Title: Silent Tears

Authoress: Shy Neko-chan~ Candice

Description: "That's when it hit him, how incredibly awkward his position on top of Tamaki must look. Anyone would think that Tamaki was trying to do something to the crying boy pinned under him. Kaoru could only imagine what Hikaru was thinking..." Twincest- Meh, sucky description due to low word count allowed on it! D:

Warning: STRONG suggestive themes, swearing, fluff, angst, slightly OOC Kaoru, HikaKao, slight KyouTama undertones, Twincest, yaoi (meaning homosexual relationships, don't like? Don't read).

Rating: T

Disclaimer: Do you really think I would spend my time fantasizing about the Twins if I owned Ouran High School Host Club? Okay, point taken, I still would. Haha XD But yeah, If I owned Ouran, it would be a yaoi. And a sexy one at that. Ouran High School Host Club does belong to its rightful owner, Hatori Bisco. I am just an obsessed fangirl with a plotline. :)

Dedication: First being, of course, Haley. Editor of whom changes her penname like none other. Haha Thank you, Andrea, for sending my cracktastic ideas I mold into this plotline. Also, thanksTyler, for nagging me to death to post this. . Hehe I'd also like to thank anyone who has ever favorited my first fic or reviewed. :o) I believe it is important to let you guys know how you encouraged me.

A/N: So…um…yeah, I'm back. This one is better, I do believe, but a little angst ridden, as is always. ^.~ This one is a little limey in the beginning. It's my first-er, actually second time I've everwritten anything remotely sexual, so go easy on me. It's also one of the only times I'll ever write in first person, so savor it. Heh So um…yeah, enjoy, please. (Damn, I make long-ass author notes! I shall work on that.)

IMPORTANT: Oh yes, I forgot to mention- italics are in flashback sequence, just so you know. :p

Silent Tears

I let out a gasp as Hikaru pinned me down passionately into the bed, eagerly returning his tender kiss. My fingers tangled up in his hair and pulled more insistently as he began to lick and suck at my neck, "Hik-Hikaru!"

What does he feel when he's with me?

I know I love him; does he love me?

Why does he ignore my love now?

Did I do something wrong?

Hikaru nipped my ear and groaned softly as he played with my bare chest. I let out pitiful sighs and moans, needing more of this, more of Hikaru. Taboo has no place here, only lustful love. I worried my lip with my teeth, my cheeks flushed with heated passion, and tilted Hikaru's chin up, connecting our lips again. I pushed back against his lips needy and he reluctantly broke our kiss, taking a breath of air, gasps coming out erratically. I had to hold back a whine that would surely come if I hadn't forced myself not to; I won't play submissive uke. He leaned forward to whisper into my ear sensually, "Kaoru, I love you so much". I shivered and responded quickly; "I love you too, Hikaru", knowing a blush would have surely risen, if my face wasn't so flushed…

Does he think that everything last night was a mistake?

Do I mean anything to him?

I can't bring myself to believe he's using me. He wouldn't…right?

Is he having second thoughts?

Or is all this a sick game to him?

It's true that no one's first time will be perfect; it's all about experimenting and figuring everything out. But it felt very near perfect as Hikaru began to bite down my next and chest, my fingers lacing through his hair to keep him closer. He was playing with me, I could tell, experimenting to see what I liked.. I let out a hiss of pleasure as…

Was it stupid to think I could be with Hikaru?

This isn't all our relationship is about, right?

He seemed so happy- what happened?

I wish he would talk to me already…

I was consumed in lust, and judging by the hard evidence straining against my thigh, I'm sure he was too. I let out soft cries of desire as his hands began to head southward and into my…

Kaoru…Kaoru…

"Kaoru Hitachiin!"

The young red head snapped out of his daydream just fast enough to realize the teacher was saying his name, wanting him to answer a random question on the board. He opened his mouth to tell the teacher he did not know the answer, but quickly shut it as he realized the teacher was looking at his twin, expecting an answer from Hikaru.

He thinks Hikaru is me…tch...typical. Not that Kaoru really minded, considering he was in math class, and he was fairly certain he would have gotten it wrong anyhow.

Eventually he drifted off into another daydream of his horrors, much to his disliking. But not before hearing the teacher reprimanding "Kaoru" and Haruhi for passing notes in class.

Nii-chan, do you really love me?

~~ Scene Change~~

"Kaoru! To whom do I bid this chance meeting?" Tamaki shouted quite dramatically, kingly smile in place. Kaoru honestly didn't know how he could be so loud and excited so late in the day. Usually by then, all the teenagers were too tired to talk much, let alone shout. And in any case, since when had he been able to tell him and his twin apart from one another? "But what is one devilish twin without the other?- Say, where is Hikaru, anyway? I figured that if I could find the twins I would be able to find Haruhi!"

Ignoring the pout that had formed on his senpai's face as he said her name, Kaoru figured the quicker he responded, the quicker Tamaki would just go away. "Hikaru and Haruhi had to stay after for detention."

"My daughter is becoming a- a delinquent?" Tamaki's horror stricken expression and dramatic arm flailing would have been hilarious to anyone who didn't already know him. But frankly, Kaoru wasn't in the mood to hear him go on.

"Honestly, stop overreacting. Hikaru got caught trying to pass notes to Haruhi in class; they both got in trouble. It's kind of funny, really. Haruhi was pissed; she said something about a sale at the commoner's market that she was going to miss." He let out a soft laugh as he adjusted his seat on the window sill; moving from his position with his arms around his legs, to putting his feet back on the ground to get more comfortable. Hopefully his laugh hadn't sounded as fake as the way he was talking. The last thing he wanted to do was laugh, especially considering it was hard enough to talk.

"Oh... somehow I see you tying into all of this. It's odd seeing Hikaru act on something without you. Is something going on? You two have been quiet and not nearly as mischievous as usual today. And you and Hikaru seem really distant. I assure you, whatever it is, son; your father can help you!" Damn. He's doing that thing where he can somehow be perceptive about anything but himself. Wide violet eyes bore into his own and Kaoru squirmed uncomfortably in his seat on the bay window.

"No, everything is alright. Stop trying to help a nonexistent problem." Lies. They were all lies but Kaoru couldn't bring himself to tell Tamaki the truth. A soft blush spread across his cheeks. Not from embarrassment or anger, but from being flustered. He choked back a sob he had been holding in all day; he couldn't cry. Not here, not in front of Tono of all people. "I'm fine. Everything is fine." he cringed as he heard his voice come out somewhat robotic. He had been whispering the very same thing to himself all day. It had become somewhat of a personal mantra; if he said it enough times, maybe it would come true.

He felt himself let out a breath he hadn't realized he had been holding in, as he watched Tono's deep violet gaze leave his while the second year strolled forward and sat beside him on the window sill. "Ya know, for the mischievous type, you're not very good at hiding your true feelings. I know what kind of person you are, Kaoru. You try so hard to handle your emotions all on your own because you don't want to bother anyone to admit help. You hold all your emotions inside and create a perfect mask so you can do what you think is best without letting anyone get a word in. It may be easy to fool Hikaru into thinking you're okay, but I know you're not." Tamaki ran a hand through his blond locks and looked out the window as he said this, as if it were something as formal as talking about the weather.

As if he weren't trying to delve into the inner recesses of Kaoru's mind.

Kaoru was at awe; who would have thought that Tamaki could be that perceptive? But along with that, he also felt a little agitated. Kaoru knew that Tamaki was used to being too close for comfort, but this was different. It was like he was trying to see right into him. Kaoru didn't like that. "Okay, fine sempai, you're right. I do have a problem, but it's not like you can help me. You live in your happy world where nothing can go wrong and it's easy to be optimistic. You would never understand."

Kaoru immediately regretted the words as soon as they came out; he hadn't meant for everything to come out sounding so harsh. But Tamaki was a tough man, Kaoru knew, even if he did act like a four year old half the time.

Though it did get a reaction from the blond. Big violet eyes widened as he turned to look at him. "Well, that's a little assuming isn't it?" He wasn't angry, Kaoru could tell that much. If anything, he seemed intrigued. "It'd be a little ignorant to assume that I don't have problems. No matter which way you look at it, everyone does. Even a beautiful and wealthy man, such as I! What really matters is how you deal with them. You choose to sulk and hide what you're feeling and thinking, but I choose to smile. You could stand to smile more, Kaoru! When-"

"If you don't mind Tono, I'm not really in the mood for a lecture." Once again, Kaoru felt horrible for sounding so harsh, but it was better to cut Tamaki off now while he was ahead. He had enough to worry about as it was, without having someone telling him how to think. He decided to cut to the chase before Tamaki had a chance to speak again, "look, I'm sorry I said anything and I'm sorry if I insulted you. You just...wouldn't understand if I tried to explain it to you. No one would, I'm alone in this."

Kaoru looked up again to see that Tamaki's expression had softened a bit. His eyes that were usually like that of a seven year olds', wide with excitement, had changed into a soft gaze. The blond actually understood how upset he was; even if he didn't know why Kaoru felt this way. He was actually being completely serious, now. Well, as serious as he could be, anyway. "How do you know that you're right about that if you're not even going to try to open up to me? Whatever it is, I won't judge you. You're part of the Host Club, Kaoru. You and your brother are part of my family." The gorgeous smile that he gave Kaoru could make anyone love him. No wonder the fangirls loved him so much, even his smile itself was breathtakingly sincere. Perhaps it was the prospect of knowing he had no one else to turn to, but something about that smile made him talk.

"I want to tell you. I want to tell somebody, anybody, but it's just not something I can talk about. Hikaru and I have a relationship that no one will truly ever understand. The girls at the Host Club have such a shallow perception of us. They believe that if we love each other, everything will work out it the end. Hikaru believes that too, but I know that it's not that easy, it never is. Even you and the Host Club, Tono, try so hard to understand, but the truth is: no matter how hard you try, you can never truly know." Kaoru was staring down at his hands, trying to avoid those sympathetic eyes that made him feel the need to choke back even more sobs than before. He blinked away tears he hadn't realized had risen as he said, "You can't know how incredibly hard it is to be in love with someone when you're constantly told that it's wrong and immoral. To hold on to them and love them with all your heart and be told that it's disgusting. To constantly be judged by everyone, it's horrible."

Tamaki had stayed uncharacteristically silent throughout the duration of his speech and Kaoru was actually starting to panic, thinking that Tamaki might actually get up and leave him in his misery again. He was about to risk a glance back at Tamaki just when his upperclassman finally replied. "You're right. No one will ever understand. But we do try to, and in the end isn't that all that really matters? I can't begin to understand how terrible you feel, but I do have an idea of what it must be like." At this point, Kaoru found himself risking a glance at his sempai in disbelief. Sure, Tono had been through a lot, but there was no way he could possibly know what it felt like to love someone and feel the utter hopelessness of knowing that you could never be with them. He couldn't. He just cou- "My grandmother, you see, is very set in what she believes. Which is fine, that doesn't bother me. It's more of the fact that she is never open to new ideas. It's not that that I intend to talk badly about her; after all, she was raised to have all these strict beliefs. When she was growing up she was raised to firmly believe that homosexuality isn't right and well..."

In the mind set he had been in all day, it took a few seconds for Kaoru to realize what his upperclassman was insinuating. Kaoru watched as Tamaki twirled his fingers in his lap and blushed a bit; it was actually scary how much he looked like a schoolgirl with a crush. And then it hit him. "Wait... So you really are gay!" Kaoru watched Tamaki's blush visibly deepen as he said this, about to open his mouth to respond to Kaoru's question, but he cut him off before he could say anything, "We all knew, Tono. We were just waiting for you to admit it and come out of denial. Though I must say: Your Haruhi obsession kind of confuses me a bit."

"Haruhi is my daughter! I would never have lecherous thoughts about my sweet angel! I'm not sexually attracted to her in any way! A father should never dare to think those kinds of things about their children." Tamaki, who had recently been in "proud father mode", quickly reverted back to twiddling his thumbs and blushing furiously; "Well that is beside the point. Anyway, as you already know, the slim chance I have of inheriting the Suoh fortune is in her hands; and if she knew I, her own grandson, was gay- no less having romantic relations with another man- I would never become head of the Suoh family." He didn't look sad as he said this; it was more like reluctant acceptance. Only the ghost of what seemed to be sorrow showed through his expression. He had accepted the fact of his inheritance long before then.

Kaoru wasn't sure what to say after Tamaki's heartfelt speech. Who knew Tono could have a serious moment? And since when had he been so emotionally mature? It was like seeing his friend in a new light; he found himself gaining respect for him at the moment. "I'm sorry I misjudged you; that must really be hard. Having to hide that from your grandmother and all." Kaoru gave Tamaki a sympathetic glace as he said this, it was odd seeing Tono unexcited, but true to his devilish persona, that quickly changed to giving him a shy smirk; It was too fun to resist teasing such an easy target, "So you've got a boyfriend, ne 'Daddy'? Better watch or 'Mommy' might get jealous!" He pulled up a hand to lay on his senpai, in an attempt to show that he was only kidding, but only stared in surprise as Tamaki squirmed and looked away. Kaoru's smirk widened as he realized what was wrong. "So Mommy and Daddy are finally together, huh?" his impish grin still in his expression as he said this and Tamaki looked back at him with a slightly sheepish smile. It was good to see that Tamaki and Kyouya had finally hooked up, all of the Host Club had seen that couple coming a long time ago. Except for maybe a slightly oblivious cross dresser we all know and love.

So caught up in his own thoughts and recent discovery, Kaoru almost didn't notice when Tamaki started speaking again. "-I guess in a way, I've always known that I love Kyouya. Even when we were younger and had just met, I never found myself able to get him off my mind. Of course, at first I had figured it was the excitement of having just made my first friend since I had moved away from France. But as I grew closer to Haruhi, I realize that even when I want to be thinking about her, he's the only person that occupies my thoughts. I really love him, Kaoru." he was staring off into space as he said this, almost as if he could see something that Kaoru couldn't. And even as such melancholy thoughts were being spoken aloud, he still seemed almost cheerful. His voice was soft, like the passionate voice he put on for the fangirls. Perhaps Tamaki really was as romantic and heartfelt as he was so prone to speaking like. "It was hard, trying to figure out how to please my grandmother while still caring for Kyouya. But now I understand that Kyouya really does mean more to me than her approval. I guess that's what it means to love someone so much..."

By now, Kaoru was once again holding back tears and choking back sobs as he listened to Tamaki talk about his love. It was easy enough to forget his sorrow when he was teasing and having small conversations with his blond sempai, but when he started to talk about deep emotions it was hard to keep in control of himself. Tamaki was never like this; so close to Kaoru emotionally that he could almost feel what the blond was feeling. All this time, everyone had had suspicions about Kyouya and Tamaki hooking up, but it was a completely different matter to see him talking about it. He sounded so passionate about Kyouya, and Kaoru found himself losing control, breaking down.

"I've always had affection for Haruhi, but of course, my daughter is adorable! On the other hand, I've always seen myself attracted to Kyouya, more than anyone. I don't find Haruhi to be sexually attractive in any way. But then, I guess that was my first clue as to figuring out my sexuality. It seems that everyone know I was gay before I figured it out! Well, except for the young princesses, but they can dream, right!" Tamaki just sounded so happy about being with Kyouya. And Kaoru wasn't so much influenced by what his friend was saying, but by just how he was saying it; with so much passion, but so freely at the same time. Like pouring his heart out to his friends was a normal occurrence to him. He wasn't even blushing anymore! Somehow, before Kaoru could really realize it, Tamaki's sweet musings brought back thoughts that Kaoru didn't want to have anymore. Thoughts of someone he had been avoiding all day: Hikaru. Thinking about his older brother made it harder to hold back sobs and tears. He knew he was slowly slipping into losing control of himself, and finally resigned himself to letting go, it was time to stop pretending.

Kaoru's slightly feminine frame shook as suppressed sobs wracked his body and tears came to his eyes. Tamaki, as oblivious as ever, was still rattling on about Kyouya, completely unaware of the crying twin beside him. The younger boy just couldn't stop the tears as they set in.

"And it's amazing to feel that Kyouya and I bo- Kaoru? What's wrong? You're crying...was it something I said?" His voice was silken smooth like honey and full of sympathy. The younger boy had seen his senpai act like this only about himself, never about Kaoru. Being the secluded twin he was, Kaoru had never felt this close to anyone, aside from Hikaru, in his life. It was oddly comforting to the boy.

The charade Kaoru had been playing all day was finally over. Tamaki had already seen him on the verge of crying, so he let the tears fall freely now. Feeling them slowly make their way down his face and watching them make pinpricks of liquid on his Ouran uniform. He felt his throat close up in the way it always did when he was upset; when he was holding back loud sobs. And yet, he couldn't bring himself to cry out openly; he still had some dignity left.

Slowly, almost tentatively, Tamaki slipped a hand into Kaoru's lap; a gesture of trying to hold the younger boy's hand in comfort. Kaoru let him grasp his hand, strangely comforted by this small bit of body language. Hands slightly wet with fallen tears, Kaoru let Tamaki get close to him, as he spoke these next words, "Kaoru; I mean it when I say, if you need to tell me anything, you know you can. I know you're not used to letting people in and I can understand why, but just this once, let me try to understand you." Golden eyes met violet as Kaoru glanced up to meet Tamaki's gaze. To see if everything he was saying was really true, testing him.

His blond sempai stared back with as much intensity as Kaoru so often felt when he was around him. It was at that moment that Kaoru knew- Tamaki really did mean every comforting word he uttered. And so for the first time since the girl that had changed everything joined the Host Club, Kaoru opened up and let someone else into his and Hikaru's small, shared world. Clutching Tamaki's hand as a sense of a security, Kaoru muttered softly, "Tamaki...you know how close Hikaru and I are...that we are, in fact, together?"

"Yes..." a content smile made its way to Tamaki's face as he said this small word. He was obviously pleased that he had gotten Kaoru to open up, maybe happy, even.

"Yes well, Hikaru and I were just fooling around in our room and- and we started kissing. Somehow, everything got so intense and I don't know how- it was all moving so fast- and we- we...um...got a little- er...intimate."

"What do you mean?" Kaoru's face tinged in a light blush as he realized his sempai wasn't quite following what he meant to say. Tamaki had never really been good at noticing when someone was trying to nonchalantly tell him something. Kaoru hadn't ever felt this embarrassed before, it was always his and Hikaru's job to tease Tono and embarrass him; was this how Tamaki felt when they teased him? Tamaki was staring at Kaoru with blank expression of wonder, before saying "Oh, do you mean to say that Hikaru confessed to you? That's great, Kaoru. I'm a little confused as to why you're so upset, though."

"No, Mi 'lord you're not quite getting it..." Kaoru looked away in frustration, face slowly turning a deeper shade of pink in embarrassment. "Look, I mean...we... you know." He proceeded to make a very obscene hand gesture.

Tamaki merely blinked in wonder. He still obviously wasn't getting it and Kaoru felt his sanity slowly leaving him.

"We….ya know, did the dirty deed?" The younger boy sighed softly and pulled his hand out of Tamaki's lap to run through his hair. By now he had stopped crying and it was getting a little frustrating to deal with Tono.

"…." Tamaki was still lost. Kaoru raised his eyebrows suggestively and his counterpart titled his head in confusion.

"You really still don't get it? How are you Kyouya's boyfriend! There's no way the Shadow Lord would keep you this innocent!"

"Well….he does explain quite a lot of…questionable things to me…" Tamaki had a brief look of horror on his face as he said this and Kaoru could only silently wonder what horrors the dark boy had told him.

At this point, Kaoru couldn't stop fidgeting in embarrassment and stood up; standing in front of Tamaki, now. "Do I really have to spell it out to you! We…we….oh, for the love of God; we had sex!" Having reached the peak of his frustration and stress, Kaoru was taken by surprise when his reply had come out so blunt. And then he realized with horror that the last three words of his sentence had come out in a yell. A very loud yell; a yell that anyone in the current wing or Ouran they sat in could hear. Oh. Shit.

Tears immediately filled the young red head's eyes as he felt himself become overwhelmed with embarrassment, hands coming up to cover his mouth as he listened to his voice echo throughout the grand hall. He took one step back, preparing to run away, when Tamaki's soft touch was felt on his arm. A light blush was on Tamaki's face as he said, "Oh, why didn't you just say that, Kaoru?"

Tamaki's gaze was gentle and he seemed almost completely unfazed by the younger boy's words. He motioned for Kaoru to come forward, and the boy hesitated before obeying his senpai. Strong arms wrapped around his smaller frame as the blond pulled him into his lap, an oddly bold move, considering what kind of relationship the two had.

Kaoru gratefully snuggled into the warmth his friend offered, forgetting for that moment that he shouldn't let his guard down, and at that point, he didn't even care anymore. It was nice to have someone, anyone, to come to and Kaoru was none too shy as he melted into Tamaki's body frame, letting the sobs rock his body again, freely crying now. As Tamaki held him in his lap on the surprisingly large window sill, Kaoru clung to him like a child to his mother, whining into his chest.

"…Kaoru? Why are you so upset? Hikaru, did he-I mean, he didn't…hurt you, right?" Kaoru leaned back a bit, so that he could see his friend face to face, as he shook his head furiously, in answer.

"No! He wouldn't! He would never do anything to hurt me…he just…we- well, all of it was perfect, and he was really gentle with me. It-it was everything I'd thought it would be, it's just," tears were still slipping down Kaoru's face, illuminating his golden eyes and he paused to hiccup before continuing. "Everything was so perfect and I was so happy, when we fell asleep last night he whispered to me over and over again how much he loved me but- but this morning I woke up and he wasn't in bed anymore. I was a little hurt, because he had gotten up to shower without me. We always shower together, the only time we don't is when we're fighting, but I had figured he-he just thought I needed more sleep after last night. But when he got out of the shower, I made a move to give him a good morning kiss and-and he pulled away really quickly and hasn't looked me in the eye all morning. I know I probably sound stupid but…but Hikaru and I just aren't distant. Even when we weren't together we still had an intense level of closeness. I just don't know what's happening to us." Kaoru looked down again, unable to look at his senpai as he poured his heart out to the blond boy. He shuddered as he felt Tamaki take him in tighter against his chest, trying to come up with the words to comfort the crying boy.

"…Kaoru, what are you most afraid of?" Tamaki's voice had a level of sincerity and kindness that Kaoru had never felt from anyone other than his brother. As he and his twin had grown up, their parents were rarely around and they had never really had anyone other than each other. It was almost too hard to believe that he could actually trust someone else.

"I guess that he…I dunno….changed his mind. That all this time I thought he loved me, but he was only using me. Manipulating me." Kaoru could feel his tears falling faster and he started hyperventilating a bit, like he always did when he was extremely upset and anxious. Tamaki had such an odd way of comforting others, but so sincere at the same time.

"He would never do that, you know. Hikaru really does love you, Kaoru. I don't know if you realize it, but every time he knows that one of the young princesses has your attention, he's unbelievably jealous. He can't stop glaring; and when sees you laughing, I've never seen him look so happy. He looks like he could just keep staring for hours and never get tired of watching you smile. You make him who he is and he makes you who you are; you could never stand to be away from each other, because you're practically one person in the way that you affect each other. You are two different people, but at the same time you aren't….but I guess that's also part of your character, ne?" He was slowly rubbing Kaoru's back, trying to calm him down while telling him what he honestly thought. He had a soft smile on his face that Kaoru couldn't see, but the younger boy could hear it in his voice, the honesty that he felt.

Kaoru was caught in a mass of emotions, barely able to decipher one feeling from another when he felt the older boy's hands slowly move his body back against the wall, so that he was still in Tamaki's lap but could feel the cold marble of the wall behind him on his back. In the back of his mind he registered footsteps coming closer but quickly disregarded it as he felt that intense violet gaze meet his eyes again, feeling a hand come up to tilt his head back, the other coming up to brush tears from away from his eyes. His breathing had slowed, but almost quickened again as Tamaki leaned in dangerously close, rubbing his ginger hair back and helping his slightly disheveled appearance. "Tamaki, I-"

"Hey Kaoru, they finally let me out of deten…" Hikaru let his sentence trail off, as he was clearly surveying the scene before him. Kaoru quickly glanced over to see his brother, mouth agape and eyes wide in confusion. That's when it hit him, how incredibly awkward his position on top of Tamaki must look, tears still clearly making their way down his face. Anyone that had randomly walked by would think that Tamaki was trying to do something to the crying boy pinned underneath him. And Kaoru could only imagine what thoughts were going through his incredibly possessive older brother's mind. "Tamaki; what the hell do you think you're doing, you bastard?"

Oh wow, I do believe I suck at making cliff hangers. XD Haha Well, I needed to, okay? This one is almost 5,000 words as it is, and I don't want to make a oneshot so long everyone gives up on reading it, ya know? So alas, it is going to be a two shot. X3 How was it? Good? Bad? Alright? I suck and you hate it? Leave a review and give me constructive crit. I can take it. ^.^ No flames, please.

Chapter/ twoshot part two, out soon! I've written a bit of it already.