A/N: First of all, I would like to thank EmoButterfly1 for beta-ing this story. You've really helped me with this chapter and it turned out really pretty good in my opinion. To the Kaname fans, I'm really sorry! I love Kaname but this idea wouldn't get out of my head so i had to write this. To the Zero fans, I'm also sorry to say that he won't be in this story at all. Anyways, Enjoy!

Genre: Angst, Tragedy

Rating: T (cuz im paranoid)

Warning: Has minor violence and lots of angst. If you're the kind that likes stories full of sunshine and daisies, please return to the previous page to read something different.

Some characters are OOC!

Disclaimer: Sadly I do NOT own Vampire Knight or any of the characters in it and I am not Hino Matsuri. NO Copyright Infringement Intended.This is solely for fanfiction purposes only and in no way do i make any profit out of this.

Chapter 1

Her sobs echoed throughout the large bedroom. She was clutching the blanket tightly in her small hands whilst curled up in a fetal position. Her chocolate brown eyes were clenched shut as tears flowed down her pale cheeks.

"I hate you!" Yuuki whispered brokenly opening her eyes. They were puffy and red from crying so much and her once warm eyes now had a haunted look in them. Her long brown hair was messy and wild from not having brushed it for a while. It had a been a week since his death and Yuuki was still distraught. Since his death Yuuki had done nothing but lie in bed crying. Yuri, Aidou, Ichijo, Ruka, and all her friends, tried to make her get out of bed, but no matter what she wouldn't budge. They had to force food and blood in her mouth because she wouldn't eat or drink anything. Yuuki didn't want to drink anyone else's blood but her Onii-sama's. His blood was the only thing that satisfied her.

Usually Yuuki had someone else in the house with her, but not today. She couldn't feel the presence of any other vampire besides herself. Yuuki vaguely remembered Ruka telling her that she would be in town for the day. Soon her thoughts came back to her Onii-sama.

"Why did you leave me all alone Onii-sama?" She asked as she turned over to face the ceiling.

"You promised me you would never leave me, you said you would be beside me forever!" She murmured dejectedly. Yuuki could clearly remember the day her Onii-sama made that promise to her. Closing her eyes she stared to relive that night once more.

Flashback

"Promise me you'll never leave me." Yuuki spoke with uncertainty.

"Of course not! I'll forever love you and stand by your side!" Kaname, her Onii-sama exclaimed. "You should never doubt my love for you, you know how much I care for you."

"Forgive me Onii-sama." She murmured, shyly meeting her lover's deep reddish-brown eyes. Yuuki felt as if she could forever get lost in those deep liquid pools.

"There is nothing to forgive, my dear girl." He replied softly and lovingly captured her soft red lips with his own. She gladly returned the kiss and quietly sighed against his lips. The two lovers stayed in that bubble of innocence for a small moment. Innocence was something vastly rare to find in the vampire society. In that moment, nothing else mattered to them, the only emotion felt was love and innocent passion between two lovers and nothing else. They pulled away from each other after a while.

"I love you, Onii-sama." Yuuki whispered affectionately looking into his reddish-brown eyes.

"I love you too." Kaname replied, his voice filled with adoration for his younger sister.

End Flashback

Yuuki couldn't take it anymore! She didn't want to be reminded of him anymore. No more could she take the pain in her heart that caused her to fall into deep anguish and depression. Living without her Onii-sama was unbearable. She ached for him so much, and when he died, he took her soul along with his. Yuuki remembered something that could take the pain away forever. Getting up from the bed, Yuuki walked briskly yet quietly to the bathroom that was adjoined to the bedroom.

Her feet padded along the soft shaggy carpet. Once she got to the bathroom, Yuuki locked the bathroom door and went to the cabinets to find what she was looking for. Rummaging thorough the cabinets, she took out the small bottle of poison and the small knife. She didn't know why they were in there, but at the moment she couldn't care less about that fact. Grabbing the two items, Yuuki sat down on the floor and opened the small bottle. Hoping that the poison was effective, she downed the bottle quickly. Immediately, the drink made her vision blurry and her body began to ache all over.

"Just the effect I was looking for." Yuuki thought. "It helps me forget the other pain in my chest a little."

"Now the next thing I have to do to completely take away this pain." Contemplated Yuuki.

"All I have to do is run this blade deeply through my arms and let the blood flow." She thought hesitantly.

"To see Onii-sama, I have to do this so I can see Onii-sama again." With that thought, Yuuki swiped the blade deeply across her right arm trying to hit as many veins as possible. The crimson blood flowed out from the large gash on her arm. Thinking about his warm reddish brown eyes, she sliced her arm again. The pain she felt, was more like a relief than actual pain itself. The more she thought of him, the more gashes she made across her arms. By now, there was a large pool of crimson blood around her, contrasting with the white walls and white tiles of the bathroom. Looking at her arm, Yuuki saw the crimson blood pouring from her long cuts.

"It's… so… pretty." Yuuki whispered. To her, there was something beautiful about the gory scene. Her eyelids were drooping as fatigue finally caught up with her. With a clank the small knife dropped from her small hand to the white tiled floor. Her shoulders were slumped making her look like a small broken doll.

"Onii-sama is the only reason I live so if you're gone Onii-sama, then I have no reason to live." Thought Yuuki before darkness took over her.

A/N: So how was it? Did i do good?bad? Please review and tell me wat you think!