Crazy
By: Keiko Nakamoto
Disclaimer: I don't own Ranma 1/2.
Notes: Ever wonder what pushed Kodachi over the edge?
~
mad.
insane.
crazy.
sure.
they all describe me now.
but they didn't used to.
it's not my fault.
it's not brother's fault.
it's their fault.
father, ranma, akane, ryouga, shampoo, ukyou, mousse, everyone, the girls at gymnastics...
i only wanted to be friends...
father ruined me, the girls twisted me...
i only wanted friends.
potions, poisons, drugs.
i knew these things well.
but, my knowledge brought rejection from all the girls at my school.
rejection.
with rejection came madness.
i fought.
i fought because their rejection pushed me to madness.
my fighting, by and by, brought fear and respect.
but no friends.
i only wanted friends.
father thought something was wrong with me.
i never went to parties, i never had friends over.
he insulted me.
told me that every normal girl had friends.
hurt me emotionally.
abused me through words.
brother loved me.
brother protected me.
but he was my brother.
and he could never take the place of a friend.
a female friend.
someone to gossip with.
to share secrets with.
i wanted...
i wanted a friend.
at school, no friends.
but, i was feared.
and the girls' fear gave me power over them.
but i was filled with pain.
give power to pain and the result is insanity.
i was near that point when ranma and his friends arrived.
i wanted to be friends.
but, the only way i knew to get anyone to even come near me was to fight.
i had never paid attention to akane tendou.
but she was associated with this new group of people stranger than i.
so i initiated a fight with her.
and in the process learned of the thing that bound the group together.
ranma saotome.
the only thing i could use to get the girls to fight me.
to pretend to be a rival for the object of their affections.
so i entered the fight.
insanity.
pure insanity came upon me when i found that fighting got me nowhere.
i only wanted friends!
nobody likes me.
not even Brother.
he loves me.
he protects me.
but i know he doesn't like me.
he likes ranma.
he knew that ranma was a boy even before i did.
i still don't know why he fights with ranma in boy form.
he loves ranma.
boy or girl.
he told me so.
but me, when i saw ranma as a girl, i tried to fight with her.
then, when i found out that she was ranma i was happy.
ranma was obviously good friends with ryouga, and they fought all the time!
maybe i could be friends with ranma if i fought with her!
but i couldn't fight him.
i had to pretend to be ignorant of the fact that ranma-chan and ranma-kun were the same.
if i didn't, then my fight with the other girls would fail.
so i fought.
and i fought.
and not a drop of good came of it.
voices came.
voices in my mind.
talking to me.
insulting me.
hating me.
angering me.
crazy.
i had gone crazy.
mad.
insane.
crazy.
i only wanted friends.
i only want friends.
~ owari
By: Keiko Nakamoto
Disclaimer: I don't own Ranma 1/2.
Notes: Ever wonder what pushed Kodachi over the edge?
~
mad.
insane.
crazy.
sure.
they all describe me now.
but they didn't used to.
it's not my fault.
it's not brother's fault.
it's their fault.
father, ranma, akane, ryouga, shampoo, ukyou, mousse, everyone, the girls at gymnastics...
i only wanted to be friends...
father ruined me, the girls twisted me...
i only wanted friends.
potions, poisons, drugs.
i knew these things well.
but, my knowledge brought rejection from all the girls at my school.
rejection.
with rejection came madness.
i fought.
i fought because their rejection pushed me to madness.
my fighting, by and by, brought fear and respect.
but no friends.
i only wanted friends.
father thought something was wrong with me.
i never went to parties, i never had friends over.
he insulted me.
told me that every normal girl had friends.
hurt me emotionally.
abused me through words.
brother loved me.
brother protected me.
but he was my brother.
and he could never take the place of a friend.
a female friend.
someone to gossip with.
to share secrets with.
i wanted...
i wanted a friend.
at school, no friends.
but, i was feared.
and the girls' fear gave me power over them.
but i was filled with pain.
give power to pain and the result is insanity.
i was near that point when ranma and his friends arrived.
i wanted to be friends.
but, the only way i knew to get anyone to even come near me was to fight.
i had never paid attention to akane tendou.
but she was associated with this new group of people stranger than i.
so i initiated a fight with her.
and in the process learned of the thing that bound the group together.
ranma saotome.
the only thing i could use to get the girls to fight me.
to pretend to be a rival for the object of their affections.
so i entered the fight.
insanity.
pure insanity came upon me when i found that fighting got me nowhere.
i only wanted friends!
nobody likes me.
not even Brother.
he loves me.
he protects me.
but i know he doesn't like me.
he likes ranma.
he knew that ranma was a boy even before i did.
i still don't know why he fights with ranma in boy form.
he loves ranma.
boy or girl.
he told me so.
but me, when i saw ranma as a girl, i tried to fight with her.
then, when i found out that she was ranma i was happy.
ranma was obviously good friends with ryouga, and they fought all the time!
maybe i could be friends with ranma if i fought with her!
but i couldn't fight him.
i had to pretend to be ignorant of the fact that ranma-chan and ranma-kun were the same.
if i didn't, then my fight with the other girls would fail.
so i fought.
and i fought.
and not a drop of good came of it.
voices came.
voices in my mind.
talking to me.
insulting me.
hating me.
angering me.
crazy.
i had gone crazy.
mad.
insane.
crazy.
i only wanted friends.
i only want friends.
~ owari