Disclaimer: I do not own Criminal Minds

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See the strange thing is, I never had these feelings when we were 'just' best friends, there was something niggling away at me but for the life of me I couldn't pinpoint it. Then the phone call that made me feel like my life was crumbling came, you had been shot, then something cracked, broke, disappeared and I knew I was and had been in love with you.

'Hey baby girl.' The ice breaker of our friendship, of our connection, two simple 4 letter words, who would have thought it eh? That those words would be a prominent fixture to our life. I see the way you smile, its your special name, no one else's, it would be a cardinal sin to use it on anyone else so I don't, you are my one and only baby girl and forever you will be.

I laugh when you laugh, when you crack a joke, or make a sexual or prime innuendo whether planned or on passing and spontaneous. I laugh when we both make fools of ourselves in the privacy of our place, behind closed doors. I laugh differently with you because it feels right.

I love you with all my heart that at times it truly hurts. I love you more each day that I can't imagine waking up with you back to being 'just' my best friend. It's now too incomprehensible. I love you so much that I enjoy talking about the future, about how our us will turn into our family. I see that future for once.

I hope that I never disappoint you in any way, shape or form. I hope to be the man that arouses happiness in you; I hope to be the man that makes you go gooey eyed forever more. I hope I get to share many a moments with you where we just laugh, joke, kiss, hug, soak up each other's presence and most importantly I hope you understand how much I love you.

I try my hardest to know everything. Second nature to me now is to keep you happy, make sure everything's ticking a long perfect in that mastermind of yours. I try to admire you, I try to allow my walls to crumble, to not block you out. I try to keep you happy, loved and wanted. But the thing is, I don't need to try because I just do them. There is no trying in our relationship.

I need you to know that before we got in depth with one another you doubted how you weren't my type. To be honest, those others aren't, you are, you're funny, witty, smart, beautiful and you know me. Those others didn't, they wanted me for my looks, you make me feel wanted for me, wanted for beyond the looks. I need you in my life to help me, no one else does that.

I fear losing you. I couldn't imagine my life without you, let alone a minute, heck even a second. The thought of you being gone is beyond understanding; it's a thing that will never happen. I fear that maybe one day you'll never love me, but I know you wouldn't do that, like you said, you've loved me from day one, that type of love doesn't just go. My biggest fear is losing everything we have, that one day I'll wake up and it will all be a dream.

I cry when you're hurt, when you're in pain, when you're unhappy, when you cry. I hate to see you cry, it pains me, I cry whenever the horrors are too much but you're always there to pick me up and brighten things for the better.

Now as I sit here, you cuddled into my side protectively, I know you do the same things, for you laugh, love, hope, try, hurt, need, fear and cry but together we combat most of them. Our little system for its easy.

I laugh, you laugh.

I love, you love.

I hope, you hope.

I try, you try.

I hurt, you hurt.

I need, you need.

I fear, you fear.

I cry, you cry.

We are no different, we are the same, me and you, we belong. For all in my list above are aimed to make your life complete, like you use your list to make me happy. We're the same baby girl.