Disclaimer: I do not own nor am I affiliated with Neon Genesis Evangelion.
Note: I originally wrote this story as a contest on the website The Must Bunny. It is just a short piece from Kaworu Nagisa's view point. It is his last moments of life while waiting on Shinji to finally destroy him. I hope you enjoy.
"Hello Death."
Kaworu stared up at Shinji in Unit 01 waiting for the moment his life would be stolen from him. "We have spoken several times before this, although the conversations were rather one sided. You simply stood their and listened to me as I spoke of my orders as an angel. When we spoke I told you how simple it would be to end the human race, it would be a quick process, and only a matter of days, but I never took this into context. I never dreamed I would meet someone like Shinji, I never thought it would end this way, at the hands of the one I fell in love with." the angel closed his eyes and smiled lightly to himself, despite the tragic situation he was in.
"When I was sent to Earth I never dreamed I would fall in love with someone. Not a human. Not I. Not Tabris. I was sent here to destroy the human race, yet here I am allowing myself to be destroyed by one of the very humans I was meant to kill."
He opened his crimson eyes and looked up at the Eva who's cold metal hands were wrapped around his frail human form, squeezing him tighter and tighter every moment. Visions and memories of Shinji ran through the angel's mind, and his thin lips turned up into a smile again.
"I only wish I had more time with you."
The memories flooded Kaworu's mind. He felt like something cold grabbed his heart and dragged it to the pit of his stomach.
"Is this... sadness?" he asked himself, still not used to human emotions. He tried to gasp for breath but he was suffocating, not under the pressure of the large unfeeling hands gripping him, but rather under the sadness and regret that grasped his heart.
"I have failed you Adam." Kaworu thought to himself. "But I simply couldn't see myself allowing Shinji to die. He is too kind... too sweet... too frail. I know I was supposed to live, but my survival will lead to the end of the human race... to the end of Shinji. I cannot allow myself to take his life, or for the rest of eternity I will suffer at my own memories. I don't mind dieing for him." his body shook under the pressure of the Eva's hands. "I know that for the rest of his life he will think I betrayed him... but hopefully one day he will realize that I sacrificed myself for his chance to live... I hope one days he realizes I did this because.. I love him."
The freezing metal hands tightened around Kaworu. He didn't let himself stop smiling despite the fact he could feel his bones turning to dust and his lungs being crushed. He continued to smile up at his love who piloted the very Eva that was killing him, the two of them suffering so deeply. Now Kaworu felt blood gathering in his throat, and the grip tightened, his neck was breaking, and still he smiled.
"Thank you so much Shinji Ikari... My life is only meaningful.. because of you..."
Owari.
Sorry it was so short. I hope you enjoyed it though. If you have a moment or something to say feel free to review. :)
~Hincaru