This is a story I have written for an English test. Because of this it is pretty short, too. We only had to write about 350 to 400 words. The task was to write a letter to someone who had attempted suicide. Why I chose Matt and Mello? I don't know, it just came to me. It might be a little OOC and is AU, because I couldn't really fit this into the DN universe.
I hope you'll like it. :)
Disclaimer: I don't own Death Note. Matt never would have died, if I did. Neither would have Mello or L.
Dear Matt,
I got a call from your parents today. They were crying and said that you are in hospital. They said you tried to cut your wrists open and swallowed the pills in the medicine cabinet. I'm asking myself whether that is my fault? Did you do this because I left, because I didn't say goodbye? You know I had to do so. It wasn't my choice to make. If I could have done so, I would have taken you with me. I thought you knew that. As I write this I'm trying to decide, if I should come back. Would you even want me there? I always thought you were stronger than I am. You listened to my problems and rarely talked about yours. Should it have been the other way around? Should I have listened to you more? I know, I haven't always done everything right, but … You know I always cared for you, right? The weeks I have been away from you were hard for me, too. I missed you. Of course I still do. I listened to your messages again and again. I wanted to call you, I really did, but I couldn't. I wasn't allowed to do so. That's the reason why I am writing this letter instead of sitting in a plane to London.
When you get this letter and still want me around then please call me. I promise, I will be there as soon as possible.
There is something I want to tell you, Matt. I have wanted to tell you for some time, but I was always too afraid. This might not be the right time and maybe I should tell you in person – I promise, I will do so someday – but this is easier for me. What I wanted to tell you was that I love you. I really do. You always were the only person who cared enough to try and understand me. You can be really infuriating sometimes, but I couldn't help but fall for you. And maybe, just maybe, you feel the same way. God, I think we're strange, aren't we? I started writing this because you tried to kill yourself and now I turned it into a letter about me and our relationship. I didn't want to do so, I hope you know that. But anyway, I think you understand what I'm trying to say. I hope you'll forgive me for what I have done to you and that you'll call me. Please remember that I care about you and don't do something stupid like that again, okay? I will buy a plane ticket now and come back. Please wait for me.
Love, Mello