DISCLAIMER: I ask Santa... but sure I'm in the black list...
A/N: If you ask me Im more a Grinch... that a Santa's helpers...But I love this song, is from Faith Hill... for "The Grinch's soundtrack"
Sorry this is completly unbetaed, so has a lot of mistakes...sorry again..!!
CHRISTMAS CURSE
Everyear seems to begin earlier... this time since October the big stores and radio talk about it... like a kind of "day "C"... for him is like hear everyday about a curse he was trying very hard to escape... in November great parts of the cities wear something to remember the end count... and then the music... that annoying music... that go in your ears.. and after days of torture.. you surprise yourself singing along with it... tha make him shudder...
Where are you christmas?
what can I find you?
why have you gone away?
where is the laughter,?
you used to bring me
why cant I hear music play..
Sam hate this days of the year, there are so many people in the streets buying things... and wearing happy faces around... they was stuck in Denver as a result of the last snow storm and the worst part is that they dont even have a work to do... and with the weather... the only thing is stay at the motel and see t.v.
He feels so tired of christmas carols and holidays specials on t.v, and of the so forgetful and tense and relaxed atmosphere around him, that he just want to run and hide...or sleep until the next year...his brother was somewhere .. buying food... and believe it or not... Dean being a though guy, seems to like christmas he can be always crancky about the stupid parties and the " buy fever", buy since Sam was a kid his older brother always try to make this holidays specials..."just like mom will like it "..-he always say-
Even Sam remember enjoying christmas with his little family, but this year all he can feel is big and deep sadness...
My word is changing
Im rearranging
does that means christmas change too
He had loss so many things the last year...Jessica...his father... his future... he sometimes feels like he was just floating above the sky, just being a spectator of his own life... he cant find a reason to celebrate today...
Sam feels like the walls are closing over him... he need a walk...
Opening the door he just want to run away... the dark motel's coridor become illuminate with the holidays decoration ... he can see a good part of the city from where he stood , considering that their are in the second floor.
Through two years he had a " normal christmas",while he is dating Jessica , they go together to Jessica's home and had a "traditional dinner" with all the family around the table , but even there...in the middle of a lot of people he feels alone, because he dont had his dad and brother with him.
Year ago he always was with his family, being a kid he sometimes pass holidays in father Jim's house , they go together to the churchs charity center and enjoy with all the people the dinner and the gifts , and then,when he become tired he just sit down beside his brother and after a short talk he can put his head in Dean shoulders and fall asleep ... he can remember now , with a smile , how safe and beloved he felt in that moment.
They even share silly gifts: homemade cards and tapes for Dean, something useful for Dad... an old book for father Jim... he always has some books , mittens or comics that his brother bought for him.
That seems light years ago... now... now having 23 he feels like an old man of 90... alone and without hope.
Where are you christmas ?
Do you remember?
The one you use to know?
Im not the same one
see what's the time its done
is why you have let me go...
"Hey princess!! what are you doing here freezing your butt??"At his brother voice, Sam try to clean the evidence of tears in his face
"I was taking a breather" Sam dont even turn to face his brother.
"Dont take it so deep , 'cause you will be sick "... Sam feels something warm and heavy in his shoulders, Deans was putting his heavy winter jacket in him...he feels a knot in his throat, while he was staring at his older brother...
"What??" Say Dean pumping his eyebrowns to him... "I dont want you to become all snotty on me!!".."Come on , lazy bones... Im starving!!"
"You are suposed to go for food ... dont you eat...?"
"Alone, with out you...of course not bitch... I will loose my apetite"
While they are walking to their room , a young couple with three little kids was trying to open the nest door's room, they look very tired and worried...
"Come on sweetheart... we have 50 bucks... we can go to sleep early tonight and tomorrow buy something to eat..."
"Hey tinkerbell... come on"
When Sam step at the bedroom door he almost fell flat in his back, he check the room's number just to be sure... there in the poor table were a couple of red paper plates, cups, napkins and a lot of insulated boxes with food in them... in a corner of the room was a very little christmas tree and even in the windows, his silly brother put some tinzel... beside his headboard was a red stocking who read Sammy in block letter, full of little gifts..
Dean push Sam, inside the room and putting a hand under his chin , close the mouth of his baby brother...
"You will catch a fly... Sammy.."
"Dean... wha...what is this... where... how...????"
"This dumbass is our christmas dinner, I bought it in the always open Wal – Mart , and I just carry the things and work... satisfy???"
"How do you pay for this...??
"In cash... how else...?
"No credit card fraude...???"
"Of course not... dude..."
"Mmmmh??"
"Its christmas eve dude!!! I was honest tonight...!! Now lets eat..."
Saying that they share a dinner with turkey, roast beef, apple pie and a lot of other things that Sam like to eat...they talk and laugh for over three hours... without tension or anxieties...for the firts time in months Sam feels safe again...
"If i eat something else, Im going to burst..." Say Dean patting his belly, sam was dozing now in his chair, thanks of his full belly...
"You will eat that?? " Dean was pointing to the rest of the food in the boxes...
"No, of course not..."
"Good!!" And Dean stand up and putting together the boxes , leaves the room...
"Dean... where in the h...?" Then he hear it, someone knocking in the next door, his brother cherful voice , mufling voices and steps...
Christmas is here
everywhere.. oh
christms is here
If you care , oh
If there is love in your heart and your mind
you will feel like christmas all the time
When Dean return the room, he just pumps his eyebrowns to Sam, and walks to the bathroom...
Sam feels like a warm thing was growning again inside him...
"Im dead... come on, little brother, you need to sleep now...!"
"What for...??"
"Because santa is coming tonight!!!:::" "
Sam climb in his bed, and facing his brother, he smile...
"Good night Sammy!!"
"Good night Dean"
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I hope you like this... tell me what you think... In chapter 2 we will see what Santa bring to the boys...
MERRY CHRISTMAS FOR EVERYONE...!!!!!!!