READ FIRST! This is the second part of under Amanda's control. Please read that first so this story makes more sense. The url: s/8845935/1/Under-Amanda-s-Control . I decided to write the second part because I didn't want it to end and I LOVE OWEN ALEX moments. I hope you all enjoy it.

It had been a month after Alex had gone to Sean's funeral. Even with all that time, she wasn't herself. She never smiled, she never laughed, and she just went on missions and went home. Nikita tried to help her, but had no time since she was dealing with Michael's memory loss. Alex felt more alone than ever. She just blocked everyone out and tried to hide her pain.

Owen could see that she was shutting everyone out. Whenever he tried to comfort her, she just ignored him as if he wasn't even there. He knew she just needed to talk. She would never ask for help her own. She was too headstrong to ask for anyone to help her. Owen knew this. He didn't care if she had feelings for him or not, he just didn't want to see her suffer.

There was a debriefing for the next mission at division. "We don't know if Amanda had any other friends that might try something. We are going to stake out her mansion and see if anyone shows up. Since Nikita is spending all her time helping Michael regain his memory. It's up to you and Alex," Fletcher looked at Owen.

Owen nodded. He knew this might give him a chance to talk to Alex. "When do we leave?"

"Wheels up in an hour," Ryan looked at Alex.

She didn't say anything. She just looked at him and left. He was sure she was going to the armory to prepare. He gave a look at Owen, pretty much telling him to watch Alex's back.

Owen went to the armory to prepare as well. Before he walked in he saw Alex taking a deep breath. She was leaning forward on a table. He could tell she was trying to hold it together. Out of nowhere she slammed her fist on the table. It hurt him to see her hurting, especially alone. She closed her eyes and took another deep breath; she slowly began to reload the gun for the mission.

Owen took about a minute before walking in. Alex turned around to see who it was. She didn't say anything when she saw it was Owen. "Ready to stake out an empty house?" he said jokingly.

Alex didn't say anything. She just glanced at him before returning to the mission's preparations. Owen barely saw her eyes, but when he saw them they were filled with pain. They were engulfed with the look of sadness and helplessness.

She loaded her gun and grabbed her black bladed knife. It was the same knife she tried to kill Amanda with. She had failed, but the knife made sure she would never fail again. It was dead quiet; there was only the sound of guns reloading and bags being filled with weapons.

Alex was beginning to walk away after finishing, when Owen grabbed her wrist. "You don't have to suffer alone," he ensured her, "You have friends that care about you and hate to see you like this."

"I'm fine Owen. If I needed to talk to someone I would. I can take care of myself."

Owen let go of her wrist in shock. He wasn't trying to force her. He just wanted for her to know he's there for her. If she needed to cry on someone's shoulder he was there.

They left for the mansion. The whole trip was filled with silence. Owen didn't know what to do at that point. He wanted to be there for her, but it wasn't worth losing her for trying too hard. He would just have to wait for her to open up to him.

One they got to the mansion they began the stakeout. It was dark and the stakeout was mostly just sitting in a car watching an empty house. Owen opened his mouth preparing to say something, but he wondered why. She wasn't going to talk to him.

It had been at least four hours since the start and beginning to get dark. Owen mostly focused on the house through the binoculars. "I'm sorry. Please don't die." Alex murmured with heavy breath.

Owen quickly dropped the binoculars and placed his hand on his gun. He then noticed Alex was just dreaming, or more like having a nightmare. "Please come back. I can't risk losing you," she began to panic.

This was a chance to hear what was bothering her, but he couldn't watch her suffer.

"Alex, its ok, it's just a nightmare," he was gently shaking her.

Alex rushed awake. She had sweat going down her head and her breath was filled with panic. "Alex its ok, the nightmares over," Owen was trying to calm her down.

Alex tried to calm down and wiped the sweat from her head. She turned away, towards the window, and leaned back like she was trying to fall back asleep. "This nightmare will never end," she said under her breath.

Owen looked down. He had guilt in his heart. He felt like he should have helped her by now. He put his hand on Alex shoulder. Just the touch made her heart begin to beat faster. "Alex, you can't keep pushing people away. It's hurting you too much," he said trying to help.

"Owen, don't act like you care. The kiss we had didn't mean anything. Just leave me alone already."

"I know you hurting. Just talk to me," he placed his hand on top of hers.

She didn't pull away. The feeling of his hand made her relax a little. She closed her eyes and took a breath. "Sean's dead. He died because of me. If I hadn't taken those drugs he would still be with me," she removed her hand from his and buried her face in her hands. Tears were pouring down her face.

Without hesitation Owen put his arms around her and brought her close. His hug made her feel safe. She buried her face in her chest. "It's all my fault!"

"No matter what happens, never blame yourself for anything," he whispered to her.

She lifted her head from her chest. She looked into his deep blue eyes. They were filled with so much care. She slowly began to move closer to him. His lips were only a centimeter away. She could feel his warm breath on her lips. Their eyes closed, the moment felt so right. But before they could kiss she opened her eyes. "Look," she pointed to the mansion.

Owen opened his eyes and looked to see what she was pointing to. Someone was entering the mansion. Alex glanced at Owen, what was she doing?

Thanks for reading this I hope you like the first chapter. Please review with ideas!