it! Apologize to my girlfriend!" Nick demanded while Mindy gave Jeff a condescending smile.
Jeff shook his head. "No. I can't."
Jeff's words seemed to make Nick even more angry. "The fuck you!" Nick said, shoving Jeff and storming out with Mindy glaring back at Jeff.
Nick slammed the door and Jeff just sighed. He sat down on his bed, silently hoping Mindy had lied when she said she blew Nick there. Not because Nick was naked on his bed but because he didn't want Mindy's skanky ass touching anything of his.
He grabbed the safety pin off his bag and sighed. He knew what would make everything feel better again. And at that moment Jeff knew that it wasn't going to just be a one time thing.
(A.N:/ That was NOT going to be that long at all but it kind of just ended up happening. I was going to end it right after he cut himself but I decided I wanted to have a little Mindy/Jeff conversation.:] Anyway, hope you liked it. XOXO)