*Maybe one day*
# Chapter I
Its funny sometimes when you are so close to someone one second and the next you feel like you have no idea who they are. It feels like you've been betrayed and lied to. It feels like shit.
Or when you barely know someone and then something happens and boom! They're your best friend. That also feels a bit odd but it feels like a gap has been filled in your life. A gap that couldn't have been filled by anyone else.
Now imagine if you felt those two feelings for the same person in a matter of months. It feels confusing and slightly odd. You've just gone back and forward with feelings for this person and now you dont know what to think.
In case you havent guessed yet, im talking about me. And believe it or not, these feelings happened to me and my sister. I have never really been close to my sister and I take full responsibility for that, and even though that doesn't matter now, i still feel like it does.
You see, you have most likely heard about my story already. Well part of it, anyway. I am the amazing queen who froze her entire dominion. Yes, i am the emotionally unstable nutjob who almost killed her entire kingdom.
Now, i fully know you have most likely heard my story in one form or another so i wont reiterate it. For those who dont know, i was a confusing child who had ice magic and as a result my parents had no idea how to deal with me (I mean, who would right?) and so they hid me from the world and tried to force me to conceal my "gift", as some would call it.
This also made me hide from my sister whom i had almost killed by shooting her in the head with ice (not entirely my fault, she wouldn't slow down). So i hid away in my room until the day of my coronation. Long story short, i run away, almost kill my sister (yes, again) and freeze my kingdom almost killing them all too (i know, i know, im not proud of that either) all while a maniac tries to steal my throne.
Baisically, i did not have a very good day.
But on the bright side, i regained my friendship with my sister, Anna, and my whole kingdom forgave me and accepted me in the blink of an eye. Im not gonna lie, it felt good. By the way, that is where that good, gap filling feeling comes along as well as the timer for a few months. Cause it got slightly crazy.
Me and Anna got along really well and my life felt whole again. I no longer felt the need to hide and i could express myself when i pleased. It felt great.
As an apology to the kingdom for what id done, i extended the coronation party for another week. The celebrations were excellent and joyus. Anna and i loved it. We were so happy.
But it didnt last. Anna got sick. Shed happily married Kristoff a few months after my coronation and now she was deathly ill. What was worse, is that we didnt know how long she had.
I spent all the time i could with her but i had a kingdom to run too so, much to my disappointment i couldn't be there all the time. My health depleated and i stopped caring about my welfare, and because of it, i then got sick too.
Somehow, there was something in me that wouldnt let me give up. I didnt know if it was my magic keeping me alive or if i just kept fighting without knowing it, but one day i just got back up. I ran all the way to the end of the hall where i heard screams and shouting.
My long light blue nightie and dark blue silk dressing gown flew behind me as I bolted down the corridor. My white hair started to unwind from it's plait so now I was running with my wavy hair now following closely behind me. I barged inside the room to see Anna lying on the table, giving birth.
Nobody told me that my sister was pregnant so i flipped. I screamed in the doorway and then every head in the room turned to me. They all had the same expression. Astounded to see me and looked like they'd seen the dead rise. I ended up getting pushed back out the room by Kristoff.
Once outside the room, I paced back and forth angrily waiting for him to say something but i couldnt take it any longer.
"What did i just see!? Why is my baby sister giving birth!? More importantly, why dont i know!?" I continued to pace backwards and forwards with my arms folded.
"We didnt know either until last night when her water broke" Kristoff said in a small voice, as he stared at me shockingly. He looked like he'd just seen a ghost.
"Why did nobody tell me? My sister is in labour and i had no idea!" I stopped and looked him in the face. He avoided my eyes. "There's something you aren't telling me, Kristoff." I said, softer this time but still stern.
"We-" He hesitated, "We thought you were dead, Elsa. Your heart stopped beating two days ago. We tried to revive you best we could but you turned ice cold- and colder than usual. We couldn't tell you. Right now, you shouldn't be walking down this hallway."
I froze. I almost collapsed. Luckily, Kristoff saw me swaying and jumped forward just in time before i fell. I had to sit down but there were no seats so he just helped me slowly down to the floor. He held me on the floor comfortingly while making sure i wouldnt faint.
I was dead? I was dead. My heart stopped. That's what he said. I felt faint, I couldn't think properly and I was sure I was going to throw up. My sister was giving birth and I was dead. everyone thought I was dead. I understood now where they are all shocked to see me.
"Dead?" i said shakily while my voice quivered.
"Yeah. Dead. We dont know what happened. You got really sick, almost overnight and then your heart just stopped, like you'd given up. I swear, these few days have been hell."
I still found it hard to talk but i started to regain my balance so i stood up cautiously. Kristoff helped me up slowly and when i stood up fully he let me go, he didn't move too far away though in case i almost fell again.
"I- I need to see her."i said as I started to move towards the door again.
"No!" Kristoff put his arms across my stomach and my chest to stop me, but I was determined to see her and support her. So, i put my icy cold hands on his face gently and when he retracted his arms, i bolted for the door.
Once inside, i rushed to Anna's side and wrapped my hands around hers. She looked at me with a huge smile spread across her face but it slowly disappeared as she continued breathing heavily and pushing in a routinely fashion.
"It's okay Anna, Im here. Ill always be here. Always." I whispered to her as she continued to breathe steadily.
All of a sudden, we heard a small noise coming from the end of the bed. A small crying noise. The Doctor smiled and held up the newborn baby proudly.
"It's a girl. Congratulations, Princess. What shall you name her?" The doctor asked as he wrapped the newborn babe in a towel. He walked over to Anna's other side and placed her gently in her arms.
"Danielle. Her name is Danielle." Anna said as she smiled the biggest smile I'd ever seen. Her breathing started to regulate. She smiled as she gazed into her baby's hazel coloured eyes. The baby stopped crying for a few minutes to stare back happily into her mother's blue eyes.
Anna's breathing then started to speed up. Her heart monitor went crazy. I grabbed Danielle out of her arms right before her arms went limp. They fell off the table. Kristoff ran into the room and pushed me out of the way as he held her hand.
I started to tear up. One of the nurses ushed me out of the room and no matter how hard i tried, she insisted that i move. I tried to reason with her as she backed me out of the room but it was no use. I looked over at Anna's now still body. Her heart monitor started to regulate as doors were shut in my face.
I stood out in the hallway, not knowing what to do next. I fell to my knees, clutching Danielle close to my chest as if she were the only one keeping me alive. Tears were falling down my face in steady streams though no sound came out. My hair fell around my face as I sobbed in the middle of the hall.
I looked up slowly at the closed door in front of me. I strained to hear what was happening in the now very quiet room. I panicked by how deathly quiet it was.
With tears still falling down my face, I placed my cold hand on the floor in front of me. Ice started to make its way towards the door. It was beautiful. Danielle watched mesmerised as the ice travelled under the door where I made a small snowman who let me see inside the room.
I couldn't hear any better but I saw Anna lying motionless on the table where I left her. Her heart monitor moved at a steady pace which told me she was in a coma. Tears fell ever harder as I saw Kristoff sat next to her with his head in his hands. The doctor and nurses were moving slowly around the room, cleaning up quietly.
I came out of the confusing state somehow and cradled my niece in both my arms. I stroked her black hair as the tears fell onto her small round face. She was growing distressed by how quiet it was so I used my magic and made it snow around her. She giggled as the snowflakes landed on her face. I smiled as she laughed.
The door then opened and Kristoff came sliding into the hallway. He looked tired and heartbroken. I could tell by his face that he'd been crying too. He saw me playing with Danielle and smiled weakly. He then saw my distraught face and smiled sympathetically. I got up slowly and moved towards him. We hugged each other tightly as we sobbed together.
"She - she's in a coma now, b - but the Doctor says she's stable." His voice was weak and croaky through his sobbs. I nodded and then handed him Danielle. He cradled her lovingly as if she was the only thing that was left of Anna.
"Anna named her Danielle." I said weakly.
Kristoff smiled at hearing her name. He mouthed the name a couple of times then kissed her lightly on the forehead, but something made him retract quickly. He looked at me with shock. I was confused.
"What's wrong?" I croaked. I looked at him with sad, confused eyes as he tried to form his words through gasps.
"She - she's hot. Like she's burning up." Tears started to form in his eyes. I could see that he thought he would lose her too. I put my hand on his shoulder.
"Breathe, okay? You aren't going to lose her and we haven't lost Anna either. She's in a coma, that's all. People come out of coma's." I tried to be strong for him but I was just as broken as he was, so my voice quivered a couple times.
I felt Danielle's head with my other hand. She didn't feel hot to me. Then again, everybody felt cold to me thanks to my icy temperature. I met his hopeful eyes with an unsure expression.
"Kristoff, my magic is stopping me from feeling her temperature. She just feels cold to me, like everyone does. I'm sorry." I looked at him apologetically. He smiled weakly.
"That's okay, you can't help it." He looked behind himself at the closed door. "Let's see he doctor? He'll be able to tell us if anything is wrong." I nodded in agreement, though slightly sceptical.
I didn't trust this doctor now. I know he did everything in his power to save Anna but I felt uneasy. We walked inside the room slowly. Kristoff made his way to the doctor who was finishing packing up while I made my way to Anna's unconscious side.
She was so beautiful. Her strawberry blonde hair was in its usual two plaited style. One was on her shoulder while she lay on the other. I gently placed the other one back on her shoulder to match. She had no makeup on but her face still looked flawless.
She wore her favourite dark pink maxi nightie and her dark green silk dressing gown was hanging off the table. Both were now covered in her own blood. I held up her hand furthest from me and placed it on her stomach. Her other hand I gripped tightly and placed it close to my heart. A single tear fell down my face and landed on her neck.
I placed the hand I was holding on top of her other one, gave her a kiss on her forehead and backed away slowly. I walked to Kristoff's side who was talking to the doctor about the confusing baby in his arms.
"She seems fine, sir, she's in perfect health. She is quite warm but other than that, there's nothing out of the ordinary." The Doctor handed back the baby to Kristoff. Kristoff then passed her over to me. While Kristoff continued to talk to the doctor, I turned around and headed to the door.
"Hey Kristoff? I'm just going to get her cleaned up." I said without turning around as I made my way out of the room.
I walked down the hallway and made my way to the room Anna and I shared as kids. Danielle played with my hair as I walked into the room I hadn't been in for years. I stopped in the doorway and looked around the half empty room.
It was still clean, much to my surprise. The huge window overlooked the fjord and beyond, where I could see all the way to the mountains. I looked in admiration as I spotted my ice castle that I'd completely forgotten about. It was only just visible but it gleamed in the evening sun.
I turned my attention to the room before me. All of Anna's things were there. She'd moved to another room in the castle long before my coronation and so I recognised everything. I ran my fingers over her chest drawers and sat down on the bed I was so familiar with. Her pink bedsheets had faded in colour since the last time I saw them, but they were still fairly bright.
I placed Danielle down next to me gently then made my way across the room where my bed used to be. I ran my fingers over the imaginary bed sheets that still felt they were there. I sighed a deep sigh as I made my way back to the giggling baby on Anna's bed.
She gurgled as I picked her up and sat down with her in my arms. As I looked at her intently, she started to become distressed. In a matter of mere seconds she was kicking and screaming in my arms. She cried heavily as I tried to figure out what was wrong.
"What do you need? I'm not good at this!" I asked the loud baby in my arms.
She then became so hot that I was starting to feel it. I used as much of my magic to cool her down but the ice melted as soon as it hit her face. The water droplets only existed for mere milliseconds and they sizzled and steamed away.
I jumped up, trying to keep her distracted as I ran out of the room and down to the kitchens. Her little fists waved around in unison. She then pointed at the banister and it exploded in flames. I used one of my hands and shot as much ice as I could at the now flaming banister.
With the flames out and the stairs covered in ice, I rushed down to the kitchen where most of the staff were. They all jumped up and curtsied at my presance without thinking or seeing the screaming baby in my arms.
"Somebody get me a bottle of milk, now!" I ordered as soon as they came into view. They ran around and soon got me what I came for. I shoved it in Danielle's mouth who then immediately cooled down. She stopped fighting as she sucked on the bottle happily. I hugged as I sat down on the nearest chair.
"What happened to her m'lady?" One of the maids asked with clear concern. I took a few deep breaths before I answered her.
"I have no idea."