Well, this is a story I've been working on for a long while… started the first page and couldn't get past it for a long time… then suddenly WHAM, my muse kicked in and I knew how I could end it and start it really for that matter. I hope it lives up to what you all hoped it would be! If you hoped anything for it in the fist place ^^**

Notes: These are the ages that I'm having for this story…

Jyou – 18

Taichi, Yamato, Sora, Mimi, Koushiro, Ryou, Wallace – 17

Miyako, Ken – 16

Takeru, Daisuke, Hikari – 15

By the end they're all one year older then these ages.

Disclaimer: I, unfortunately, don't own Digimon. Although I'm pretty sure I own this idea concept. There are probably others out there like it… but this one is mine and mine alone! Although I do owe a little credit to a friend that gave me the idea to get it started!

Warnings: Yaoi. This story is full of Taito/Yamachi however you want to look at it. Plus one-sided Yamaken and Taishiro. So, if you don't like that, then I would suggest that you leave now. But if you do enjoy that then… I hope you have fun reading this!

Subconscious Urges

BlueMoonEmpress

Chapter 1

Coming Out

The music blared as the students inside danced to the beat, that song ended and another one was about to start when the whole of the gym looked to the doors, as they all heard a huge bang.

They all looked to who kicked open the doors, and there stood Taichi, grin plastered on his face. It seemed as if all the girls in the gym where eyeing him, smiling and whispering within their groups. But it seemed Taichi had his mind set on one person, and one person alone.

At this point he was still standing in the doorway, but he slowly moved forward, his jacket swaying in the invisible wind.

The entire gym watching him, he moved steadily forward. Although no one was sure who he was moving towards, they all secretly hoped it was them.

The music continued to blare, and yet no one danced, no one moved. There was no movement made in the gym as he moved ahead, all the eyes eerily following him.

Then, he stopped. All eyes widened as Taichi stopped and took Yamato's face in his hands and pressed his lips firmly on Yamato's.

Whispers and gasps were heard throughout the gym.

Yamato stood there stiff and wide eyed, unsure of what to do, but he slowly calmed and his shoulders slacked, then, kissed back, wrapping his arms around Taichi's neck.

Grinning against the kiss Taichi wrapped his own arms around Yamato's waist, pulling him as close to him as he could.

It seemed that the two of them forgot where they were, too engrossed in their own 'activities'.

"Ahem…"

The sound was ignored, either they didn't hear the person, or they didn't want to.

"Ahem…!"

The sound was louder this time, and the two boys pulled apart slowly. Taichi was still grinning while Yamato was bright red.

"You two! Out! This instant!"

"Why?" Taichi asked, "I wasn't doing anything illegal. Just kissing my boyfriend," More gasps and whispers where heard throughout the gym.

"Exactly! Now out!" The principal yelled again.

"That's no reason to kick us out!"

"It is for this school…!" the principal almost growled.

"Homophobic bastard…" Taichi seethed.

"I want the both of you in my office tomorrow morning, without exception…"

"But—" Yamato started.

"Save it Yama, this guy isn't worth your breath," Taichi told him. Yamato nodded silently, as the two of them walked out of the gym. Taichi's arm wrapped protectively around Yamato's waist.

"Disgusting…" was the last thing either of them heard as they left the gym.

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"Why did you do it…?" Yamato asked quietly.

"I thought it be the best way to come out," Taichi answered as they made another turn, heading to Taichi's apartment.

"Tai… I can't afford to get kicked out… you know that…"

Taichi sighed, "I know… and if it comes down to that I'll take all the blame."

Yamato's eyes widened, "I can't let you do that! It'll ruin your chances at becoming a lawyer!"

He shrugged, "I don't much care. It's my parents that want me to become one anyway. I rather… I rather help people in another way…"

Yamato looked at him, "Like how? Councilor or something?"

Taichi smiled, "Maybe… who knows right?"

Yamato smiled back, "Yeah, who knows…"

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"Taichi I can't believe you did that!" Hikari yelled as she ran into the apartment. She didn't get an answer. "Tai?" she called again.

Confused she walked into the room she shared with her brother, "Taichi?" She asked slowly, opening the door. Peering into the room she gasped audibly, covering her mouth with her hand, "Oh! God, I'm so sorry!" Closing her eyes she ran out of the bedroom.

Fumbling greatly, Taichi straightened himself and pulled the blankets on his bed closer to his body, "Shit…"

Yamato sat beside him, blankets hugging his upper torso as he sighed.

Standing Taichi grabbed his pants and carelessly threw them on, "I'll be right back." And walked out of the room.

Closing his eyes Yamato let his head hit the wall behind him.

"'Kari?" Taichi asked hesitantly, walking into the living room where his little sister sat on the couch. Inching his way forward he said, "Sorry you had to see that… probably wasn't on your 'to do list' for today." Snapping her head to look at her brother Hikari glared through narrowed eyes. "'K-'Kari…?"

"How could you do this Tai?" She asked sternly.

"Do what?" he asked confused.

"The thing at the dance! Do you have any idea what that has done?"

"Um, yeah. It almost got me kicked out of school? I have to go and see the principal tomorrow morning?" Her stare hardened. "Am I missing something here?"

"As usual you miss the whole thing! Do you have any idea what mom and dad are going to say to this?!" She yelled.

Taichi winced, "I—I never thought about that…"

Hikari shook her head, "No, no you didn't think did you. Seriously Taichi! How stupid can you get?!"

"Hey, listen! I may not have thought it out all the way before I actually went and did it but that doesn't matter now because it's done! Over with! Nothing I can do about it now!"

"They're going to go ballistic. I'm surprised Yamato isn't pissed off at you for doing it, knowing how his father will no doubt react."

"H-how do you know how Yamato's father will react?" Taichi asked fearfully.

"Um, hello? How long have we known his father? He's going to freak! Just like our parents are going to freak."

Raking a hand through his thick bush of brown hair, Taichi sighed, "Quite lecturing me Hikari. I get the point."

"To bad it's a couple hours to late Taichi." Standing she walked past her big brother and to the front door, "For your sake I hope they go easy on you. I'm going to stay at Miyako's tonight. I actually want to sleep."

Sighing, Taichi trudged his way back to his room. "Yama?"

Head lowered Yamato nodded.

Taichi walked towards him and sat down on the bed, he placed a hand on his friend's shoulder, Yamato flinched away. "Yama? What's wrong?"

"Hikari's right… I'm dead… my dad's going to kill me… either that or send me away somewhere…" He started rocking back and forth fearfully.

Crawling towards his boyfriend cautiously Taichi slowly reached up a hand and brushed back some of his golden locks. "It's going to be okay Yama. I'll do everything within my power to keep us together."

Lifting his head slightly Yamato blink back the unshed tears, and tried to smile up at his friend, no matter how strained it was. "Yeah, okay…"

Sighing again Taichi leaned down and kissed Yamato's forehead. "Is it okay to say I love you?" Taichi whispered.

Eyes widening somewhat Yamato nodded, however slightly, a small smile gracing his lips, "Yeah…"

Not receiving exactly the response he had hoped for Taichi forced a smile upon his lips as he snacked his arms around Yamato's stomach, leaning his head on the others shoulder. "We'll get through this."

Nodding again Yamato answered, "I know…"

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When Taichi arrived at the school the next morning he found the blonde already waiting in chairs outside of the office.

"Hi there beautiful," Taichi whispered as he sat down next to the blonde musician, making to grab one of his hands to kiss.

Pulling his hand away before Taichi could kiss it, Yamato muttered a small, "Hey," before turning his gaze back down to the floor.

Sighing Taichi slumped in his seat, until they were called into the office.

The both of them sat down across from the cherry oak desk that was cluttered with papers, pens and a computer, which sat at the edge of the desk.

Principal Taylor narrowed his eyes as he looked at the two young men sitting across from him. He cleared his throat, "I assume the both of you know why you're here."

Yamato was about to say yes when Taichi cut in, "Actually sir, we have no idea." Staring at him, Yamato blinked.

"You're… behavior last night was entirely inappropriate. Urges like that should be left untried and set aside in your mind. You really shouldn't be…" Taylor paused for a second.

"Shouldn't be what sir? Because I don't see how we've done anything wrong."

"D-don't see…" Taylor stuttered. "You kissed him!" he yelled, pointing at Yamato who noticeably shrunk further into his chair.

"Your point being?" Taichi asked, disinterested.

"He's another boy. It's unnatural for you to… to kiss him as you did."

"I'm sorry sir, but you're going to have to enlighten me a bit, I'm afraid I don't see how what I did was wrong."

"Are you trying to get your ass expelled Yagami? What you did last night was wr—"

"Rightfully my business and not yours." Taichi cut in.

Glaring the principal slammed his palms against his desk, "Yamato could you leave us for a moment?"

Yamato nodded, and with a side-glance at Taichi, left the office.

Sighing Yamato closed the office door behind him and walked back over to the chairs, surely he wouldn't be able to get off that easily. He would, at the very least, be getting a phone call home to inform his father or his 'wrong doings'. And then the pain would come, then… Yamato wasn't sure he knew what would happen when his father found out.

Within the next half-hour the principal's office door swung open and an enraged Taichi stalked out of it, not even stopping to wait for Yamato.

Looking from his boyfriends re-treating back to the open office where the principal sat smiling at his desk and made no move to come and get him, Yamato stood quickly and ran to catch up with Taichi.

"Taichi! Taichi, wait up!" Yamato cried, speaking for the first time since their greeting that morning. Halting in his tracks Taichi turned around angrily and glared at Yamato. Widening blue eyes stared into the chocolate brown orbs he loved so much, looking for some sort of an answer, "Taichi?"

"I'm being transferred out of the school."

"What? Why?"

"'Say's it'll do me good to get away from you. 'Says that way I won't have those 'sub-conscience urges that I seem to be making conscience beyond my will'!" Taichi told him, dramatically waving his arms around in the air.

"H-he can't send you anywhere without your parents permission."

"Uh-huh, yeah, I know. Too bad he's already gotten it." Taichi replied sarcastically.

"Oh… well… it probably won't be that bad I mean… we can still see each other on the weekends?"

Closing his eyes Taichi shook his head; "No we can't Yama."

Lowering his voice slightly, fearful of the answer Yamato asked, "Where are they sending you?"

Sighing Taichi replied, "Some boarding school outside the city. A boarding school. They're going to make me live at a school…"

"Taichi…"

He laughed bitterly, "And the thing about this is… it's an all boys school. How the hell am I supposed to get rid of these 'sub-conscience urges' when they're sending me off to a place that'll be full of the one thing I'm attracted to?" Yamato stayed quiet. "Yama? You okay?"

Nodding slowly he kept his head lowered, not willing to look into the others eyes.

Walking closer to him Taichi wrapped his arms around Yamato's shoulders and kissed his forehead. "It'll be alright. I won't let those 'sub-conscience urges' get the better of me." He joked. Laughing slightly Yamato looked up. "I love you Yama. No one else."

Yamato nodded, "I know, I love you too Taichi."

Taichi smiled.

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A little short and nothing really happened I know, but it's just the first chapter. I swear…

---BlueMoonEmpress---