Mistakes Chapter 1
Preface
Everyone makes their fair share of mistakes in their life, It's what makes people who they are today, but I'm what people would call different, my life has been full of mistakes, ones that have led me down a dark path. If we could all make one wish in our lives mine would be to turn the clocks back and change all of the mistakes I made. I know this could affect everything I have today buts it's a risk I can take.
Flashback
Bella's Pov
I came home from school that day, not knowing what to expect, and saw Edward sitting by my bedroom window, Gazing out and staring at nothing...
"Take a seat Bella" he said, His voice was careful and guarded.
This can't be good I thought, Taking advantage of him not being able to read my mind.
"wh...What's wrong?" I stuttered, afraid to ask. "Bella, I don't love you, I never have and never will, I'm sorry."
Slowly my knees collapsed, I fell to the floor, "n...no...You can't, you promised." I mumbled, as I started to find it hard to breathe.
"Bella, I'm sorry, me and my family are leaving, so I come by to tell you to forget me, you are not good enough for me , and am sorry for the pain I have caused , Please promise me one thing , you won't do anything stupid and in return I will stay away."
I couldn't stand it any longer, I lashed out at him
"Edward I hate you, just go and never come back." I screamed at him, my eyes began to get heavy and silent tears rolled down my face.
Calmly Edward approached me.
"Bella love, please don't do this, it's not healthy."
I got up from the floor and stood there shocked did he just call me Love. My stomach started to get tighter as if it was tied up in knots and getting pulled, suddenly I felt the need to attack. I started to punch Edward forgetting how strong he was and hurt my wrist but I didn't care all I wanted to do is hurt him like he had hurt me,.
"Don't you dare call me love you pathetic piece of trash." I screamed, while falling back to the floor and curling up into a ball, I stayed silent for awhile thinking about what was going to happen now, until Edward interrupted the silence.
"Bella, please." Edward's velvet voice whispered to me as he knelt down in front of me."Would you at least speak to me?"
I just sat there ignoring him, trying to erase the pain I was feeling.
"Bella, if you won't speak to me, then at least promise me you will careful, just because I am leaving doesn't mean that you can't fall in love with someone else , please Bella go live your life and forget that I ever existed. With that Edward left.
Slowly, I stood up and walked towards the window, which Edward had just left through, but there was no sign of him.
Quickly, I ran, not caring where I ended up, as long as I was away from forks and anything that reminded me of the Cullen's of him.
End of flashback
Bella's Pov
This was the first mistake I made that led to all the other mistakes in my life, when Edward left I wasn't sure if I could live without him in my life and so I blocked out the world and ran away not caring who I hurt.
Flashback
I ran for about an hour before I reached the destination I wanted to be in , i knew someone had to be there I just didn't know what to say to him .
Reaching his front door I started to become anxious what if he judges me or he doesn't want to know me anymore I couldn't take myself to knock at his door all I could see was the world closing in on me and I knew at the point I needed to get away.
End of flashback
Bella's Pov
I wish I had knocked on his door and not been afraid of his reaction , at least then I could have had someone support me through hard times , but all i done was push him away and hurt him but he didn't deserve it.
Flashback
Staring at the door I knew I had to leave before they seen me but I just couldn't leave without saying bye so I left a note
The note
Jacob
I'm sorry I'm writing this is in a note but I just can't face you right now, I can't be your best friend anymore I'm not the same girl I used to be when we made mud pies together in the summer, I've grown and Its time I need to find my wings and fly I don't think I will be back and don't bother looking for me because I don't want to be found and you won't be able to find me
Goodbye Love Bella xxxxx
I left the note where I knew he would find it and I left for good not looking back
End of flash back
Bella's Pov
I know he found the note because he tried to contact me but I just couldn't contact him back my mind wasn't in the right place all I wanted to do was find Edward My Edward and his family. I wish I did contact him back but I guess I'll have to live with that mistake until I can turn the clocks back. A few days after I left I found out I was pregnant but I was very confused because vampires can't have children.
Authors Note
Hi, I have decided to re-write always a day to late and make it into a new story called mistakes, It's took me awhile to figure out where I was going with the story and I have finally figured it out. New chapters will be coming soon please review. Thank you everyone who has been Patient xx
StephanieSwan