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This is another perfect pair story!
I just love this pairing a lot!
Actually, the reason I wrote this is because I always feel that sometimes Fuji is always being taken for granted and that Tezuka gives too much attention to Echizen so I wrote this because this is what I think he really feels… Hehehe
I mean, this is just my view ok? You might be of different view. ^_^
Of course I added something to spice things up a bit!
Summary: Fuji is unrequitedly in love with Tezuka while the latter is going out with Echizen. What happens when a car accident takes Fuji's memory away? Will he remember his feelings or will he move on?
Hope you like it!
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What could be more painful than unrequited love?
Does it feel like dying?
No.
Not really…
It's more like dying softly.
Every hour, minute and second that passes is as painful as having a knife twisted to your heart. Hidden love is equally as painful because it never fades away. I should know, it's how I actually feel right now.
My name is Fuji Syusuke, I'm currently a senior student at Seishun Gakuen. I'm in the tennis club too and the guy I like (yes, he's a guy) is none other than our captain, Tezuka Kunimitsu.
I don't actually have a particular reason why I love him, I just do. Sounds stupid right? Well I don't care anyway. Nobody is perfect right? Most people consider me as a tensai or a prodigy. I wouldn't know. I think that's just an exaggeration.
Anyways… I'm currently at my classroom staring outside the window, my thoughts once again a hundred miles away from what the teacher is talking about. I don't even remember what subject this is.
I took a glance at my side and sees Eiji almost half asleep. I let out a small chuckle. He surely looks adorable. Carefully, I took out my camera and took a picture of him. I'm sure I could give this to Oishi for a favor.
I place my camera back inside my bag and continued staring outside. Within a few seconds he'll come.
5…
4…
3…
2…
1…
JACKPOT!
I see him walking now. Dark chestnut brown hair with a stoic appearance. I let out a small sigh and smiled. I'm absolutely never going to find someone as stunning as him.
To me he is the representation of perfection. Even his flaws are perfect to me.
I sighed.
I think I'm going crazy. Whatever I do I still fell drawn to him. I feel like I've been captured by his Tezuka zone.
Ugh… I wish I could slap myself right now for thinking such corny things.
Good thing that thoughts are only heard by those who are thinking of it.
"Fujiko…"
"Fuji…"
"Fujiko..!!!"
I blinked twice as I find Eiji's hand waving in front of me.
"Wah! Fujiko! I thought you've sailed to a different universe! I've called you three times already!" Eiji wailed.
"Gomen gomen" I said and gave him an apologetic smile as we both hurried for tennis practice. I didn't even notice that the class had already ended. I hope we're not late yet, trust Tezuka to show no mercy with laps. I swear! That guy is addicted to laps.
As soon as Eiji opened the door of our clubroom we were greeted by the others. "Better hurry Fuji sempai!" I heard Momoshiro say and I just smiled as I changed to my tennis uniform. I calmly walk to the court with Inui. I was chatting idly with him about his latest juice when a sight caught my attention and without noticing I stop my tracks.
It was him. Tezuka Kunimitsu.
Then I notice Inui scribbling something in his note book while muttering 'Iiee data'.
Damn! I got careless.
I smile at Inui inwardly as we headed to the court. We started off with our usual laps and I teased Tezuka saying that his addiction with laps is getting stronger. Then I joined the others before I get any additional laps.
I was joking with Eiji while running but my smile dropped as I saw Tezuka's gaze.
How should I put it to words?
His expression was soft and serene behind stoicness, it was gentle and loving as if he was protecting someone with his gaze.
It's nice to see that our captain is still humane but it pains to see that gaze being directed to someone else and I could see the other had notice it as well and acknowledge it by lowering his cap.
After our laps we assemble to the court for our next training which was just practice matches.
As usual, I was paired up with Take san for a doubles match against Momo and Kaido. Eiji against Oishi and Tezuka against Echizen. It was always like that.
Am I not good enough to be his opponent?
After practice everyone was eager to go home.
Going home was my favorite part of my daily life because we walk home together.
I wait as he locks the door of our clubroom and we head home. We don't talk much but it isn't boring, it never was.
His presence is enough to keep me happy. Sometimes we would talk about tennis or the team, sometimes he would even talk about Echizen.
When those times come, I prefer the quietness.
I remember the first time we walked together. I was carrying an umbrella and we walked while it was snowing.
"Fuji, we're here" I hear him say.
Indeed, we were already in front of my house. "Hmm… sorry Tezuka… I kind of dozed off" I said smiling.
Suddenly I felt warm hands placed on my forehead and my eyes shot open in surprise.
"You do look pale, are you ok?" he asked.
Come to think of it, I'm not really feeling well since this morning but no one noticed, only he did.
I smiled warmly. I like it whenever he's like this. He seems so strict and serious but deep inside he's very attentive to his surrounding and he's very caring.
I brush his hand softly. "I'm fine Tezuka, maybe a bit tired" I said warily. He looks sternly at me as if warning me.
"You should take better care of yourself and don't let your guard down" he warned.
I smiled again "I will" I replied as I wave goodbye at him and entered the house.
As soon as I close the door I went to my room and laid on my bed. In my head his words were repeating over and over again.
He cares for me and I'm so happy. I feel stupid for getting so excited over such trivial things but somehow I also don't care. I like the feeling and I'm glad for his care.
But I should stop.
Really, I should stop.
I shouldn't get my hopes up by such simple words. Anyway, 'I' would only always be a friend to him, nothing more.
Especially now that he has someone he loves.
It's painful, yes.
So very painful in fact, but that's how life is.
You don't always get what you want.
Even if I had wanted him since then he never wanted me in that way. Especially now that he found his own pillar of support.
Sometimes I'd even catch them giving meaningful glances at each other and it hurts.
Have you ever experience getting cut by a piece of a shattered glass?
That's exactly how I feel, only difference, it seems that it's cutting inside my heart over and over again.
I envy that brat.
It didn't even take him long to win his heart.
I sigh.
I know I should stop.
But I can't bring myself to stop.
I have to stop.
But I don't want to stop.
God! I sound so pathetic. I know he doesn't love me, but I love him and I'll continue loving him even from afar.
It's painful.
So very painful.
But if he loves him the way I do then its fine. I'll just continue staying at his side and smile.
'Fuji Syusuke you're so pathetic… can you hear yourself? You're acting like a love sick fool!'
I felt a pang in my heart.
People often say that time heals all wounds.
Will it heal mine?
Can it heal mine?
Why can't I move on? Why am I so stuck up with him?
Why can't I show what I really feel?
I want to cry and break down but instead I smile.
I smile at him.
I smile at the two of them.
I smile at everybody.
My heart is breaking but I still smile.
I don't understand myself either.
Tears are swelling in my eyes but they don't fall.
They never did.
They never do.
They never will.
Tbc....
So guys, i do hope you like this story! ^_^ Reviews are very much appreciated! hehehe...
Oh, also...
HAPPY VALENTINES..!!
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