Disclaimer: Not mine, I'm just a fan writing fan fiction xp.
Note: This is just a one shot about Sirius' feeling about Remus, hope you like it!
Always
Sirius couldn't help but to glance at Remus from the corner of his eye. Whenever they walked around the castle in their group of four, Remus always gravitated to his right. Always, he was to his right.
That never changed, had been happening since they'd first met on the train, and Sirius couldn't help but smirk at the thought of that bright day.
James had been his first friend, but when he saw Remus, Sirius knew, he knew that he would always be next to him, always be by his side.
Remus never left him, he was a constant, Remus was his and only his.
Sirius looked carefully at Remus' features, the chin length brown hair, mysterious eyes, eyes that hid the pain he went through a few days of every month. Pain that would never stop, but oh how Sirius wanted it to. When Remus was at his worst, Sirius wished, oh how he wished that the pain could be transferred to his own body.
Remus shouldn't have to deal with it, he was the one person in their group that could and should be anything he wanted, his grades, his intelligence should be enough. It should, but people don't want someone that isn't completely human, if they knew, Remus would be chased from Hogwarts with wizard and witches crying out for his blood.
Why do they judge?
Remus didn't ask to be bitten, he was a child! How is the fault his? But they would judge him for it, so hidden his secret stayed, hopefully forever.
Then a thought hit Sirius, he would always be there for Remus. The resolution hit him hard, and he wished he dared enough to reach out to him and grasp Remus' hand in his own.
Even if Remus never knew, he would be there for him. Always be there for him, watching him was enough. Sirius didn't need to destroy their friendship by confessing these feeling, for surly that is what would happen. So, quiet, and watchful he would stay.
"Sirius, what are you thinking about so hard about? You found yourself a new crush, mate?" James' voice snapped Sirius out of his thoughts.
Sirius looked around, noticed all three pairs of eyes on him. Sirius smirked, it looked like a wolfs grin. "As a matter of fact, yes." His eyes strayed back to Remus who was shaking his head in disbelief.
"Who is it?" Peters' squeaky voice brought his gaze back to the other two.
"You'll find out, maybe." Sirius chuckled, his eyes going back to Remus. No matter how hard he had tried before to force his eyes to stop, it just wasn't possible. Sirius had learned long ago that his eyes would always seek to gaze upon Remus… Always.