Warnings: Character deaths and suicide. Nothing graphic though.
Disclaimer: The song belongs to The Nixons. I highly recommend listening to it.
Dedication: This is for Ben, who introduced me to this song in the first place. He's a great friend and has a talent as a writer that I could only dream about achieving. I was dangerously close to stopping writing all together, but he pulled me back from the edge. Writing a story was the only way I could think of to thank him.
The Fall
By Melissa
"It's really odd, in a way. We go through our lives, living from day to day, not really thinking about it at all. And suddenly, something happens, and and you realize that there is something greater out there that your living for. It hits you like a ton of bricks. That there is a reason you wake up every day. A reason for breathing, and living life to it's maximum potential. It's seems so obvious once you realize it." I smile sadly. "You were my reason."
Is this the way do you recall any of this
Do you know where we're going
Can you see what's ahead, can you make out a path
Can we keep our footing
If you keep me awake and you can show me the way
I might sometimes lead
But for now for the fall can you promise that someone will catch me
"I trusted you more than anyone. You had this deeper knowledge and understanding that I could never fathom. It made you mysterious. It made you who you are. We were never sure where fate would lead us. It didn't matter to me then, because I had you."
Cause I'm falling in...into the real life
Falling in...into the real life
"We had known each other since we were very young, but in a sense, I had only recently discovered you. It was because I had only begun to acknowledge the deep feelings I have always had for you. Falling in love with you opened my eyes, and I finally began to live."
There was a time that I felt I had guide
But I'm needing a revelation
I've been spit out and spit on
Can't even keep together my disjointed frustration
Up until now it was a question of how and no deeper
It's the who and the why and the reasons I just can't remember
"I believe that we were.....are soul mates. Souls that share a bond that can never be broken. Each life time is different, but we always manage to find each other. And to reawaken the love that has always been there. We continue this endless waltz of living, loving and dying, throughout all time. I never told you how I felt in this life. I think, deep down, you knew though. Just as you've always known. It is of small comfort though. I still should have said something."
Cause I'm falling in...into the real life
Falling in... into the real life
"The time has come for me to fall again. The first was I fell from heaven down to earth. The second was when I fell in love with you. And now I try to prepare myself for the third, and final time."
Are you the one do you believe if I crumble
You can put me back together
Is this the time and place that might begin
What might be forever
Up until now it was a question of how and no deeper
It's the who and the why and the reasons I just can't remember
"You were my revelation, my light when everything else around me was dark. It's fitting that it was both your name and your crest. You would never let me quit. Even the times I wanted to do nothing more than give up, or curl up in a ball and cry. That's all I've wanted to do since you passed away. It's hard when the only person who could make me stop crying, is also the person who's making me cry. I know it's not fair of me. It wasn't your choice to leave. You didn't purposely cause this pain inside my heart. I'm being selfish I know, but I don't care. I miss you so much."
Cause I'm falling in...into the real life
Falling in... into the real life
I stand on the cliff overlooking the ocean. The wind dries the tears that streak down my face. "I don't want this reality if you are not in it. My reason for living is gone. Therefore, it's time for me to leave. My real life will begin once more when I see you again. Whenever that may be."
I don't want your reality...anymore
Is this the way do you recall
Is this the climb before the fall, fallin' in, fallin' in
Falling, falling, can you keep me awake, show me the way...
Fallin', fallin', this is all we are, get ready for the fall
Closing my eyes, I step forward. Allowing myself to fall.
Is this the way you recall any of this
Do you know where we're going?
The End
More Author's Notes. I'm sorry. I know it's not the best. I would like to know what you thought of it anyway. Until next time.
"The glory is in the effort, even if it fails."