Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters in this story apart from
Juliet Montague (even though her name is taken from Shakespeare, her
character is quite different!) and Edward Brown. The plot of the story is
my own but a majority of it has come from Harry Potter and the Chamber of
secrets, Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban and Harry Potter and the
Goblet of Fire. I have also used a poem by Catullus, a famous Classical
poet, which too, is not my own. The poem found later in the story is my
own, adapted from one called 'The Addiction'. I have also used a few lyrics
from four songs. I'm not sure who two of them are by but I know 'I just
can't stop loving you' and 'Todo mi amor eres tu' are both by Michael
Jackson.
Spoilers: Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets, Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban, Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire
Conflicting emotions
'I hate and I love. Perhaps you ask why I do this. I don't know, but I feel it happening and I am tormented.' - Catullus
Chapter One
Cho Chang. The prettiest girl I've ever met. I need to tell her that all I can do is think about her but somehow, I just know I can't. It's not in me. Well, I must be brave if I've stood up to Lord Voldemort four times, but this is different.
I first met her two years ago, in my third year. Wood told us that she had fully recovered from several injuries and had returned to the Ravenclaw team as Seeker, which he didn't seem too pleased about. I didn't really give her another thought. After all, she was just the opposition. Just like Cedric. What's funny is that I can even remember the name of her broomstick - the Comet Two Sixty - Wood told me that before I met her.
The day I properly saw her for the first time, well, it was an indescribable feeling. I remember grinning a lot and me thinking to myself 'Stop it, she probably thinks you're a deformed Grindylow or something', but I couldn't help myself. She just smiled back which sent my emotions into overdrive, just as if to say 'hi' I guess. But her smile . oh it was amazing. It was like staring at the face of an angel or a divine Goddess. I will never forget that moment. During the Quidditch match after that brief interlude, while I looked for the Snitch, I was also watching her. Her skills were amazing. I remember Wood telling me 'Now's not the time to be a gentleman!' as she stopped in front of me, 'Knock her off her broom if you have to!' I didn't want to. I didn't want it to be my fault she was feeling pain, but then she deserved it for what she was about to put me through.
Somehow, I just can't seem to talk to her, and I have a feeling she's pretty not much into me. After all, she's sixteen, I'm fifteen. Plus, she's still in mourning for Diggory. Cedric Diggory - the most handsome boy in Hogwarts, whom any girl would have said 'yes' to even if he asked her to go and give Snape a peck on the cheek just to get a date with him. But that won't happen ever again. Last year, Cedric died at the hands of Lord Voldemort. Echoes of 'kill the spare.' still haunt me when I think of him. And I can't help feeling that it's my fault that he's dead. I told him to touch the Tri-Wizard cup at the same time as me, declaring us both champions of the Tri-Wizard tournament, but we both didn't know that it would have such tragic consequences. I don't know why, but part of me is kind of glad that he's dead. I know that that is probably one of the most terrible things I've ever said, but he was my rival over Cho. The sight of them kissing outside the Great Hall after the Yule Ball still fills me with a sickening feeling of jealousy, but after all, she chose him, not me. I was stuck with Parvati Patil as my partner on that night. I even asked Cho to be my dancing partner, as the four champions had to do an opening dance. It took much determination, and I eventually caught up with her. The words couldn't come out properly, and she just tilted her head to one side as if to say 'What the hell are you on about?' Eventually I managed to get something understandable out to her, and she apologised and said she was going to the Ball with Cedric. I felt myself blushing furiously and getting very hot under the collar at the sound of those words. She looked down and went very red too - possibly at the thought of going to the Ball with Cedric.
Still, I kind of got on with Cedric. He told me how to get into the Prefect's bathroom when we had to solve the riddle of the Golden Egg from the first task. I told him he deserved to win the Tri-Wizard tournament. But I didn't mean for him to die. It happened in a blinding green flash, as though someone had flicked a muggle light-switch and his life was gone. Never to return. Like my parents.
Spoilers: Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets, Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban, Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire
Conflicting emotions
'I hate and I love. Perhaps you ask why I do this. I don't know, but I feel it happening and I am tormented.' - Catullus
Chapter One
Cho Chang. The prettiest girl I've ever met. I need to tell her that all I can do is think about her but somehow, I just know I can't. It's not in me. Well, I must be brave if I've stood up to Lord Voldemort four times, but this is different.
I first met her two years ago, in my third year. Wood told us that she had fully recovered from several injuries and had returned to the Ravenclaw team as Seeker, which he didn't seem too pleased about. I didn't really give her another thought. After all, she was just the opposition. Just like Cedric. What's funny is that I can even remember the name of her broomstick - the Comet Two Sixty - Wood told me that before I met her.
The day I properly saw her for the first time, well, it was an indescribable feeling. I remember grinning a lot and me thinking to myself 'Stop it, she probably thinks you're a deformed Grindylow or something', but I couldn't help myself. She just smiled back which sent my emotions into overdrive, just as if to say 'hi' I guess. But her smile . oh it was amazing. It was like staring at the face of an angel or a divine Goddess. I will never forget that moment. During the Quidditch match after that brief interlude, while I looked for the Snitch, I was also watching her. Her skills were amazing. I remember Wood telling me 'Now's not the time to be a gentleman!' as she stopped in front of me, 'Knock her off her broom if you have to!' I didn't want to. I didn't want it to be my fault she was feeling pain, but then she deserved it for what she was about to put me through.
Somehow, I just can't seem to talk to her, and I have a feeling she's pretty not much into me. After all, she's sixteen, I'm fifteen. Plus, she's still in mourning for Diggory. Cedric Diggory - the most handsome boy in Hogwarts, whom any girl would have said 'yes' to even if he asked her to go and give Snape a peck on the cheek just to get a date with him. But that won't happen ever again. Last year, Cedric died at the hands of Lord Voldemort. Echoes of 'kill the spare.' still haunt me when I think of him. And I can't help feeling that it's my fault that he's dead. I told him to touch the Tri-Wizard cup at the same time as me, declaring us both champions of the Tri-Wizard tournament, but we both didn't know that it would have such tragic consequences. I don't know why, but part of me is kind of glad that he's dead. I know that that is probably one of the most terrible things I've ever said, but he was my rival over Cho. The sight of them kissing outside the Great Hall after the Yule Ball still fills me with a sickening feeling of jealousy, but after all, she chose him, not me. I was stuck with Parvati Patil as my partner on that night. I even asked Cho to be my dancing partner, as the four champions had to do an opening dance. It took much determination, and I eventually caught up with her. The words couldn't come out properly, and she just tilted her head to one side as if to say 'What the hell are you on about?' Eventually I managed to get something understandable out to her, and she apologised and said she was going to the Ball with Cedric. I felt myself blushing furiously and getting very hot under the collar at the sound of those words. She looked down and went very red too - possibly at the thought of going to the Ball with Cedric.
Still, I kind of got on with Cedric. He told me how to get into the Prefect's bathroom when we had to solve the riddle of the Golden Egg from the first task. I told him he deserved to win the Tri-Wizard tournament. But I didn't mean for him to die. It happened in a blinding green flash, as though someone had flicked a muggle light-switch and his life was gone. Never to return. Like my parents.