The air is so fresh here. So pure, so free…
They wanted me, but they didn't want myself. My
true self. They just wanted a pretty face, a mask. They wanted all and I asked
nothing.
Don't think now, why bother? All is so peaceful
here, the stars upon my head are so bright, I can feel their warmth on my
cheeks…
You have to show you. You have to joke.
You have to be famous.
It's just so much to bear, why these
thoughts…now it's all gone, now I'm free, now I can fly…now I can leave, now I
can live…
My love was when I felt alive, when I
lost my consciousness in that sea of amber…
They couldn't see my complete
abandon…they wouldn't see what I felt, they wouldn't see what I was…
I was a pretty face, with a pretty voice
and a pretty body…they wouldn't see Yamato Ishida…they wouldn't know me…
They all asked everything I had in my
body, every trace of power, of love, of life…
And I had nothing…
*~*~*~*
Are what you believe, you got to bring
the dreams
Set
the pace, competitions take the lead
This is it, all eyes on you
So stay on point and prove
That you deserve what's long overdue
*~*~*~*
Fame burned my hell, the expectations I
got reclaimed every inch of my being…but not of me…
My love was what kept me going on, the
knowledge that maybe, maybe I could have been loved back…
The knowledge I wasn't alone…
You have to smile. You have to be
funny. You have to prove yourself. You have to do it.
A hot wind is now playing with my hair. I
can see gold locks waving slowly, dancing and cutting the air…the atmosphere is
so quiet, it's so peaceful lay here, with wind blowing your soul… it feels so
right, it's not cold anymore…
Cold…
Cold means them…I don't want to feel them
torn apart my heart anymore…warmth, where is the warmth, where is my lost
heart…where is he now…
No, no, no, don't think, it's al past,
they're gone, he isn't here, he never was…
My mind is playing with me…I see flash of
moments spent with him…him…his muscular body is so well sculptured…he
must be a Greek God, and I'm a fool mortal hypnotized by his magic being…
A mortal hasn't the right to love a God…
But I did it…I fooled myself…thinking he
could…love me back…
*~*~*~*
Live your dream, it's not as hard as
it may seem
You gotta work together, dream, on
hopes that you will seem
From your fears, you have to win
yourself
It's all or nothing, if you're
everything
*~*~*~*
My mind is playing me tricks…I can't see
the stars…where's their sparkling light, their warm ray of fire…
You have to be like us. You have to do
what we tell you. You have to say yes. You have to be another guy. You have to
become like the others.
No, why my brain is torturing me…now the
sky is cloudy…it's magically darkened…but there are no clouds up there…where's
the night…
Noises are strangely getting soft, it's
like all the world is silent now…I can feel my mind going blank…my eyelids
becoming too heavy to be opened…I'm tired…
They did this. They wanted all, and I got
nothing.
I think I heard a scream…maybe I know
that voice…oh mind, why are you teasing me so much…it can't be him…why should
he bother…to come…to me…
I feel a hand on my cheek; it's cold…I
hate cold…go away…cold is hurt, is pain…I don't want to feel the pain again…not
that now I'm free…the cold took all and left nothing for me…where is the warmth
I'm looking to find…freedom…peace…
You have to stay with us. You have to
laugh. You have to say yes. You have to act.
*~*~*~*
The hardest to recovery
From the heartache of another kind
I'm still drying my tears
Getting over my own fears in my life
So I wanna make sure this time that
I'm strong enough
To give it my all
*~*~*~*
That face…I know that face…no, no,
memories are wrong, remember hurts, is pain…but why that face is so right…
memories so much hated and rejected are coming back to haunt me…waves of
thoughts…remember is not wrong…it's him, he's not wrong…to love him is not
wrong…
Those eyes…I remember those eyes…but why
they're pale now…they've never been pale…they're so much full of live and
energy…what's that water in them…is he…crying…for me…whispers from those
lips…words…words coming from those lips are important…try to concentrate, the
last effort you are going to do…he is talking, but I can't hear…everything is
getting obscured…shadows are everywhere…noises are not noisy…it's all so
peaceful, silent…tired…sleep…no, you have to listen his words…words from him
are important…
You have to listen. You have to be
quiet. You have to agree. You have to say yes.
*~*~*~*
Live your dream, it's not as hard as
it may seem
You gotta work together, dream, on
hopes that you will seem
From your fears, you have to win
yourself
It's all or nothing, if you're
everything
*~*~*~*
He's…telling me those words…words I've
been meaning to hear…maybe, maybe I'm smiling to him…but why is he crying…I'm
happy now…I'm free now…
I'm tired…
Stay awake…it's your turn now…prove
yourself they didn't took away everything…
Because they asked all and I got nothing…
Darkness…it's warm…it's peaceful…it's
free…
Those words….I love you too Daisuke…
*~*~*~*
So you gotta live your dreams
So don't you be afraid
Just set the pace, and take the lead
It's your time to shine
*~*~*~*
THE END
Teti= aww, my back hurts…I hope this was worth
the effort and I didn't waste my time, instead of doing my homework ^__~ I think today Virgilius and the Aeneis could wait!
Chibimon= sniff sniff, poor Yamato…
Yamato= poor me…-___- why you always make me
die?! This is the second time it happens, and I read from your face that it
isn't the last…and you could make me die in Tai's arms dammit!
Teti= yeah, but I made a Daito yahoo!! I'm so
proud!! I disliked Davis, but lately I'm getting to like him ^__^ this idea
plopped me thanks to Kouchi taishiro_lover, to whom I dedicate this fic! Thank
you, I owe you one! And maybe next time I'll make a Koumato too :-D
Chibimon= it seems you want to write fic about
every couple with Matt!
Yamato= that's her intention, but please don't
make a Sorato would you? Please please please!!
Teti= don't even mention it!!! Aargh!!!!!!
Chibimon= you ruined her moody…
Teti= .!!!
Yamato= Teti wants to ask you for reviews, but
she's too angry to say it herself…
Teti= ::hears noises from the TV:: uh? Argh,
my bro is watching 'The Mummy' without me?! Arghhh!! ::runs away to watch to
movie::
Yamato= she left the computer on…you know what it means?
Chibimon= yeah!!! Finally we can watch hentai!
:-D
Yamato= sweet sweet Tai….
