Chapter one: Give it up

That had been a horrible case. Emily had had the last victim on the phone when she died, screaming and crying for her mom when the Unsub stabbed her to death. She was there when they found the body covered with blood and sperm under a bloody message saying "Look at what you've let me done". They caught him. But they only caught him, no suicide by cops, no fatal shooting, nothing. He was alive, and Minnesota doesn't have death penalty.

That wasn't fare. Katy Stewart was dead and he was alive. And Emily was going to feel like that was her fault, when really she couldn't have done anything. Nobody could.

"You're gonna be ok?"

Derek was standing in front of her, gently squeezing her arm. He had brought her back from the BAU, and insisted in walking her to her apartment. They were now both in the leaving room.

"Yes Morgan, thanks. You can go now." She gave him a sad smile.

"You know, I can stay if you want to talk about it."

"Derek I'm fine, just go home. Get some rest."

"It wasn't your fault Emi-"

"Stop. Please. I just want to go to bed and sleep."

She looked exhausted and if she didn't want him here, he wasn't going to impose himself, even if he was really concerned about her.

"Ok. I'll leave you then."

She walked him back to the door.

"Goodnight Derek."

"Goodnight." He hesitated and then kissed her on the cheek, she smiled back at him and he left. He would have liked to stay, to tell her he understood, and it was going to be fine, the guilt was going to go away. And especially that she could rely on him, that he was there for her, whatever happened. But it was Prentiss right. Not Garcia or even JJ that you could just hold in your arms when things go wrong. She wouldn't let him in as long as she felt weak.

The elevator bell rang and the doors slowly opened. He was going to enter when footsteps made him turn around. Emily was there, and in less than a second her arms were around his neck, and her lips on his. After an instant of surprise he broke the kiss. That wasn't right.

"Emily what are you doing?"

"Derek please just shut up." She kissed him again but he pushed her back.

"No! I'm not gonna let you do that. You're not thinking straight."

She paused, looking somewhere behind his shoulder, obviously lost in some thoughts. "I am." She finally said. She took a step forward and pressed herself against him. He took her in his arms and kissed her hair, softly rubbing her back. "I know what I'm doing Derek." She kissed his neck, "Could you please," she did it again but upper, "give up" now his jaw, "the hero act." and then the corner of his moth, "Just for tonight."

For God's sake he wanted her now. She turned him on, even if it was the first time he thought of her like that, even if he knew it wasn't the right thing to do.

She kissed him again, and this time he gave her back her kiss. He slid a hand in her hair, bringing her close with his other arm. He felt her tong trying to get into his mouth, and thought one last time of stopping everything.

"Let me in." she whispered against his lips. He deepened the kiss, tasting her lips and her tong, wanting her more and more. "Come here. My bedroom." She grabbed his hand and leaded him back to her apartment, right to her room. There he took over.

He laid her on the bed, kissing her all the way. She forced him to sat back up, removed his t-shirt, then kissed him hungrily while her hands where exploring his chest. He got rid of her shirt and pushed her back against the bed, liking his way down to her breast. He removed the sport bra she wore for work and started playing with her nipples. She was just so hot!

"Don't tease me Derek."

Without a warning she made him roll on the side and climbed on top of him. She undid his belt and opened his trousers. He helped her getting rid of the clothes but didn't let her naked him completely yet. He was still wearing his boxer when he removed her jeans and underwear. Socks and shoes were long gone and he made her lay under him once again, but this time they were completely naked.

She spread her legs around him, groaning when he bite her neck, but tried to push him back.

"What is it?" he asked.

"Roll over. I want be on top." He smiled and kissed her gently.

"No." He continued kissing her, sliding a hand between her legs to see if she was ready for him. She was responding to every single one of his moves but was still fighting for control.

"Emily give it up. You can relax, let me do it."

"No." She slid and hand down to his sex, making a wave of heat rush through his body. He felt her trying to push him again but he really couldn't wait any longer for her to relax, so suddenly he grabbed her by the waist and rolled over, bringing her on his laps. Now sitting below her he pulled her body back against his, biting and sucking her generous breast, getting harder and harder with her ass flirting with his cock.

"Happy?" he asked.

"Not bad. " He could hear the smile in her voice. "But…"

She lifted herself up, and guided him into her, groaning with pleasure when he penetrated her.

"Yes! That's better."

She started moving on top of him, rubbing her hard nipples against his chest. God she was good! She was so good he nearly lost his self-control and pushed her back under him to take her the way he wanted to. But he didn't allow himself to do so.

They soon found there tempo, Derek kissing, biting or sucking her, more or less lifting her with his hands on her ass while she was moving up and down, softly groaning in his hear. Soon she accelerated the rhythm, moving faster and faster on his laps, sticking her nails in his back. Emily came first, arching in his arms when the pleasure hit her. She took a couple of seconds to catch her breath, her spasms still stimulating his cock, and started moving again. He could have told her to take her time but he just couldn't think of anything else than her body moving back and forth around him. It didn't take her long to make him come too, deep and hard.

Derek felt back into the bed, bringing her with him. He pulled the blanket on top of them, holding her close so she could lay on him. He didn't have the time to completely calm down that she was already asleep.

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