How does it feel to fade away?
Well at first, I felt a huge draining weakness that spread through my body. Vision became blurry I started to lose sense of my body, even standing became difficult. It felt like I disconnected from my body.
And at the same time another feeling came- I started to feel warmth, it came outside of my body, I realized that feeling came from Sora, well not only from him, I could feel that feeling as it was my own…
My consciousness split into two: one of me felt the cold, progressing weakness that freeze from the inside, the other one - felt the opposite: growing warmth and waves of strength washed my body awaking it from long slumber.
Wait wasn't it his body? I guess it was, but then again it was mine too. After all we are the same, the same person - Sora, both of us.
In my weakening body i feel a relief, I finally understood what Namine said about being whole, I can no longer hate Sora, after all its stupid to hate yourself, but I still feel envious towards him. We are like two sides of the same coin- one of us will always face the light and other sleep in darkness, just rarely when the coin is balancing on its rib will we abele to interact with each other. Well I looking forward for that, but now it's your turn, my time is almost up…
"I am cold and darkness, you are warmth and light" I though, as both feelings reached its pick. And then…
The feeling of the two of me started to merge, my Roxas self started to disappear, and my consciousness started to fade, to fade in Sora's warmth light. Too bad I won't meet you in person, but I want to believe we will have the chance to meet…
The light warmth washed all remaining worries away…
I feel like lying on waves and gentle breeze blowing on me, lulling me into a sleep.
Hmmm maybe I should have called this last page on my Diary differently? Not how to fade away from existence, but how to become a whole existence.
Well I think you would call it this way…
Right, Sora?