Name On A Cloud

Summary: I keep my mind a blank and it feels really good. I feel like nothing is tossing around inside me anymore.

Say I'm on my way but I don't know where I'm going
been gone so many days don't know my way back home
now I'm starin' at this window
and I see my life in aerial so
I might as well write my name on a cloud

Sometimes I look up and I swear to god I can see for miles. I should be filled with that final feeling of freedom, a sweet taste that I used to dream of, remember those days? Before the only thing that filled my mind was her, her, her, her, her, HER- I fell off that plane and didn't know where the fuck I was gonna land. It's hot out here.

Where the fuck am I?

You might think I mean now, but I mean here, like in this world. What the fuck am I doing? Where am I?

I keep walking, walking, wondering whatever happened to home. I walk for miles and I can think about it her, her, her, and it's pissing me off. I don't wanna think about her. So I try to think of something else. I try to think of Gwen, but that's not doing any good. Because every time I think Gwen, I just think What about Princess, what about darling, sweetheart, sunshine, princess, princess, PRINCESS I miss her so fucking bad why the hell am I stuck out here why did I leave her PRINCESS-

So I don't think about anything.

I keep my mind a blank and it feels really good. I feel like nothing is tossing around inside me anymore.

I pass an old gas station where I buy a few candy bars and contemplate the meaning behind a chip bag when I see her on the old TV in the corner. She is looking discouraged, looking tired, looking so…

My heart wretches in my chest and I know I'm making it all up. She looks fine! She looks perfectly fine, she looks perfectly in great shape, she looks the brightest her eyes have ever looked even though I'm not there.

I'll never forget you!

Right, right, what a liar.

I walk and walk and walk and I come to one final conclusion. It hurts my heart but only because I'm hurt myself, I'm scared, I'm angry about everything that she has done to me and I don't know why.

She's so fucking perfect, it hurts, god it hurts.

I'm gonna break her heart, I'm gonna do it. I'm gonna rip her heart to shreds, I'm gonna leave her in the dust this time, I'm gonna-

I'm gonna hurt her. I'm gonna hurt her in the worst way possible.

I'm gonna hurt her how she hurt me.

I start to see the dark of night and look up to a loud, blaring night club. Next time I saw her, I was gonna bruise her. I was gonna leave her with scars this time.

Duncan?

I could have sworn that the night sky was screaming my name, screaming for me to come to my senses, but I wasn't listening. I blew a kiss to the sky, then spit on the ground. I could have sworn I saw a plane that I recognized fly by, but I must have been mistaken.

Duncan?

I was gonna break her heart.

A/N: This is my little infliction on what I think might have cause Duncan to turn into a rabid cheating monster. I really don't know.

Anyways, 'Name On A Cloud' is a song by Wiz Khalifa, I don't own it, I don't own Duncan, or Courtney, or Gwen, or TDI for that matter, I own NOTHING. Sad, isn't it?

I don't know. I gave Duncan some slack in this one. –scowls- Ugh. He doesn't deserve it, but I still l-l-l… love him.

:D Thanks for reading!