A/N: Hey, everyone. I know it's been long since I've uploaded any chapters or stories but I'm back with a new story. I hope you guys enjoy it.

Lots of love, Anisoka21.

POV: Ahsoka Tano

I watched as the rain pounded the city-planet of Coruscant. Feeling stupid of what I've done. Of what I've made myself believe and then having my heartbroken by someone I thought loved me. I laughed in disgust. Who the fuck would love me? Would love a fucking fuck up? No one. No damn person would love me. Who would? All I do is cause pain towards others and myself. I pity myself. Fuck, I actually don't feel any emotion towards myself. I knew I shouldn't have fallen in love. It was against the Jedi Code and here I was, fucking having a breakdown, because I decided to break it.

Lux has caused me so much fucking pain that I've had enough of him. I've loved him with all my heart, cried for him and cared for him; what do I get? He leaves me. He fucking left me for someone else. Did he not know how much I loved him? The amount of pain I've gone through and almost being expelled because of him?

I'm glad he left. I'm more than happy to be free than crying my eyes out for him to stay. All he's ever done was sexually touch me and I'd have to fight him off to stop. I wasn't going to allow him to just have sex with me when I was still at an adolescent age. That would risk my career and my life. My master would be so disappointed in me. He'd never want to speak to me again. Anakin was the most important person in my life and will always be. Bonteri is officially off my list. I told him that the last thing I wanted to do was to hurt him, but it was still on my list.

Anakin knew about Lux's and my relationship… he knew what Lux has done to me. He always told me not to be involved with Bonteri and I was a dumb fuck to not listen to him. I didn't deserve my master's support… he should've just let me get expelled for what I did. For breaking the attachment rule.

"Snips?" Anakin's voice could be heard from the other side of the door. "Hey, you okay?" Seemingly to say, I wasn't. I wanted to say I wasn't okay but he'd worry for me and that's the last thing I want him—anyone to do. Apparently, Anakin was a different person than Lux. Anakin did care of people and fought to keep them alive while Bonteri just sat and watched the war continue. Just like any other senator.

"Yeah," my voice broke. Damn it. "I'm fine, I just need some time alone." I lied. God, I was such a bad liar. I wanted him to be here with me. To tell me everything will be all right. He was the only person who could make me see the brighter side of things.

"Soka," he pleaded, knocking on the door. "Come on, please; talk to me?" His voice sounded so sweet and pleading that I couldn't say no. I could never really say no unless he pissed me off for some reason.

I waved to slide the door open and he kind of lost his balance since he was pressed against the door. Anakin exclaimed quietly, trying to keep himself balanced before giving me a warm smile.

"I told the Council you were sick…" he announced with a tiny smirk. He walked over to me until he was sitting down beside me. "That being a lie, you're just locked up in your room." He tried to cheer me up but the happiness wasn't there… he wanted to murder Lux. I had no idea why I was such an important person to him…

"Master…" I breathed, looking at him for a moment before the ground. "Why am I such an important person to you?" I asked him, curiosity didn't advise me on what his reaction to that would be.

"What kind of question is that, Ahsoka?" He growled, standing in front of me. "Why wouldn't you—"

"Master, I don't understand why—"

"Ahsoka, do you have any idea how important you are to me? Huh?" He hissed, frowning down upon me. "The times I've risked my life to save yours!"

"And that's what I hate!" I shouted, standing up. Tears of fury escaped my eyes. Anakin was taken aback, his expression shocked. "I hate it when you risk your life for mine!"

"It's not only my duty, Ahsoka! You're some special to me! Do you have any idea what I would—how I will feel when I find out your dead?" He barked, trembling.

I bit my lip, giving him a saddened expression. "Master, I just don't think I'm that important for you to risk your own life."

Before Anakin could shout some more, his comlink beeped. He sighed in annoyance before answering. "Skywalker, here." He said, frowning.

"Anakin, the Council has a mission for you and your Padawan." Obi-Wan explained. Master Kenobi was a good friend of Anakin and me. He was always there when we got into trouble and protected is from mostly anyone.

"Master, Ahsoka here is—" Anakin began but Obi-Wan interrupted him by adding more details and how the Council told him that me being sick won't be a problem.

"The Council advised me that this mission isn't a risky mission that would be hard for a sick Jedi, which means Ahsoka." He informed us. "Ahsoka needs to be present with you tomorrow morning before the sun rises. You both will be headed to Naboo."

Anakin groaned, "Fine." He said, looking up at me. "We'll be there."

With that, the communication ended. Great, more shouts and words to be said. I didn't want to fight with him, I didn't want to hurt no more… I looked up at Anakin's beautiful blue eyes. His eyes were my weakness. They always calmed my soul, assured me that I'm safe underneath those eyes. Anakin's expression softened and turned into a saddened expression, too. He came closer to me to embrace me, saying he was sorry.

"Snips, you mean the world to me. If not the Universe." He admitted, rocking us from side to side. "I can't dream of a world without my Padawan by my side."

I tried very hard to not cry, crying didn't help. Pushing him away softly, I walked off to the bathroom. Breaking down, I let enormous amount of air in my lungs. I couldn't take this pain anymore… I didn't want to live anymore. Not because of Lux, but because I made Anakin be stuck with me. He could've just left me to cry but he didn't. He was there for me.

"Soka?" Anakin begged, his voice sounded desperate to help. "Ahsoka, please, let me help you?"

"You a-are helping me-e, Master." I opened the door for him to come in and he embraced me in his arms. Right there, in his strong hold, I just couldn't control the hatred I had towards myself. I hated myself more than anyone could ever hate a person. I hated myself because I've hurt Anakin by how I've been acting. I don't give a fuck about Lux anymore. For all I care, he could get shot several times in the heart and I won't feel any sympathy towards the cold, heartless senator. Damn myself…

Anakin hushed me, stroking my back. "Shh, it's okay. It's okay." The fact that he tried to soothe me worked, but realizing that he had to be stuck with me made me cry harder. Why was I still here? Why didn't he slap me and tell me to get over everything that I've done?

Anakin held my hand, jerking his head towards the side. "Come on, Snips. The council is waiting for us." He gave me a weak smile, knowing I was still hurting.

I nodded slightly, wiping my tears away just when his thumbs stroked my damp cheeks. "Okay…." Was all I could say. Anakin lead me out of our dorm and we headed straight towards the Council Chambers.

"Master Skywalker, Padawan Tano," Master Windu greeted along with Master Yoda. "Great to see both of you."

I bowed and so did Anakin. "Masters." We both breathed, before looking back up. Then, Anakin alone, "What's going on?"

Master Windu spoke for everyone else. "Skywalker, your Padawan and yourself will have to assist Senator Lux Bonteri to the planet Naboo to meet the Queen. Padawan Tano will have to be a representative for the Jedi due that we are part of the Republic." He explained; sorrow hit me in an instant and Anakin tensed.

"Ahsoka, you'll be a representative for us for a month or so." Master Kenobi said, keeping a wary eye on my Master.

I sighed, now I had to dress up like a Senator with gowns and jewelry… I nodded. "Yes, Master."

"Skywalker, you'll have to leave early in the morning and met Bonteri at the Senator Building before making your way to Naboo for the gathering." Mace told us before making sure we understood what he was saying.

Anakin nodded, trying to hide his anger towards Bonteri. "Yes, Masters." We nodded once again, before walking away. Damn it… I hated my mission already. Stupid Senators…

This would be fun…