Hi this is a random little something I found on my laptop today and just thought I'd post. Enjoy. Please review
Princess Alexis
I Love you. Three little words that meant everything to me every time I said them but so little for him to hear them. I'd never felt so close to any one else before in my life, not my family, not my friends. No one. Until he came along. The time it took us to get to know each other and finally get together was all worth it. The fights that seem to occur more and more often are worth it for the good times that eventually come. The tears that I shed far too often when we fight over stupid things like not staying long enough at parties and not seeing his friends are worth it when the fights are in the past and the sheets are smoothed as though the creases were never there to begin with. I try to be a good girlfriend; I try to be exactly how he wants. He tells me to be me but when I'm me it starts fights. If I knew what he wanted from me I could do that, lessen the fights so there are more good, happy memories. He tells me I need to make more of an effort towards him. I can't. I don't think it's possible for me to try any harder to be perfect. To be the girl he so desperately wants me to be but just won't admit it. I worry about him all the time, every time he's not with me I worry. If I don't get a message when he finishes work, I worry. I worry about him every morning before I go back to sleep when he is on his way to work. He doesn't understand that he means the world to me and nothing could ever change that. I would give up everything for him, he just doesn't believe it. If he asked me to give up something, I would, just because it would make him happy. Because it'd be what he wanted and I'd be that little bit closer to the way he wants me. I can't sleep at night without him by my side, sleep is a long time coming when he is not with me, like tonight, sleep won't come for another hour or so, no matter how tired I am. I feel so safe and secure with him, just the thought of him being with me makes my spirits soar and puts my mind at ease. He just doesn't understand. Even though he tells me he loves me, he doesn't believe that I love him more. He doesn't understand that without him I am nothing. He may just be one person to every one else, but to me, he is my everything. I couldn't live without him. xxx