Confused Chapter 1- Disconnected
Emma's POV:
I'm only coming to the ravine because of what happened with Rick. What Jay and I are going is purely physical nothing more, or at least that's what I keep saying. Jay and I have done nothing but hate each other and one blow job can't change that. I Emma Christine Nelson does not like Jay Hogart in anyway but for a quick "fix" at the ravine. Nothing more.
As I snuck out my window wearing my Black mini skirt and a pink shirt with the words innocent written on it I felt everything but innocent. If my parents ever found out about what it was that I'm doing at the ravine I'd never hear the end of it.
I walk into the ravine and go up to Jay sitting next to Amy talking. Since I started coming to the ravine and Jay started blowing her off to go into a van with me so we aren't really on speaking terms. Jay greets me with a kiss one the cheek. Amy gags.
"Amy, I'm here now Jay doesn't need you any more now run along," I was just as surprised as Jay and Amy were. "Whatever. I see you later Jay. Once Little Miss Priss goes home to daddy okay," asked Amy looking kind of shocked. "Yea sure," Jay wasn't sure what to say. Amy left.
"JAY!" I was pretty made at what he had said. "How can you say that you'll be with her later? What about me? Don't I matter" "Calm down Greenpeace but I can't be tied down to only one girl. If I didn't know better I'd think you were jealous of Amy."
Was I jealous of Amy? I couldn't be. Jay and I have a purely physical relationship. I hate seeing her flirting with him and touching his arm. Jay is MINE. Oh no. I am jealous.
"Ready to go to the van Greenpeace?", Jay said with a smirk. Jay's smirk could not only get any girl into his van but it could get him out of trouble. I loved Jay's smirk. "Umm yeah sure let's go," I didn't sound as confident as I usually did when I talked to him. "You okay?", he wrapped his arms around my waist. I was took choked up to answer his question so instead I just let him lead me to the van.
We started kissing and I noticed a couple things. One he forgot to close the door and 2 that there was a hint of passion in our kiss. The next thing I knew he started pulling my shirt off. I didn't think anything of it sometimes I'd let him. We kept kissing for a while and he start shifting oddly it wasn't until he was on top of me that I knew that he has flipped me off of him. "Emma," Jay said whispering in my ear. "How about I pleasure you for a change" I had no clue what he meant by that, then he started pulling my skirt down. I have to admit I got kind of freaked when he did but a good kind of freaked like an excited and slightly scared freaked.
Once my skirt was off he started kissing up my stomach and then arrived at my neck sucking on my neck violently. I let out a small cry and he broke away from my neck kissing down until he reached the top of my underwear. He looked up at me and smiled. "You okay?" I can't believe he was concerned about me. "Yea I'm fine" "Kay" At that point he kind of stood up and started to unbutton and unzip his pants. Once they were off all my wonders of what he planned on doing quickly vanished. I knew exactly was he was going to do. Jay Hogart was going to have sex with me.
He moved back up towards my head and kisses me. He moved his hands underneath me and undid my bra. I opened my eyes for a minute and swore I saw something out side of the van. I was just being paranoid right? I shook the thought out of my head and continued kissing Jay. He broke the kiss and slowly moved my bra down my arms. Then he reached over me and got something out of a small box lying next to where we were. I couldn't tell what it was though. That's when he pulled his boxers off. I've seen him without them on before but this time it was different. At that moment I knew what it was that he got. A condom. He's so considerate.
After he slid it on I knew there was no turning back. He looked into my eyes and I could tell that are relationship was no longer purely physical. He pulled my underwear off and hovered over me. He slowly got closer.
"JAY! EWW," Said Amy from outside of the van. Jay turned around and stared at her. "You told me earlier that you didn't want to have sex with me yet and then you here with her." "Look Amy I love Emma and that's why I couldn't have sex with you before." "YOU WHAT?" "Jay you you you you love me?", I asked about to cry. Jay Hogart loved me. "Yes, Emma I love you." "Eww Jay NO. You must be drunk get out of the van Emma. He doesn't love you." "AMY SHUT THE FUCK UP. I DO LOVE EMMA AND I'M NOT DRUNK." "Okay fine whatever. Emma that's low you should never give guys drugs." "AMY IM NOT HIGH EITHER." "Okay you know what I think I'm going to go," I wasn't in the mood to here the two of them argue. I put my clothes on and started to leave the van. "Emma, no, I want you to stay. Please." "Look Jay I can't. I should be getting home anyway. I'll see you tomorrow." With that I exited the van leaving Amy and Jay yelling in the distance.