Cosmic Love
A falling star fell from your heart and landed in my eyes
I screamed aloud, as it tore through them, and now it's left me blind
She'd gone, she really had. Previously, there had been the element of doubt planted inside his mind. Her leaving him, it was all a joke; he'd come home and find her sat there laughing at his belief in her actions. However, his rapid search of the home she also once occupied proved futile. Her wardrobes were empty, the children's rooms cleared out, no speck of the existence of a family remained.
The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart
Reaching out, he grabbed his glass of whiskey and took a long sip – it numbed him, numbed him from the pain of realisation. Realisation that he was alone – solitary, not even remnants of his previous existence and role had survived. His son was dead, his wife gone attempting to prevent herself becoming a wreck and him – he was gone. The old Adam, unable to survive the sudden amputation of fatherhood.
And in the dark, I can hear your heartbeat
I tried to find the sound
But then it stopped, and I was in the darkness,
So darkness I became
She haunted him; the memories continually flooding his being. He could hear her some nights; hear her whispering sweet nothings into his ear. Each time he'd turn, wishing deep in himself that she had truly materialised beside her. Occasionally, his thoughts would be filled with sounds of her sobs, her crying over their son. The noise caused him excruciating pain, to hear her so depressed and yet not have the ability to sever the pain, due to the fact it was imagined – merely served to cause him to fall deeper within himself.
The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart
She permanently filled his thoughts – the memories, the happy times, the essence of her; they kept him breathing – surviving merely on hope. His eyes would scan areas attempting to identify women as being her: brunette, deep brown eyes, medium height, a smile that lit up the world. Many fit the profile, but none were her. Day after day the desperation within him grew, the desperation to find a reason to be – a reason to carry on trying, attempting to become something.
I took the stars from our eyes, and then I made a map
And knew that somehow I could find my way back
Then I heard your heart beating, you were in the darkness too
So I stayed in the darkness with you
Taking in his surroundings, he inhaled deeply thinking the action could possibly assist with the removing of the numbness contained within him. He wanted to have the ability to feel once more, he needed to know he was still part of humanity. Escaping the suffocating atmosphere in his office he flung open the door in order to gain the necessary amount of oxygen needed to continue with his quest to find her. Maybe she was alone, a solitary creature now, searching for the light. Attempting to survive, continue living – like him.
The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart
He needed to accept – to face that his life was as it was now. He was alone, he is alone and he would be alone – a solitary future. Once upon a time he'd had a future, a role other than the one he possesed now. His life had meaning, now it was empty – nobody was going to live happily ever after.
The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart