Chapter 1: Self-Esteem

A/N: Just wanted to let you all know, this is a dark chapter, and a noncon fanfic. Don't read this if you get easily triggered and don't like a bit of dark Naruto. I'm not sure how well i'll do with this story, since this is my first fanfiction that i'm currently working on sooo.. Meep.

Warnings: As mentioned above, a bit of ooc.

Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto and Hinata or anything that is associated with the show.

1: Self Esteem

Childhood Past

Before Naruto left to fight off in the chunin exams, he turned back and showed Hinata his true colors towards her. "Hinata, i kinda thought you were...um. Gloomy, timid, always terrified, and basically completely weird." The words will forever be painted on Hinata's mind along with the sound of his voice spoken so harsh, and no emotion attached to them. All Hinata could respond was a hesitant "O-oh.." How can she explain to him how much of a fan she has looked up to him and always thought so positive of his goal to become Hokage. He left walking away with not wanting anything else from hearing what she has to say.

But, to her no matter what.. Her love for him will always be so immense, there's no cure or replacement for it..

Present

Years have passed and Naruto finally comes back from training with Jiraiya-sensei. Everyone goes to greet him and Hinata stays hidden behind the wall from saving the embarrassment and how shameful she is to meet Naruto, remembering the same phrase he said to her during their childhood in the past. Naruto, forgetting he ever said that to her, somehow managed to sense her nearby and sprinted towards her. "Hey Hina-" He stopped his tracks before her and paused a moment to take a nice glance at her. Her hair grew longer, her body has met the mature figure, and those breasts that were in perfect shape behind the sweater she wore were just only left for his imagination, and her thick thighs were just enough to make him go agape.

Before he was about to drool all over her, Hinata responded back to him "Hi N-naruto.." Sensing she's being analyzed by Naruto, she quickly tried to snap him out of his daze. Naruto started to feel himself grow hard, but managed to control himself. Shikamaru luckily came to the rescue and came to greet him. "Long time no see, I thought you'd erase us from your memories by now." "Hey Shikamaru, and no way i could i would forget any of you from the village. Especially, my favorite restaurant, Ramen Icharaku." Shikamaru then had a great idea that crossed his mind to celebrate the return of Naruto. "Speaking of ramen, how about i treat you to eat and everyone else, how about that?" "Really? Wow, that's great Shikamaru! Thank you."

They all reported to Ramen Icharaku, including Hinata. His gaze didn't seem to part from her and constantly had to took another good look at her. Hinata was minding her own business until she heard Shikamaru say, "Let's all take this to my place and continue the party onwards for Naruto!" He declared as if it was mandatory for everyone to accept. Hinata didn't mind as she was enjoying being here celebrating Naruto's arrival from all that training.

A/N: I warned you, so beware of this chapter if you know what's good for you.

Everyone headed over to Shikamaru's place and alcoholic beverages seem to be passed around, chips were being thrown to each here and there, games were being played by Shino, Choji, Ino, and Sakura. Hinata took a look at Naruto and noticed he was drinking some sort of sake that Shikamaru introduced to him and could tell Naruto is not a heavy drinker. Time passed by and one by one everyone started to leave. Half the members were still there and ready to keep the night alive. Hinata decided to go to the restroom before saying her goodbyes to everyone at the party.

What Hinata failed to do was look back at her surroundings one more time before that one cruel statement Naruto told her, kept in her low self-esteem files, will be replaced by another ruthless action Naruto will do next. With such a sober look on his face, you'd think he's just some drunken guy who is stumbling to go to the bathroom but in reality, he knew what he was doing. And, his goal for today is to make Hinata his. He knew Hinata is a nice person and knew that she'd do the right thing. Stay quiet.

After she finished her business in the restroom, she resumed washing her hands. Oblivious that Naruto somehow managed to get in without uttering a sound, and that's when she heard someone's presence was there. Click. The sound of the door's lock. Before she could spun around, she felt that person's figure right behind her and she saw Naruto in the reflection of the mirror. Her mouth held shut by Naruto's rough, right hand and his left wrapped tightly around her waist. He whispered so menacingly on her ear, "Shh-shh, stay quiet." She tried to talk him out of hit by how can she if her voice is cut off by his hand. A few minutes of Hinata trying to fight him off and she started to stop herself, knowing it was useless. If she could just get him to take his hand off of her lips, she can talk him out of this and say that he's drunk and doesn't know what he's doing.

Naruto started to use his right hand lower it down from her, but his left still held tightly around her waist. Hinata tried to stop him from doing the wrong mistake and could only hear the sound of him unzipping his pants and pulling them down towards his ankles. "N-naruto, please! This is w-wrong, you're not y-yourself right now.." She used her hands to restrain Naruto from pulling down her pants and undergarment, which ultimately lead to Naruto restraining her wrists with his right hand and causing her to be bent over the sink then replace his left hand from her waist to her mouth. Forget literature and Jiraya-sensei's novels that gave him wet dreams.

Reality was all the more different.

Hinata couldn't utter a sound from her mouth anymore, knowing that the music was only getting louder outside and her voice would be nothing more than screaming to a wall. Naruto let go of her mouth and moved his lips down her throat and stopped at the crook of her neck, sucking on her light skin only to leave her a mark she'll never forget of that night. He pulled down her pants and undies roughly, gliding his cock back and forth her wet folds in between her legs, making sure she produced the right amount of wetness for him to slide through easily.

Hinata could only feel guilt all over her and regret from ever going to a party she knew wasn't going to end well with alcohol being around. Somehow managing to get himself inside her was the best paradise he has ever felt. So tight. But before he could thrust himself inside, he grabbed onto both Hinata's wrists and pinning each one down to each side of the sink.

As soon as he was comfortable enough to hold on to something and push himself in, he thrusted himself inside her ignoring her pained grunt. He prevented himself from going in any further and patiently waited for her to accomadate his girth size. Her teeth grinded and all she could do was clench her fists tightly, her nails digging to the palm of her hand, and grunt to every thrust he then brought back to her. "Ug-ugh.." All she could feel was her insides being pierced by a sharp, thick rod followed by the harsh moans he was releasing with every thrust.

He managed to bend over and mumbled into her ear teasingly, "D-do you want me to stop now?" Honestly, her head told her yes for him to stop, but her emotional state and her heart for him still yearned to be one with him. She shook her head. "Good girl." After a few more thrusts he gave to her, he could tell that she would scarecely move now. Knowing this, his hands would slide down her arms and slipped his hands through her jacket, moving his hands behind her bra and cupping her volumptous breasts. Trying his damn hardest to make her moan or have her drowning in his pleasure assults, he squeezed her breasts and massaged them. Gosh, if it weren't for her top covering them, he'd suck on them all night long.

Other men may look at with her lust and believe she was just some innocent, pure Hyuga but her innocence belonged to him only. She was entirely his, comparing every future boyfriend or husband encounters to her first with him. Or better yet, he'll never let anyone have her. In his drunken state, he sadistically thought of impregnating her so no other man could ever take what is his. Remembering the way his hands course through her body and knowing that, a half jinchuriki male, will be the only one to truly pleasure her.

As soon as the pain began to wash away, she felt an ounce of pleasure but not enough to stop the aching in between her legs that is swelling through her body and still felt Naruto being pushing her forward. He stopped for a moment, not wanting to release himself inside her just yet. He spun her around with his length still inside her and picked up her legs, resulting her to fully leave her undergarments on the floor and felt her legs being wrapped around Naruto's body. Hinata squirmed with excitement. With nothing else to balance her upper body, she wrapped her arms around his neck.

She felt her back land against the restroom's door and couldn't tell what emotion was coursing through Naruto's facial exppression but the smell of alcohol still lingered in his mouth. He tugged on her top and she could only respond by lifting her hands up in the air. He pulled her shirt off in no time and began to admire her body, while his eyes started to lurk down on her stomach. How he longed to see a child forming on her stomach. How his child would grow inside her.

He pulled her closer and nipped on her right breast, while his left hand would grope at her left breast and he began to thrust himself back inside her as she wrapped her arms around his neck. Her nails dugged at his back, as she felt her back painfully hit against the door's frame, withstanding the pain that she was going through. He tilted himself a bit forward to have himself dive deeper inside, feeling her vaginal walls close tightly around him which made it harder for him to stop himself from thrusting himself a few more times inside her; while letting letting his lips fall into her collerbone, nipping itand leaving another mark.

He then grabbed ahold of her buttom, finally thrusting a bit more rougher and digging his own fingers against her pale skin. As he was about to climax, he spread her legs a bit further apart and let her legs hang onto each side of his elbows while letting out a moan.."I-I am al-almost t-there.." He was going in balls deep, before finally filling her with his seed..

His sweet Hinata. No other man will be able to handle her the way he just did.

As soon as Hinata felt him come to an end, she could only stay still. Naruto started to feel remorse coursing through his body a bit, just looking at her from his eyes. He moved her bangs to the side and sended butterfly kissed towards her forehead, mumbling "I'm sorry, Hinata." From the distraction and his now sober state, he didn't have time to stop Hinata from slapping him across his cheek. It was forcefull enough to turn his head in shock and that's when she was able to release herself from his grip on her hips and put on her clothes as quickly as possible and with aching inner thighs, she opened the door and left him.

He began to also put his clothes on and start walking back to the party that was going on and couldn't even think anymore with a throbbing headache and a painful cheek. If this was some sort of dream he was stuck on, he never wanted it to end. With a 16 year old body and a selfish mind, he didn't know the difference between reality vs. the nightmares he can cause when he's drunk.

Hinata was left with a tired body and aching legs as she still managed to pull herself together and return to her home, walking. Every step she took and every mile she had gone walking was eating up at her consiousness. "A hyuga like yourself will not survive in the world of konoha," her father's words rang in her head. Her head was throbbing as she wiped her tears awake from the dehydration she was feeling, but the red traces that surrounded her eyes still lingered, as evidence of disappointment. She unlocked the door to the Hyuga compound, the lights resting, and was left with the dark welcoming her.

She walked down the hallway, not caring who she woke up as long as someone noticed her being. The wooden floor slightly creaked as she dragged her feet to her room. All she wanted to do was let sleep overcome her and lay on the ground,vletting fatigue take over her body and let her drown in a pool of her own blood.. How can she prove to Neji that she would change in the course of time and people like her can be someone who has the potential to fly on her own. Now, that Naruto has changed her perspective in life..

It feels like they have been cut off by a death's scythe.

Although she didn't want Naruto to have taken her by force, but to take her out of pure love, she still knew she had to forget about him and not say anything that happened between her because of how everyone would react. She thought that everyone would go against her and not believe a word she'll say about Naruto being cruel and he forced himself on her. But, she wouldn't let anything get in the way of him becoming the hokage.. Since she now holds strong intimate feelings towards him, she will always behold strong attatchments towards the young male since they have become one together.

No matter how hard she may try, the only way for her to avenge herself was to have Naruto apologize one more time to her. That sober apology wasn't enough for her to forgive him.

Even if she didn't get it from him one more time, she would still put his joy above everything else she cared more than anything.