Neon Genesis Evangelion
Disclaimer: Although this certain part of a fanfic is often repeated, it must still remain to be included. Well, it is important to know that this story of mine needed an original story to exist. The original story being the Neon Genesis Evangelion SERIES and MOVIES, of course. All that is obviously not owned by me, since a genius mind was needed for such a magnificent creation. This fic will try to live up to the show, by my hands. If it does not, I have failed. And although it is only logical you can't get close to what the SERIES have reached considering respect, you'll have found self-respect by creating something like this. Not more is needed..
A/N: Two point of views, Rejection and Regret a great roll in the fic, and I hope I can let the two terms fuse and call it Romance.
"….." This means speech, when someone says something to another, or in very weird, unlikely situations, like in Soaps, when someone talks to him or herself.
'…..' This means thoughts, you could fill an entire story with just thoughts.
A figure moved about in the darkness of the living room. It moved quite carefully, almost frightened, but at the same time, a little shakily. The silhouette seemed to have reached its destination as it stopped at a door. But it didn't seem sure of its case, as hesitation was evident in its movement. It remained there for about five minutes, blending with the darkness.
After those five minutes, another figure entered the darkness. Though taller and definitely older than the previous, this one didn't move with hesitation, nor with carefulness. Though the shakily part of this entity exceeded the previous' one greatly. This one figure didn't notice the other as it remained completely still, and passed it. It released a loud burp however…
After a small ten minutes, the second figure returned from the bathroom it entered and didn't notice the first figure this time either. Entering its own room once again, the first figure was left to itself once more. Hesitation replaced the fear of getting spotted. But the figure seemed to be hastily this time, as its hand moved toward the doorknob. And by the turn of it, and the slight sound it created, it entered the room, breathlessly.
The darkness in this room was even greater than in the previous one. Not just by appearance, but even more so by atmosphere. The figure stayed still in the room, adjusting to the darkness and trying to see what was present. After what seemed like two minutes to the person, it moved toward another person, who was lying in a bed. The sounds of soft music overwhelmed the sound of the snoring created by the figure. The one that entered the room loomed over the sleeping person on the bed.
Watch and Try to Learn
- By TokehGecko
'The Third Children….'
Asuka Langley Sohryu, stood there, above the person called Ikari Shinji, in the darkness that was his room. Asuka narrowed her eyes, trying to see Shinji's face, to pinpoint it. To her it seemed it was even darker around Shinji's face than in the entire room.
'Tonight I will see it.' She paused as she looked at the clock positioned left from the bed. 'I'll definitely see it… Plenty of time left..'
Asuka remained completely silent, never moving an inch away. Her face was very close to Shinji's face as she tried to see something… there.
'Shinji…. Why… is it, that I don't understand you? You seem weak, defenceless and sometimes even utterly pathetic. You deserve your nickname 'Spineless Idiot', the nickname I myself have created. But…. that's not really what you are now, is it?'
Asuka groaned inwards as she distanced herself from Shinji's face and leaned against the wall with her back.
'All people…. I completely understand ALL people, well almost. I can read them, know how they will act in certain situations. You are one of few I don't understand, Third Child. But I will understand…. If not today, the day after…'
She went back to her previous position in the room, on her knees, to the side of the bed, close to the boy's face. As if she could read from the boy's facial expressions. If only she could see them in this black visage…
'If I turn the lights on, you'll wake up, won't you, Shinji? There is no other way then to give in and adjust to the darkness that surrounds the real you…. Man, that sounded deep…'
Asuka has done this ever since Shinji had saved her from the lava in the volcano. She saw that one expression, that one, he would never ever show in the presence of others. She wondered if she could see that look on his face again, to see if she liked that look. But it could only be viewed upon when he was totally alone. What better time than this? But Asuka found out that Shinji's room blocked light completely, and thus, she could not see it easily. And on top of that, she could not resort to light, because Shinji is a light sleeper, a single whisper could almost wake him up. And Shinji never fell asleep on the couch in the living room. Much to Asuka's displeasure.
'Damn it, why does it have to be this hard?'
Asuka recalled the first time she came in Shinji's room to spot 'The Look', and she refused to stay in the dark. So she put on the light in total silence, only to watch how Shinji jumped awake, luckily for her, she could run out of the room, after quickly opening and shutting the door. To her delight, Shinji still needed time to fully wake up. But, man, was she scared to get caught…
'Damn you Shinji, you'd think, someone with that thick of a skull, would be quite clueless to their surroundings. Another thing I don't understand from you.'
Asuka herself didn't understand why she went through all this trouble, just to see one singe expression from a boy she was sure she disliked. It was just because of the volcano-rescue thing. That look would always haunt her, because it was a look that was impossible to appear on a face of a person like Shinji. But it did, and it bothered her to no end that it did. The real problem however was that the mending from that look and Shinji's sad face….. was truly stunning…
'I don't understand you Shinji…. Why did you save me? Your EVA didn't have the right equipment, you could've died. Would you sacrifice yourself to save others in danger? Even if that person….. is me?' Asuka paused in deep thoughts 'You truly are an idiot then, Shinji. But… I could come to like that idiot…'
An hour went by, and Asuka was still trying to observe Shinji's features. A few light rays from the morning sun were beginning to shine inside. But that alone could only be seen underneath Shinji's sliding door. Even if it were a bright shiny day, it would still be pitch black inside Shinji's room.
'I hate… ..your room, Shinji.'
Asuka looked at the clock, and, yawned. She noticed the mistake and quickly put her hand before on her mouth.
'Thank god you sleep with those ear buds in your ears.'
Asuka rose from the ground and walked toward the exit. With one last glance and one last thought she left the room in utter silence.
'One day I'll find that look….. Idiot-Shinji… And I'll grasp it all forever in my memory. Instead of just a glimpse…'
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'Look at her…. How can she act like she has no problems in this world at all?'
Shinji was seated on the ground by the table, while Asuka was watching TV, three meters before him. He was watching the back of her head.
'I wonder…. what her childhood was like…'
All Shinji could remember from his own childhood was.. no parents, no love, no friends, no fun.. no.. anything. He can't even remember what his mother looked like. He couldn't remember what his father looked like, until he saw him when he first arrived in Tokyo-III.
'Asuka.. She never talks about her parents… But then again, neither do I. I don't know anything about Asuka. Only that she doesn't like me. I don't know anything about Rei either, I was even slapped by her once. And slapped I was by Asuka too.. I… They just don't like me…'
Shinji ate a bit of what he prepared for himself. Naturally, it was ramen. During his eating, he watched as Asuka watched a comedy show on TV. She laughed every once in awhile. Unlike Shinji, Asuka laughed loudly, with no shame whatsoever to the people around her.
'Of course, if you look like that, there's no need to be insecure…'
If one thing, Asuka was beautiful. Sure, she was also so damn aggressive, especially to him, but man, was she beautiful. She would occasionally and absentmindedly play with a few locks of her hair, while watching TV. Every hair on her head moved with her as she moved, it framed her face and her body perfectly. Shinji was no pervert, he just… appreciated beauty.
But Asuka's personality was a total letdown. There was no way Shinji could like someone that would constantly beat him up and insult him every second of every minute of every hour and so on and so on. Just the thought of spending an entire day alone with her, gave him the urge to stuff one of Misato's FULL beer cans in his left eye. But he wondered if that pain could even be compared to Asuka's wrath.
'Asuka really is unbeatable… but.. if only I could be more like her..'
Shinji watched Asuka from behind, as she was seated on the ground in front of the TV, and started thinking more about the auburn-haired girl
'I've never seen Asuka depressed actually.. Not really. Only when she can't have more training with her Eva, or when Kaji declines one of her date offers. But that's not real. It's more disappointment than sadness. She is much, much stronger than me. Is the fire that's burning in her eyes a fake? Or is it really the burning desire to fight? To win? Is she genuinely happy to fight in her Eva?'
"Shinji?" Asuka spoke, for the first time.
"Idiot!?" Asuka said, louder this second time.
Shinji was ripped away from his thoughts as Asuka called his name.
"What are you staring at me for, idiot?"
Shinji's eyes widened, he seemed to have lost eyesight during his thinking. "Ah, sorry, Asuka."
"Moron, make me something to eat."
"Uh.. Will do.."
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Big A/N, Sorry:
Well, what did you think? Not a lot of Romance here, huh? Ok, no Rejection or Regrets either, but that will come in the next chapter. I've read a few fics where Asuka rejects Shinji and vice versa because of their own past and their own situation. I'll be trying to insert a lot of understanding before a REAL confrontation between the two occurs. Of course, angst will be present, there is just no other way... for me, that is. I know this has been done before, but I'll try to make it as different from the others as I can.
Ok, I feel I have to tell you about something. It's about two fics of mine, one is the follow-up, of the other, actually. I released the follow-up on purpose to see what people thought of it without having read Payback Time. The follow-up being Dark Happiness. But, I'll be completely changing Dark Happiness of course, since it would only be boring for Payback Time's plot, if you already know what's going to happen. So, in other words, Dark Happiness, or that certain idea, wasn't too well received, so I'm gonna try and improve it and just give it my best shot. But, Thank Heavens, I already have an idea for a follow-up for Payback Time, a little different from Dark Happiness. Ending Payback Time won't be a problem, I've got the ideas all ready, the only thing left, are my fingers, and their will to cooperate with me considering typing.
But I do think I'll be updating on my homepage first from now on, since I'm really busy with it… well, it's not much to look at right now…not pretty, -_-', Oh well.
I'll put up the complete Forgive or Forget fic, with two different endings on here as soon as I can, as soon as I put those last (lot) senses beneath what I have already typed.
And To Start Over will be following the Seven Deadly Sins, which would be pretty interesting, especially with this next angel. An idea was rammed in my head thanks to Steve Vader, a, heh, a long time ago…^_^'
Oh, I'm gonna take Sunsets off FF.net, cause I just can't think ahead for that story. For the ones that read it: Asuka's husband would be someone who was, freakishly, a lot like Shinji.
Well, sorry for the inconvenience, Please review!! I would like to know what you thought about it.
Farewell,
TokehGecko