Ok this is just a maybe just 1-2 chapters thing and I don't know exactly how great it will be so here goes. It's kind of a personal story in a way cause of things that had just happened but I felt that I really needed to type about it but whatever. shrugs so let me know what you think! Please RR!

Summary: Lexy is taking the lost of her grandfather by shuting out reality what will happen to her? and what will happen to there relatioship with Ray? plz R&R! rated for language

Disclaimer; don't own beyblade! Don't sue!

Chapter 1: It Starts

It was a nasty day; wet, cold, miserable cloudy day. The wind was howling, the water works where coming down hard, and it was just so cold and empty in the house. At least it was for Alexis. The howling wind was her grandmother and other family members sobbing. The waterworks were tears that were staining people's faces, and it wasn't a nasty day at all. It was sunny and -2 for a change instead of -30. The birds were chirping and there were people out walking there dogs. It'd make you think that nothing bad should happen today. That wasn't the case.

Alexis or Lexy as people called her, was staying over at her grandparents at the time. The house use to seem lively and full of life, but ever since people started to come over it just seemed empty, cold, and unnatural. Lexy's whole family was there, cousins, aunts, uncle, and the whole gang. All of them expecting you to be breaking down crying. Always checking on you, making sure that you're ok. It wasn't as bad as they were doing it to her grandmother, Gran. There was nowhere she could go just to think, and grasp what had just happened, nowhere to be alone for a few minutes. People were hugging her and giving her these sad strange looks, talking about how they didn't understand, he wasn't meant to go.

All the while Lexy just sat there. Not saying anything, just listening, andevery time her grandmother started to cry, after repeating "He was so alive just the other night, chatting away with the nurses" or "how could he just leave us like this.It'snot fair", a tear would stream down Lexy's face. Lexy's cousin Nikki sat beside her, rubbing her back saying every now and then "its ok, its ok."

'How can you say it's ok, it's not.'

When the nightmare had happened, Lexy was sleeping over at her cousin's house that night. All she had known was that her aunt Val, and uncle Dan were rushing out of the house saying "We'll call you in a bit we have to go see Gran ok?" and then they drove out of sight, leaving three confused kidschildren behind.

Lexy couldn't stand the look on her grandmother's face anymore, it was too painful.Lexy stood up and headed down the hallwaytowards her room. She stopped half way down the hall and entered the room that use to be her granddad's study. Every thing was still exactly as it was the night before when her granddad was checking up on rugby scores. She could still hear his voice in the conversation.

Flashback….

"Oh, hello pussy cat," her grandfather saidturning to face her from the computer. "What are you up to?"

"Nothing much, just getting my stuff together, I'm going to be sleeping over at Nikki's house since I haven't seen her in a while. You know catch up on things."

"Ok."Her grandfather said turning back to the computer.

"What are you doing granddad?" she said leaning against the desk looking at thecomputer.

"Just checking my email and looking up rugby scores." He said click on the internet.

"Ok, well I better finish getting everything ready before Mum drops me off." Lexy said getting up and headed towards the door.

"Ok sweethear,t see you later."

End flashback.

Those were the last things that he had said to her. Alexis ran her finger over the top of the desk. She could feel tears prickling her skin as they ran down the side of her cheek. She typedG... O... N... E... ?on the keyboard before turning around and leaving the room tears blurringher vision.

Lexy fell backwards onto her bed and stared at the ceiling. She didn't believe it, she wouldn't. She kept telling herself that he wasn't gone, that he was still here. That he just went to get the paper notin mothing more. After a while she started to believe what she was saying. She could hear everyone in the living room and every time she herd he's gone, she'd think 'no he's not, what are you talking about.'

"Cremated? Memorial service? Why do you keep talking about it? If he's not gone then why does there need to be that stuff?" she said to herself.

Lexy then fell silent still staring at the cieling. She knew he was gone deep down you could tell by the way the house felt so empty, so abandoned, but she thought if she didn't say it then it wasn't true. It all happened so fast, it was almost like it never happened. Almost like if a tree fell in the woods, would any one know?

Tunning out the world and it's nonsense she put her head phones on and rolled over.

Ok so it's the end of chapter one . please read and review!

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