You can't really tell the pairing, but it's 'supposed' to be Kel/Joren.
This is right after my other fic, "Just One Minute." (anyone noticing a
theme? ^-^) This one will not be entirely in poem format.
Disclaimer: You should get the routine by now, after reading all those other fanfics out there, right? Well, this is just like any other. Standard. Not mine. The characters all belong to Tamora Pierce.
Author's Note: Actually, I really don't care who she's paired up with, that is between Joren, Neal, and Cleon. Though I must say I like Neal better than Cleon. Which means if it's Neal, I don't care, I just read. But, oh well. Enjoy! ^-^ (This is so I don't get anybody mad at me for making it Kel/Joren, cuz then I get people saying, 'Didn't you read book blah, blah, blah? They hate each other. Well, that's one of the ups of fanfics, you can have whatever you want happen. So there!) *sweatdrop* (Finally...)
One Wish
Sapphire Jewel
If I had just one wish
Just one...
I'd wish to be by your side
So...
So I could tell you how much...
How much I loved you
Joren stared down at Kel as she practiced exercises with her glaive in her room.
If I was by your side...
I could beg pardon for all my wrongs...
Which I had directed towards you
I could tell you how much my heart twisted in...
In pain
Whenever my mouth insulted you...
I...
I wanted to kill myself
Joren touched her face sadly. But you can't hear me (OR see me), and now...you never will.
I could try to kill myself...
But...
Even then...
You couldn't even knokw...
You wouldn't be able to even see the blood...
That is...
If there was any
Kel picked up her glaive again, and continued exercising; stopping every now and then to wipe the sweat from her brow. Joren silently stared at her for a couple of minutes before continuing his train of thoughts.
And even if I did kill myself...
Not only would I not be able to...
But...
You still would not know...
What you meant to me
Which would make it useless
A single tear fell from Joren's eye.
And even if I could...
I would have died, again
Knowing you still hated me
Another tear fell.
And since I can't do anything...
I'll never shed this guilt that plagues me,
Since the first word that left my mouth
That ws directed towards you...
Because...
It wasn't I love you
And I'll carry this burden for the rest of my life... (A/N: er.....death)
Joren then realized that he was crying continuously, and he stopped to hastily wipe his tears away. He also noticed that Kel had stopped her exercises and was now thinking aloud to herself. He stopped to listen.
"Joren...why did you leave?" tears spilled over Kel's eyes.
"She's...she's talking about...about ME!" he thought incredulously as he stared on in shock.
"Why did you die?" a single tear fell down Kel's face.
Joren resisted the urge to wipe it away, instead he just stood there, watching like a hawk.
"Now, now there's no one to...to well...brighten up my day." Another tear fell. She hastily wiped it away. "I even wrote a poem! Honestly... a poem! I wrote a poem!" she forced a laugh. "It's almost as if you were here."
With that said, Joren almost broke down. Oh, how much he wanted to hold her and tell her how much he loved her.
"Do you want to hear it?" Kel asked, almost expecting an answer.
"Yes," whispered Joren, even though she couldn't hear him.
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If Tears Could Bring You Back
If tears could bring you back
Life would be changed so much
Your smirking face
Your gleaming eyes, the color of the sky
Your constant bickering that breaks the silence
As murder breaks the peace
I wonder what life would be like
If you weren't gone
Why did you leave?
If you were still here
The silence would vanish
Like a dagger in the throat
I imagine the rejoicing of your return
But, no...
You will never return
Hearts were torn with grief
What was there to gain?
The tears shed for you?
I remember clearly the day I came
Your mocking face, etched with dislike
Your attempts to discourage me
Were they all because you hated me?
After the first year
And I was allowed to stay
I will never forget your face
Etched with disbelief
Even now, I smile at the thought
I never had the time to thank you
For keeping me going
All the times you laughed at me
Mocked me
Saying I was no good
That kept me going
But then you left
Without knowing
That I still had the most important thing
I had yet to say
They were a few simple words
But now that you're dead
They mean nothing
But I still want you to know
That...
I love you
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At this point, both of them were crying...Joren thinking about how much he would love to be alive again and with her. Kel was thinking, "Why?" when all of a sudden, Kel heard some sniffling in the background.
She she room quickly and her eyes rested on a seemingly transparent figure.
"Joren?!?" a voice whispered, hoarse from crying.
Joren stopped sniffling as soon as he heard someone calling his name. He looked over the room, and his eyes rested on Kel, who was staring directly at him.
"Joren..." the same voice whipered yet again.
This time he knew where it came from..."Kel..." he sainknowingly.
"Is that really you?"
Joren did a doubletake. He was dead, of that he was sure, so..."Can you really see me?"
"Of course I can, you dolt. Why? Is this your ghost?"
"Apparently it is, or else I would be alive, wouldn't I?" he forced a laugh.
"Don't joke about it, I was serious. So, if your a ghost, why can I see you?" questioned the girl.
"Truth to tell, I really don't know," he replied. "I was hoping you could tell me."
"Why would I know anything about it? I don't make studying the dead's afterlife my top priority. In fact, it's not even on my list of things to do in my spare time," Kel retorted.
This brought a chuckle out of Joren, "True...Mithros, you've grown," he said as he brought his hand up to her face.
"What is this?" laughed Kel. "Everybody's been saying the same thing." (A/N: Well....not quite everyone, but I had to fit that in there :P)
Joren raised his eyebrow and drawled, "Really?"
"Yeah, it's really getting to be a theme..." (A/N: This whole entire growth thing, it's not really my own idea....I have Orla to thank for that...^-^)
Another laugh escaped his lips, "Well, I can understand why..."
Kel rolled her eyes, "Great..."
They stood staring at each other for a couple of minutes through complete silence, though it was a comforting one.
"So...back on the subject, how is it possible that you can see me? You know, with me being a ghost and all."
There is a brief flash of light, then a bossy voice made its way into the silence. "Hello...my name is Inigo Montoya, you killed my father, prepare to...whoops, sorry, wrong script..." The sprite frantically flipped through a large stack of papers. "Ah...here it is...Hello, I am a messenger from the world of the dead. I am here on the account of Joren of Stone Mountain who died during the 18th year of reign of King Jonathan IV and Queen Thayet. And that would be..." she pointed at the blonde (I do believe so) "you...You should not have died so soon. Your death was unexpected, so therefore you will be given another chance of life. No, you will not need to complete task after task. It is merely a simple essay on why you want to return to the living realm. But...you must come with me...you will have exactly one day to complete this test, and at the end of that, the decision will be made. I will come back when you have made your decision." With that said, she disappeard.
"I can come back..." Joren stated astonished.
"What if you don't pass? Will you just stay dead?"
"I don't know, but I can't be worse off..." Joren hesistated. "I'm going to do it...if I don't, I would have lost the chance to come back...and if I don't pass...well, at least I tried, " he managed to crack a smile.
"...I suppose...but..." Kel whispered.
"Look...I'll come back, I'm not going to fail. Okay?" he patted her back awkwardly. I'll make it, then I'll be able to hold you in my arms, and I'll be able to prove how much I love you...
There's another flash of light, and the little blonde sprite appears again. "Took you long enough. Are you ready?"
"Yes...but I have one question..."
"Then ask it, come on...you're wasting time," said the annoyed sprite.
"What happends if I fail?"
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Author's Note: I think I'll leave you there...*cocks head* no? Alright...I'll give you the consequence...hangon.
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"Then you will return to the Dark god's realm for eternity, unable to ever see the light of day. You will live the rest of your life (er....death) without any other companionship," the sprite stated matter-of- factly.
"What about Kel?" asked Joren.
"You will not be allowed to see her, nor will she be allowed to see you."
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Author's Note: No more. I'm not giving you any more information. You're gonna have to wait till I finish the next part. (gomen, that might take me awhile) Yes, I know that the one part was totally yyh, but I can't help it...I needed that in there.
Flames? Comments? Anything?!? So just review, please...onegai? Come on, I'm begging here. Oh, yeah, you can also e-mail me at kokoryhurra_dragon@yahoo.com
Sorry to those of you who wanted Cleon/Kel or Neal/Kel. My original plan was Joren/Kel. I will not be changing it to match your wishes...Though, if you can get at least ten people to ask, I'll consider it and write another version for you people out there, alright?
My whole entire outline of the story is down in my head, so...I have most of the ideas down. The only problem is actually writing it. *sigh* I'll have it up ASAP.
Disclaimer: You should get the routine by now, after reading all those other fanfics out there, right? Well, this is just like any other. Standard. Not mine. The characters all belong to Tamora Pierce.
Author's Note: Actually, I really don't care who she's paired up with, that is between Joren, Neal, and Cleon. Though I must say I like Neal better than Cleon. Which means if it's Neal, I don't care, I just read. But, oh well. Enjoy! ^-^ (This is so I don't get anybody mad at me for making it Kel/Joren, cuz then I get people saying, 'Didn't you read book blah, blah, blah? They hate each other. Well, that's one of the ups of fanfics, you can have whatever you want happen. So there!) *sweatdrop* (Finally...)
One Wish
Sapphire Jewel
If I had just one wish
Just one...
I'd wish to be by your side
So...
So I could tell you how much...
How much I loved you
Joren stared down at Kel as she practiced exercises with her glaive in her room.
If I was by your side...
I could beg pardon for all my wrongs...
Which I had directed towards you
I could tell you how much my heart twisted in...
In pain
Whenever my mouth insulted you...
I...
I wanted to kill myself
Joren touched her face sadly. But you can't hear me (OR see me), and now...you never will.
I could try to kill myself...
But...
Even then...
You couldn't even knokw...
You wouldn't be able to even see the blood...
That is...
If there was any
Kel picked up her glaive again, and continued exercising; stopping every now and then to wipe the sweat from her brow. Joren silently stared at her for a couple of minutes before continuing his train of thoughts.
And even if I did kill myself...
Not only would I not be able to...
But...
You still would not know...
What you meant to me
Which would make it useless
A single tear fell from Joren's eye.
And even if I could...
I would have died, again
Knowing you still hated me
Another tear fell.
And since I can't do anything...
I'll never shed this guilt that plagues me,
Since the first word that left my mouth
That ws directed towards you...
Because...
It wasn't I love you
And I'll carry this burden for the rest of my life... (A/N: er.....death)
Joren then realized that he was crying continuously, and he stopped to hastily wipe his tears away. He also noticed that Kel had stopped her exercises and was now thinking aloud to herself. He stopped to listen.
"Joren...why did you leave?" tears spilled over Kel's eyes.
"She's...she's talking about...about ME!" he thought incredulously as he stared on in shock.
"Why did you die?" a single tear fell down Kel's face.
Joren resisted the urge to wipe it away, instead he just stood there, watching like a hawk.
"Now, now there's no one to...to well...brighten up my day." Another tear fell. She hastily wiped it away. "I even wrote a poem! Honestly... a poem! I wrote a poem!" she forced a laugh. "It's almost as if you were here."
With that said, Joren almost broke down. Oh, how much he wanted to hold her and tell her how much he loved her.
"Do you want to hear it?" Kel asked, almost expecting an answer.
"Yes," whispered Joren, even though she couldn't hear him.
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If Tears Could Bring You Back
If tears could bring you back
Life would be changed so much
Your smirking face
Your gleaming eyes, the color of the sky
Your constant bickering that breaks the silence
As murder breaks the peace
I wonder what life would be like
If you weren't gone
Why did you leave?
If you were still here
The silence would vanish
Like a dagger in the throat
I imagine the rejoicing of your return
But, no...
You will never return
Hearts were torn with grief
What was there to gain?
The tears shed for you?
I remember clearly the day I came
Your mocking face, etched with dislike
Your attempts to discourage me
Were they all because you hated me?
After the first year
And I was allowed to stay
I will never forget your face
Etched with disbelief
Even now, I smile at the thought
I never had the time to thank you
For keeping me going
All the times you laughed at me
Mocked me
Saying I was no good
That kept me going
But then you left
Without knowing
That I still had the most important thing
I had yet to say
They were a few simple words
But now that you're dead
They mean nothing
But I still want you to know
That...
I love you
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At this point, both of them were crying...Joren thinking about how much he would love to be alive again and with her. Kel was thinking, "Why?" when all of a sudden, Kel heard some sniffling in the background.
She she room quickly and her eyes rested on a seemingly transparent figure.
"Joren?!?" a voice whispered, hoarse from crying.
Joren stopped sniffling as soon as he heard someone calling his name. He looked over the room, and his eyes rested on Kel, who was staring directly at him.
"Joren..." the same voice whipered yet again.
This time he knew where it came from..."Kel..." he sainknowingly.
"Is that really you?"
Joren did a doubletake. He was dead, of that he was sure, so..."Can you really see me?"
"Of course I can, you dolt. Why? Is this your ghost?"
"Apparently it is, or else I would be alive, wouldn't I?" he forced a laugh.
"Don't joke about it, I was serious. So, if your a ghost, why can I see you?" questioned the girl.
"Truth to tell, I really don't know," he replied. "I was hoping you could tell me."
"Why would I know anything about it? I don't make studying the dead's afterlife my top priority. In fact, it's not even on my list of things to do in my spare time," Kel retorted.
This brought a chuckle out of Joren, "True...Mithros, you've grown," he said as he brought his hand up to her face.
"What is this?" laughed Kel. "Everybody's been saying the same thing." (A/N: Well....not quite everyone, but I had to fit that in there :P)
Joren raised his eyebrow and drawled, "Really?"
"Yeah, it's really getting to be a theme..." (A/N: This whole entire growth thing, it's not really my own idea....I have Orla to thank for that...^-^)
Another laugh escaped his lips, "Well, I can understand why..."
Kel rolled her eyes, "Great..."
They stood staring at each other for a couple of minutes through complete silence, though it was a comforting one.
"So...back on the subject, how is it possible that you can see me? You know, with me being a ghost and all."
There is a brief flash of light, then a bossy voice made its way into the silence. "Hello...my name is Inigo Montoya, you killed my father, prepare to...whoops, sorry, wrong script..." The sprite frantically flipped through a large stack of papers. "Ah...here it is...Hello, I am a messenger from the world of the dead. I am here on the account of Joren of Stone Mountain who died during the 18th year of reign of King Jonathan IV and Queen Thayet. And that would be..." she pointed at the blonde (I do believe so) "you...You should not have died so soon. Your death was unexpected, so therefore you will be given another chance of life. No, you will not need to complete task after task. It is merely a simple essay on why you want to return to the living realm. But...you must come with me...you will have exactly one day to complete this test, and at the end of that, the decision will be made. I will come back when you have made your decision." With that said, she disappeard.
"I can come back..." Joren stated astonished.
"What if you don't pass? Will you just stay dead?"
"I don't know, but I can't be worse off..." Joren hesistated. "I'm going to do it...if I don't, I would have lost the chance to come back...and if I don't pass...well, at least I tried, " he managed to crack a smile.
"...I suppose...but..." Kel whispered.
"Look...I'll come back, I'm not going to fail. Okay?" he patted her back awkwardly. I'll make it, then I'll be able to hold you in my arms, and I'll be able to prove how much I love you...
There's another flash of light, and the little blonde sprite appears again. "Took you long enough. Are you ready?"
"Yes...but I have one question..."
"Then ask it, come on...you're wasting time," said the annoyed sprite.
"What happends if I fail?"
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Author's Note: I think I'll leave you there...*cocks head* no? Alright...I'll give you the consequence...hangon.
*~~~~*~~~~*~~~~*~~~~*~~~~*~~~~*~~~~*~~~~*~~~~*~~~~*~~~~*
"Then you will return to the Dark god's realm for eternity, unable to ever see the light of day. You will live the rest of your life (er....death) without any other companionship," the sprite stated matter-of- factly.
"What about Kel?" asked Joren.
"You will not be allowed to see her, nor will she be allowed to see you."
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Author's Note: No more. I'm not giving you any more information. You're gonna have to wait till I finish the next part. (gomen, that might take me awhile) Yes, I know that the one part was totally yyh, but I can't help it...I needed that in there.
Flames? Comments? Anything?!? So just review, please...onegai? Come on, I'm begging here. Oh, yeah, you can also e-mail me at kokoryhurra_dragon@yahoo.com
Sorry to those of you who wanted Cleon/Kel or Neal/Kel. My original plan was Joren/Kel. I will not be changing it to match your wishes...Though, if you can get at least ten people to ask, I'll consider it and write another version for you people out there, alright?
My whole entire outline of the story is down in my head, so...I have most of the ideas down. The only problem is actually writing it. *sigh* I'll have it up ASAP.