A Reminder
Numb
Pain. It was the only thing going throw my mind at the moment, pain, cold, and endless fear. The leafs were itching at my bruised irritated skin, and I nearly cried out in pain as I clutch my naked legs to my chest.
I sat their, cold and drained as the sun slowly went down in the sky, the sky was a pinkish pale now, I swore it was dawn when I left today for my little hike. Stupid stupid little me.
I breathed in a ragged breath, and breathed out slowly, I didn't bother to scream anymore. I did enough of that when he was still… in me.
My throat felt like it was on fire. And it hurt to swallow.
My eyes were tired, I didn't want to close them, because if I did I would see him. His face was forever engraved in my memory no. cruel, harsh , terrifying…. And unbelievingly beautiful.
It had been my fault, I was the one who decided to go out by my self, I could have called Jake or someone. I was the one who came when he called me. I was the one to ignore every single stranger Danger rule that had been drilled into my head since I was 5 years old.
I had been studying a really beautiful flower when I first heard him, his voice sounding just so… inciting and beautiful. When I turned around, it was like I wasn't in control of my body.
He stood their shirtless, exposing a well toned chest and barefoot, his skin was extremely pale, even when compared to my own. His blond hair was down up in a low ponytail and his beautiful face had been focused on my intently.
But it was his eye that had my attention, their were red, A bright bloodily red. And livid and wild.
The next thing I new he was right in front of my, ripping my cloths off and throwing my in the ground. I felt so much pain, it hurt so bad I begged and begged for him to stop but he didn't, He grabbed my hair roughly and growled at my. "James, My name is James. And you better remember that!" he spat out roughly. Hues body had been hard, and extremely cold.
His tough grips on y body left large purple bruises
When he was finally done, he look at me with sick happiness in his eyes and left with me with a few words. "goodbye babe, we will meet again." them he was gone.
Now here I was shaking like a leaf and crying non-stop, it felt like I had been out here for hours and I was waiting,
Either for death, or for Charlie to find me. Whichever one came faster, I was fine with either.
I wrapped my arms around my legs tighter, and I finally let my eyes close. I figured either I would wake up in a hospital, or I wouldn't wake up at all. Either was I was fine.
Because I felt numb.
I welcomed the dark cold abyss of my mind with my arms wide open.
"It's a boy!" Renée's teary voice said with glee! Her eyes were wide and happy, and streaked with tears. I looked up at her, tears in my own eyes, but not from joy, from pain and fear.
It hurt! Worse then anything, it was like something was being ripped out of you! I would never ever have another child for as long as I lived. Renee held the little baby in her arms, as she sat down at the edge of my bed.
"do you want to hold him?" she asked quietly, and I shook my head slowly and closed my eyes. What if you looked like James, what if he had his red eyes. What if you had that smirk.
I never told Renée that the man who raped my wasn't human, I knew he wasn't normal. The red eyes and cold skin were not human like traits.
All Renée knew is that I had been raped and I gave her as little detail as possible, I didn't even give her or Charlie his name. And now here I was, a brand new 15 year old mother.
To something that I wasn't even sure was Human.
"Bella." Renée's voice was quiet yet serious. "Bella open you eyes, and look at your son." I shook my head again and I felt tears slip out of my eyes. I trembled under the thick blanket.
"Bella, No matter what, He is your son. Your blood, the baby you carried for 9 months. Open your eyes."
"Mom…" I sobbed out, I was scared. I was too young to be a mother, and what if he looked like James. What if I hated my own baby.
"please Bella.." she nearly begged out, grasping my shoulder tightly. I took a huge breath and turned my head back in her direction.
When I opened my eyes i was met with two pairs of baby blue eyes. One was my mother Renée's and the other belonged to my baby. He was staring at me. His face was pale, the same as mine. And his had a small look of golden brown hair.
"Oh" I let out a little gasp. His eyes weren't red, they were beautiful and filled with innocence and curiosity.
"Bella, would you like to hold him, now?" Renee asked again, I looked up to see her beaming proudly at me and a nodded. Propping myself up against my pillow.
The second he was in my arms I was filled with a sense of love so strong, It nearly took my breath away. At that moment, I didn't think about James, or forks or red eyes and cold skin. My thought were centered around my son.
We locked eyes, my brown against his blue. I stroked the skin of his cheek gently, It was warm and soft. His tiny hand gripped my index finger with surprising strength. He let out a little baby gurgle a I could gentle at him. I was in love already with my son.
"What are you going to name him." Renee, asked, I was almost angry with her for breaking up my bonding time. I shrugged, still not taking my eyes off him.
"I was thinking about some names. I decided on Gabriel." I said quietly, playing with his finger's. "Gabriel Renlee Swan, Renlee's the best mix of you and dad's name I could come up with.' I said sheepishly. Feeling Renee's laughter slight shake the bed.
"Little Gabe. How prefect." she could, stroking his soft hair. I smiled up at her.
Yes it was perfect and so was he, but then a cold shiver went up my spine. And I heard a harsh whisper in my head.
"We will meet again."
Hi, Krystal hear and I just typed this up in one hour so next chapter will be much longer, I will continue if you want, also there is a picture of Gabe on my profile, Check it out.
Also Who should Bella be paired with.
Jasper
Emmett
Edward
Jacob
James
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