Hello everyone! So this is my first fanfic and I have had these wild ideas on my mind for a while so I needed to try to put them on "paper". Please don't judge on the first chapter, I really hope you guys like this story and please leave reviews and suggestions I will really appreciate it. I will try to update often, whenever I can ... Hope you enjoy ! :)

DISCLAIMER: I don't own any of the characters, everything belongs to E. L. James.

Chapter 1

Christian's POV

"Stop it! You know you can't touch me, I don't like to be touched …"When people touch me I start to get afraid, it reminds me of that man than mommy used to bring home, he was mean and touched me … I want my mommy… she was cold I tried to warm her up … some people with blue clothes took me way from her and brought me here… to this house full of kids like me, but they let themselves be touched… I can't do that it hurts really bad … and know this kid is trying to touch me I try to run away but he doesn't let me … he grabs my arm and I feel the pain…

"I told you to stop touching me!" I'm scared I want my mommy …

"Hey! I'm sorry I didn't want to hurt you, I just wanted to play trains with you … what is your name?" The kid who tried to grab me started to talk I don't want to play with him I want my mommy …

"Do you know your name?" He asked me my name … I think I know… mommy called me Christian sometimes Chris …

"My name is Christian …" I tell him my name because I'm afraid he will hurt me if I don't …

"Hi Christian! I'm Gideon …" I don't know why he is telling me his name …

"So do you want to play with trains?" I don't want to, I know he will hurt me.

"I want to be your friend, do you want to be my friend?" I don't know what a friend is, but I say yes because I will get hurt if I say no …

"Ok so… let's go we can play with whatever you want it doesn't have to be trains…"

I wake up covered with sweat all over my body, although it wasn't I nightmare it was a memory when I was in a foster home … I look over my bedside table to see that is only 4:30 am… Shit when am I going to sleep through an entire night? … Yeah Grey you are so fucked up that you can't even sleep at night … But why in hell did I have to dream with this fucker … I hate him for what he did, for what he is … Gideon Kavanagh … I don't remember very well my time in my foster home but I remember one person the one who called himself my friend…

I get up from bed and call Taylor for our morning run, I know it's very early but I pay the fucker enough so … he will do as I say …

We ran for miles and finally I think that I can start my day as usual. I take a quick shower, shave and put my Armani suit and I'm ready to rule the universe as always …

I get to GEH at 7:30 am, usually I don't arrive so early but the company is in the middle of a huge acquisition and I need to prepare for a meeting … Andrea, my assistant isn't even here yet but will soon … she knows how I work and how I like things and that's why I pay her very damn well, for I matter of fact I pay everyone who works for me very damn well that's why it annoys me when people don't do things as they should … which reminds that I need a new submissive, because the last one didn't go so well … I mean it did at first but then she tried to touch me and hell broke loose, not to mention that I sent her on her way with a very sore pussy and a very sore behind … my dick decides to awake at the thought. Shit I need to find a submissive as soon as possible or … My thoughts are broken with a knock on my door.

"Sir, I have your coffee and perhaps would be a good time to discuss your schedule for today" Andrea enters my office with my expresso and her iPad.

"Yes Andrea, lest go over today's schedule please … "

"You have a meeting with PR at 8:30 am, the meeting about the new acquisition takes place at 9:00 am then at 12 you have a lunch meeting with your mother …" Shit today isn't really the day to meet my mother I am in a bad mood and I don't want to release all this stress on her, but I can't postpone this anymore and she deserves at least a lunch.

"Everything is fine Andrea you can go now"

"Sir" And like that she lives and my fucking phone rings … It's my mother … of course it is …

"Mom… what do I owe the pleasure of this phone call?"

"Christian I've been trying to call you for days, and I don't think that the only way to reach you should be by doing an appointment… that aside I just want to know if the lunch today still stands … I miss you, you haven't been around lately and the coping together gala is this friday that is two days from now… you will come won't you ?"

"First, good morning to you mom and yes the lunch still stands today, about the gala I don't think if I will come this year, after all there are a few guests that I would like to avoid… unless you want a replay of last year's events"

"Christian Grey you listen to me, you are not the type of person that avoids an event just to avoid another person, that it isn't you and I won't let you be, you will come to the gala with Gideon Kavanagh present or absent ".

"Mom I am not avoiding him he is my rival or you are forgetting that part? I never avoid I rival, I just rather be working than confronting him, that by the way only hurts you and makes people uncomfortable "

"Christian you should go spent time with us, Mia, Elliot and your father we all miss your presence around here you shouldn't work that much, come to the gala, I heard that Mr. Kavanagh are bringing his sister this year and her friend perhaps he will be more focused on them than argue with you over some stupid subject ".

"Mom I will think about it, we will talk some more over lunch, now I have a meeting to prepare ."

"Alright my sweet boy I'll see you then." I am really not in the mood to punch Gideon's face again at the gala perhaps I could pretend that he isn't there for the most part of the night and then I will leave just before the fireworks as usual.

Ana POV

"Kate! There is a letter here for you, its from your brother …"

"Thanks Ana, must be the invitations that he got for us for the Coping Together Gala!"

Kate got us these invitations for this gala that I don't want to go… I mean Gideon got us invitations, I know Gideon since I started to hang out with Kate in the beginning of college, she was kind of my voluntary campus guide, she helped me around campus when I started college, she already knew WSU even though we started college at the same time.

Me and Kate really got along and soon she became my best friend… and only friend, there was this one time that we decided that would be a good idea to go to a bar and get some drinks just to have fun … but apparently she had more than some drinks and got really drunk, I wasn't able to get her in a taxi before she passed out in my arms, needless to say that I couldn't carry her so I had to call her brother who I had never met before, but he was really nice he helped me carry Kate to his car and then took us home, he was really pissed at Kate for being so careless but thanked me for helping her. I have to say he is cute… I mean he is sort of beautiful … gorgeous… I don't know but I am not interested in a relationship right now … if I am being fair I have never been in a relationship, but I don't think Gideon could be my first one, he is too mysterious.

He is also filthy rich and owns his own company called Kavanagh Industries. Kate parents adopted him when he was five, Kate told me a little about his childhood before her parents adopted him and its awful how birth parents can just abandon their baby in a dump without looking back, he was found during the night and was almost dead due to the cold, Gideon told me how he lived in the foster home until Kate's parents adopted him, and it wasn't pretty…

Also you could tell only by his features, while Kate has blonde hair and green eyes, Gideon has black hair and blue eyes and a bit of danger in them, in spite of all the suffer that he had to endure as a child he managed to get into Harvard and finish his business degree and now he has his own company, I am really proud of him and I love him as a brother, the three of us have done many things together, and he has helped me more than once I owe him very much as I owe Kate, she shares the apartment with me and doesn't accept rent which allows me to pay for my students loans, I don't feel good about it, but we had a fight over it and I don't look forward to do it again in a near future …

"Ana we have to get our outfits for the gala, we really need to look hot, you can probably find someone there to pop your cherry … this if you don't want my brother to do it… I know he has a thing for you or had I don't know anymore …"

"Kate stop it I don't like him that way he is like a brother to me… and I certainly won't get a guy there to just pop my cherry from day to night, I am not like that, I need to find the right person … "

"Ana, those charming princes in your stories don't exist you should know that, in real world there are guys who think with their dicks instead of their brains and you are a beautiful girl that makes a guy think with his dick … I am just telling you is great that you believe in true love and all that but that's a fairy tale …" I don't know why she doesn't believe in love, I do.

"Kate I know I am innocent but I am not that naïve, I know guys I talk with guys you know, I may be a major in English literature and my life be books, but I know how things work though…" Christ, Kate can be overwhelming sometimes but this subject makes me really pissed off at her, I am just taking it at my own pace it may be true that I am 22 years old and virgin but for god's sake it's my life and it's my vagina I do whatever I like with it even if it's nothing.

"Sorry, I am just saying that you need to live a little to experience things in life … nothing more, I am not saying that you must give your cherry to the first guy you meet, all I am saying is that you need to be a little less selective" Great now I am selective…

"Look Kate, it's my life, I appreciate your concern but I'll do it at my own pace… we just finished college, we just moved to Seattle and right know I would like to say that I just got a job but a don't, when I do then I I'll begin to think about a relationship"

"Ok change of subject, I have been thinking and I have the perfect dress for you, is red that makes a contrast with your skin color and has a neckline and cleavage just perfect for you, you will see… "

"Fine, but nothing outstanding and want to look the more discrete possible ! "

"Steele, you have a body to die for, show it a little … oh I almost forgot my brother wants you to call him he sent me a text because apparently your phone is turned off…"

"Ok thanks, I will give him a call later…"

"Do it know, you know he can be a bit impatient and a pain in the ass when people make him wait…"

"Ok, probably it won't take long".

I go upstairs to my room, grab my phone and dial his number …

"Ana, how are you, what are you up to?"

"Well, thank you for the invitation for the gala that I don't want to go, but putting that aside what did you want to talk about?"

"I was wondering if you would like to go to dinner tomorrow, you know to catch up …" He seems strange…

"What's happening you don't sound like you…"

"Well I have something to tell you, nothing major" Ok… weird.

"Fine, but nowhere fancy… you know that I just prefer a pizza or a small Italian restaurant…"

"Don't worry I was just thinking that maybe dinner could be at my apartment, we could ask for a pizza…"

"Fine I will warn Kate about the plans …"

"No, I was thinking that probably we could do dinner alone just the two of us…"

"Like a date?"

"Not like a date just two friends catching up, and we could celebrate I made a huge acquisition for my company "

"Fine I'll see you tomorrow then …"

"Great, I will pick you up at seven … okay with you?"

"Perfect…"

"Great I'll will see then …"

"See you" He hangs up and I just stare at my phone screen I don't know for how long but I must say that this was a very awkward conversation, and know I'm freaked because I'm going to have dinner with Gideon… chill Ana it's just two friends having a pizza, talking and that's it nothing more … The previous conversation with Kate comes to mind and I don't know what to do I don't know if he has feelings for me or not, but I don't have feelings for him he is like a brother to me what happens if he has it will ruin our friendship… But then a moment of clarity comes by and I realize that Gideon or anyone of his league could never have feelings for me because I have nothing to offer them… Gideon can have whatever woman by his side, a model, an actress another successful businesswoman, I am just Ana…

So first chapter is up. Let me know what you think, just to make sure... this is a Ana and Christian story with a bit of drama, Gideon Kavanagh is inspired by Gideon Cross, he will not be involved with Ana, Ana only wants him as a friend. He will have a hard time getting that. Elena will be in this story but not Jose. Kate and Ana are 22, Christian is 27 as in the books and Gideon is also 27.

Thank you for reading and I will start on the next chapter right away!

Bia xx