Author's Note:
1. Series of connected one shots. You can read every by itself but they are connected as well.
2.It is gift for all my friends on Aarin-Darky(DarkFaith), Elfie(CyberElf), Franito(Frano), Kadaj_Chan, Hatter(CuriosHatter). Hope you like it.
3.If not stated in text, the point of view is at bottom of page
Warnings: I don't know yet. Lots of angst, blood and forceful feelings.
Pain Redefined
-What would it take for things to be quiet?-
It hurts. It always had.
The thirst for his blood had subsided and was replaced with dull pain in his chest. Empty and deep. So helpless and dark. Like ashes of the burnt roses that wilted and died on his hands.
It was one sided, It always was.
That useless love that couldn't help him move from the spot he had stopped at. There was no escape from it. He was trapped. Like a fox behind circus's bars, placed to be pointed and looked at.
He could not get away.
He was cursed with this bloodstained love. He was cursed to remember brown eyes in daylight; red ones to hunt him at midnight. Pale hands, so cold, grasping his chin and tilting it to side. White fangs, piercing pain filled with pleasure.
There will be no escape.
Because he wants it. He craves it. There was nothing more in those red eyes- only hunger, only lust, And he gave in- accepted to become feast for him. To indulge his wishes and cravings and hunger and thirst.
He will not fight it. Not anymore. He's tired. And when his grey eyes become alive from pleasure- he will indulge it- the empty feeling. And when his eyes become dull from pain, he will get over it.
Like he always did.
And then he will return to the beginning of this endless emptiness, to savor it all over again.
There was no thirst for blood anymore.
Only death.
"For you, who never knew this feeling welling inside of me, I will forgive you.
Zero"