A Lost Soul

A/N: Rin was seven years old when the jewel search began. It took 5 years to complete the jewel and kill Naraku. Kikyo is at peace. Rin died a few months after the jewel was completed. It has been 5 years since she died.

Prologue : The Death Of Rin

"Sesshoumaru - sama, I love you."

The confession still rang in his head as he replayed the scene over and over in his mind. 'How can she love me? Nobody loves Sesshoumaru and Sesshoumaru loves nobody!' He closed his eyes to see her pretty face once more before shutting the image away. Rin was still a child of twelve, but he knew that she would grow to become a great beauty. 'She will be as legendary as Inuyashas mother was.' At the thought of Izayoi, Sesshoumaru cringed. 'She was a beauty and she used it to lead my father astray from his noble heritage and down to the level of those human scum.'

"Still, Rin is not like that and she will become my mate. And unlike Izayoi she will not be in control of everything surrounding me." he said under his breath.

The little green youkai beside him looked horrified at his master. "B-B-But my Lord! She is a human!"

Sesshoumaru forgot that his annoying retainer was still there with him. 'Mmm…the only reason I keep him around is because he watches over Rin. Well sort of.' He paused and thought again. 'He also has a talent for luring food into our camp even if he does not know it. Perhaps I will let those beasts have him for once and then kill them.' He then realized what Jaken had just asked and wanted to kill the little youkai even more.

"Do you love her Lord Sesshoumaru?" Jaken suddenly realized that he asked the wrong thing.

"Of course I dont love her you baka! Why would I love a human in that way? The only reason that I am taking her for my mate is because she looks to be a good breeder and her body will soon spark interests in mine. But do not fear Jaken, I won't take her to bed until she is at least of a proper age."

Sesshoumaru looked back toward the sweeping mountains and Jaken knew he was going to regret asking this but he had to. "Um.. m-my lord, why take her to be mate when she will only come out to have hanyou pups?"

Jaken was right, he got a foot in his face from that. "I will give her some of my blood to make her immortal so our pups will be at least a little more than a hanyou, but I will not keep her in my bed all the time. When I have the number of pups I want I will not touch her unless the need will be to unbearable. After all Jaken sometimes a woman's body can tempt a male to do unspeakable things, but only when he is in the mood. Of course, that all depends on what kind of male is pursuing the female. Of course I hardly think that Rin's human body can spark all that much interest in mine after she has given birth to children. I have seen how human women look after they have birthed a number of babies."

Jaken looked even more horrified now but not because of what his lord had said. Standing not five feet away was the topic of their conversation with tears streaming from her dark green eyes. After Sesshoumaru noticed her standing there she ran away from him.

"It is best that she learned of it now instead of later. Before her feelings for me become too strong. I'm going to go meditate and remember I don't want to be bothered unless it's an emergency!"

'That bastard! Who does he think he is?' She thought as she ran to her favorite spot in the whole western lands, and she'd been to every inch of them. She could feel the warm wetness of her tears coming down her cheeks.

'How could he do this? I told him that I loved him and this is what happens!' She finally slowed to a walk and sat under her favorite tree to cry some more. 'W-We used to be so happy together when I was younger. That's probably why everything use to be so fun; because I was a child and not a woman.' Rin buried her head in her arms to hide her tears. 'No… perhaps it's because I'm so weak and these tears are weak. Why can't I be a warrior for my lord?'

Deep in her thoughts and sorrows, Rin didn't hear the rustle of branches behind her. "Rin! What do you think you are doing? Running away from Lord Sesshoumaru like that!" Jaken yelled at her, not noticing Rins tears.

"Leave me be Jaken." She whispered.

"I will not, you ungrateful human wench. You should thank his lordship that he is even keeping you for longer now and going to give you immortality," the little green youkai huffed and turned back to where he came from. "Come along Rin."

She stood up and began to walk behind Jaken. "I thought I could make him feel. I thought I could give him a soul but now I see how foolish I've been. Sesshoumaru- sama is a demon and is far to impure to have a soul. It seems Inuyasha is lucky to be a hanyou, at least he does have one." She was whispering, but it was still loud enough for the toad's ears to hear something.

Jaken looked back toward Rin only to see her looking over to the setting sun. "What was that you said, you stupid girl?" he asked her.

When she turned to look at him he noticed the tears in her lovely eyes and the sad smile playing on her lips. " Nothing important." She replied and turned back at the setting sun, its dying rays caught in her hair turning it from the rich brown to a burnished auburn. " Tell him good bye for me, Jaken."

Before Jaken realized what she was talking about it was too late. The beautiful dagger with the silver hilt that Sesshoumaru had given her for her last birthday was sheathed beside her broken heart. Jaken could see that she had veered off a little from the heart but it didn't matter. If he didn't get his master very soon Rin would die.

Jaken ran toward Rin and saw that she was indeed still alive and in very much pain. He began to run for his master but Rin grabbed his arm, "Please Jaken, don't tell Sesshoumaru!"

The little youkai was shocked at this and ran for his master anyway. Rin sighed and looked to the setting sun. She knew that the only reason why tenseiga was able to bring her back before was because she was fighting to stay alive.

"Now death demons, take me as you were supposed to do all those years ago! Take me now to the other world so Sesshoumaru cannot find me!" As the death youkais came closer and carried her soul away she had one last thought. 'Sesshoumaru-sama, I love you but I curse the day I met you!'

There was a roar of thunder and a young girl bolted straight up in bed.