One night... that is all we get, that is all we have….
I've been a mistake from moment one even if I was a success I was never meant to be and I know it, I was never something "good" much less "perfect", even if I was taught to love him… I never really understood what love could be.
I shouldn't be and more than one has made it clear to me, what do I have left if not you, if not you….
You never judged me, you never hurt me. You know me for who I am, you understand me and taught me well, you were never unfair, never away. You've been by my side every step of the way, always with me, always in me. Always.
Ever since we met, you've been the warmest I've ever met, the cold ice that lays within me that freezes my heart, only your warmth has been able to reach, only your warmth can make it react. You have been the only one who has ever understood me, ever seen the truth in me, you can feel the cold just as I do, you can feel the need to love when you don't know how, you know the fire that freezes instead of burn, you know the pain you cannot feel. You share my curse with me and not once have you complained, not once hated me for it.
Your curse is different from mine, deeper or shallower but different yet the same.
I don't want a dream…
I want you…
I want you…