The Blessed and the Broken
By: Liz B
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Broken
It's one moment, one second that just plays over and over in his
head. He doesn't know why this one moment's stuck in his head, but
maybe it's because of everything that happened. He just can't help
thinking it's stupid though. Really stupid. It didn't mean anything.
It was just a con. Them, married. God, it was so damned ridiculous.
First case too. The guy had seen through that in a heart beat. And
now, he really kinda wishes they had a chance to get better at the
act. A few weeks ago he got to see Eames and Goren in action and
there was this little pang of jealousy. They could have been that
good, if she had stayed. And that's the root of it all, isn't it? She
didn't stay.
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She wants to call.
Really, she does, but the longer she's in Washington, the more she
just looks at the phone and thinks about calling. She used to pick up
the phone. Her hand would hover the numbers and she'd almost call.
And then her fear would get the better of her and she'd hang up and
go think about something else while trying not to think about him.
She hates thinking about him because it makes her ache. It's a rich
sort of bitter sweet pain that she can't shake, even though there's
hundreds of miles between them. They didn't even do anything, but the
ache is there every time and it drives her further and further from
the phone.
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BlessedIt's
never really planned that they take the elevator up instead of down
to the garage. It's never really planned that there's a room open and
he's got the key. It's never really planned that she knows exactly
where the bed is in his hotel room, but it's done and they still
don't have a plan. The annual police special tactics convention just
happens to be in Washington this year. He just happens to be
perfectly willing to tag along with Wheeler to it. She just happens
to be a speaker on terrorism investigation. It's never really
planned, but just because it's not said, or not given a name doesn't
make it any less real or powerful. They don't have a plan for this,
and they can't talk about it either. He wants to reach for her again
and never let go, but she's in Washington and he's in New York and
things don't work that way. She wants to stay, but can't ask because,
well, he's not the type to like women spending the night. So they lie
there in silence, trying to rationalize it all so that it makes sense
and works into some sort of plan. And in the end, they don't plan, he
just slides his hand over and touches the back of her hand. She curls
her fingers around his and that's the plan.
